[FSG]Feeling happy-- I am not happy but thankful for(Thankfull indeed)

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I'm not the happiest lamb in the flock but I too am thankfull for my little

camper in moms backyard which is an acre

to myself,no more trailer park trash 24/7 loud muffler traffic. Mucc much nicer

than the county jail ! ! !

I've got my flat screen TV and nice home theater and my guitars and sweet

sounding tube amps Bla bla bla.

I have access to a pantry full of food. I have med insurance. I have much more

than just food clothing and shelter.

I have a mom that loves me in her own way,she doesn't show me the love in the

way I would like to see it but that's my shortcoming. And like Debra said/wrote

I have all of you for 7 months now and w/out you I don't know or can't imagine

how I would have or wouldn't have handled this FM moster DX. I tank YOU ! ! ! Do

any of you remeber that ZZ TOP song I thank YOU,well someone else wrote it but

ZZs version is the one I'm familiar with. Well I thank YOU for loving

me,encouraging me and supporting me thru the HELL of this

DIS(ease)...............

To: Fibromyalgia_Support_Group@...: ladybug75901@...:

Tue, 23 Oct 2007 11:06:23 -0700Subject: Feeling happy--- I am not happy

but thankful for ..........

One more letter before I head to work.I wish I could think of something that

makes me happy. I know I sound like a real drag here but I am never happy

anymore. That sounds so terrible. However, I do try to think of things that I am

thankful for and perhaps I should do that more often. I am thankful for my

little children, they are a blessing to my life though it is tough to be a mom

with this illness. I am thankful that I have a place to live and it is nice. I

am thankful that I have a job though I get tired of working. (it could be a

worse job). I am thankful I am still able to push my butt out the door to go to

work. I am thankful for my husband though he does not seem very supportive

sometimes. But, he does the laundry and takes care of the kids and the house

which I would not be able to do by myself. (at least it would be more difficult

than my life is now if I did not have him). I am thankful that there is always

an overstock of food in the house and none of us go hungry. I am thankful for

the smiles the old people give me at work because they know how much I love

them. I am thankful that my boss is so wonderful even though she does notreally

understand fibromyalgia and I don't think she cares to. That said, she is always

there for me and lets me have days off if it can be arranged. (for times when my

husband is sick and I have to take care of the children by myself). I am also

thankful that I have a doctor that will prescribe pain medicine and believes me.

Let me not forget----- I AM THANKFUL FOR ALL OF YOU. You all make my days so

much more bearable. I think I was led to this website when I was looking for a

support group. There could not be a better one.I need to let go of fear. Because

I know that the fears I have about the future will do me no good today. As for

happiness, I just don't have it alot. I don't think anyone should feel sorry for

me because that is probably just the way I am. I can't be very happy when I am

exhausted and hurting. And I also have a diagnosis of major depression that goes

back for years. It stays at bay with zoloft for now. I am not terribly

unhappy... just somewhere between depressed and happy. Ok, well there is my

boring story for the day.to my best

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