Need Help. Does anyone else do this?

[Guest guest]

Hey everyone. I'm 20 years old and have a diagnosis of Fibromyaliga

but no real depression or anything like that. I've been on 60mg of

Cymbalta every day since the beginning of Decmeber. My problem is

sometimes when I've been pushing myself way too hard and ignoring

all the other signs my body gives me to slow down, sometimes I have

like a mental type of breakdown. I get really angry and have this

overwhelming urge to throw and break things (I've never given into

it but it's very hard and I'm scared one day I will.) I'll pick

fights with my husband or my loved ones and scream all kinds of

obsenities at them, try to leave to go somewhere else, etc. The next

day I usually don't even remember the fight. I don't remember

screaming F--- You at my loving wonderful husband or why I did it. I

don't know why I wanted to leave or where I thought I was going. My

husband is really good about it, he tries to calm me down and get me

to just rest, he never lets me leave the house, even to the point of

wrestling me to the floor if he must. I grew up with my mother

having CFS and Fibro among other things and she had episodes like

this very often. What is this called and does anyone else do this? I

feel so crazy and don't know how to explain this to my doctor

without looking like a nutjob. Thanks guys. -

[Guest guest]

Hi

I do have episodes of frustration and crankiness but fortunately not to the

extent you describe. Did they start after you started the medication or did

you always have light episodes of the like.

Never underestimate what weird side effects can accompany medication.

In a perfect world you would have a doctor you would feel comfortable

discussing this with. I hope you do. What worries me most is that you don't

remember. This must be so scary for you and your family!!!

Maybe your more depressed than you realize.

At 20 it is hard to believe and face a life that is no way near as healthy as

most 20 yr old. The grieving process for your loss of the life you expected

and probably crave must be overwhelming!!!

I hope and pray that you tell your doctor if this should continue.

Talk it over with your hubby. And NO I don't think your crazy or nuts.

I think like any symptom your body is trying to tell you something is going

on.

I'm sending you " " big encouraging hugs " "

Keep in touch

Dailey wrote:

Hey everyone. I'm 20 years old and have a diagnosis of Fibromyaliga

but no real depression or anything like that. I've been on 60mg of

Cymbalta every day since the beginning of Decmeber. My problem is

sometimes when I've been pushing myself way too hard and ignoring

all the other signs my body gives me to slow down, sometimes I have

like a mental type of breakdown. I get really angry and have this

overwhelming urge to throw and break things (I've never given into

it but it's very hard and I'm scared one day I will.) I'll pick

fights with my husband or my loved ones and scream all kinds of

obsenities at them, try to leave to go somewhere else, etc. The next

day I usually don't even remember the fight. I don't remember

screaming F--- You at my loving wonderful husband or why I did it. I

don't know why I wanted to leave or where I thought I was going. My

husband is really good about it, he tries to calm me down and get me

to just rest, he never lets me leave the house, even to the point of

wrestling me to the floor if he must. I grew up with my mother

having CFS and Fibro among other things and she had episodes like

this very often. What is this called and does anyone else do this? I

feel so crazy and don't know how to explain this to my doctor

without looking like a nutjob. Thanks guys. -

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[Guest guest]

, when I was on Cymbalta I had weird thoughts like pulling out in

front of on coming traffic, or cutting my wrist " just to see what it felt

like " TELL you doctor right away Hon. This isn't good for any of you.

etta

Need Help. Does anyone else do this?

> Hey everyone. I'm 20 years old and have a diagnosis of Fibromyaliga

> but no real depression or anything like that. I've been on 60mg of

> Cymbalta every day since the beginning of Decmeber. My problem is

> sometimes when I've been pushing myself way too hard and ignoring

> all the other signs my body gives me to slow down, sometimes I have

> like a mental type of breakdown. I get really angry and have this

> overwhelming urge to throw and break things (I've never given into

> it but it's very hard and I'm scared one day I will.) I'll pick

> fights with my husband or my loved ones and scream all kinds of

> obsenities at them, try to leave to go somewhere else, etc. The next

> day I usually don't even remember the fight. I don't remember

> screaming F--- You at my loving wonderful husband or why I did it. I

> don't know why I wanted to leave or where I thought I was going. My

> husband is really good about it, he tries to calm me down and get me

> to just rest, he never lets me leave the house, even to the point of

> wrestling me to the floor if he must. I grew up with my mother

> having CFS and Fibro among other things and she had episodes like

> this very often. What is this called and does anyone else do this? I

> feel so crazy and don't know how to explain this to my doctor

> without looking like a nutjob. Thanks guys. -

>

>

>

> 1. While it is wonderful to share our experiences with everyone on the

list as to what treatments do and don't work for us, pls always check with

your dr. Some treatments are dangerous when given along with other meds as

well as to certain health conditions or just dangerous in general.

>

> 2. If you are in a difficult situation (doesn't matter what it is) pls

don't be afraid to ask for help. It is the first step to trying to make

that situation better.

>

> 3. To unsubscribe the e-mail is:

Fibromyalgia_Support_Group-unsubscribe

>

> 4. Also, it is not uncommon for more than one member to be feeling bad at

the same time when it comes to flares and b/c of that potentially take

something another member says the wrong way. And that includes the things

that one member may find funny (even if it's laughing at fibro itself) even

though we who deal with illness whether one such as fibro or multiple

illnesses try to keep a sense of humor.

>

> 5. Pls let's be gentle with each other, and if you are having a bad day

pls let us know so that we can do our best to offer our support.

>

> Have a nice day everyone.

>

>

[Guest guest]

Hi , thanks for the encouragement. I had the episodes before

starting the Cymbalta. I just got the Fibro diagnosis in November

and this is the first med we've tried so far. My next appointment is

in March. The Dr. said he wanted it to get in my system really good

for a few months before we took any other steps.

The episodes were more frequent before the Cymbalta but the fact

that I have them at all bothers me. Most of my childhood it was just

my mother and I and she got sick when I was about 7 years old. She

became unable to work and was finally accepted for disability. I

homeschooled myself and was the primary caregiver of the household.

My biggest fear was getting sick myself some day. When I was finally

diagnosed, the Dr. told me I just had a gentetic disposition to the

disease and there was nothing anyone could have done. Definitley a

hard thing for a 20 year old to grasp and I'm sure I do have some

depression.

My mother had these same episodes, getting mad over what seemed like

nothing, throwing things, crying and screaming, threatening to run

away because " nobody loved her " . The next day she wouldn't remember

any of it. I always just kind of thought she was crazy until it

started happening to me too. My husband has literally had to tackle

me down and just hold me still until I gave up and fell asleep to

keep me from leaving in the middle of a rage. The next morning I

only remember small pieces and flashes and have no idea where I

thought I was going or why I was upset.

It will definitley be discussed with my Dr. on my next visit. I just

wanted some insight as to whether it was maybe connected to the

Fibro or maybe just connected to my family in particular?

Thanks,

[Guest guest]

,

I too am on cymbalta, and it works WONDERS for my pain, TOM time I still hurt a

LOT, but the rest of the time my pain may be minimal to none (some few days a

month!). I don't have other issues like you are having, though. I urge you to

call your dr first thing monday morning and explain what is going on with the

outbursts. When we are tired it is harder for us to control our emotions (I

liken it to how alcohol reduces our inhibitions), and so it is easier for us to

outburst. Making sure you are getting enough rest, NOT taking on too much, and

more than anything, telling your dh when you are feeling overwhelmed and

starting to feel a bit on the " wild hair " side may help to reduce your outburst.

What worries me is that you are blacking out, and that can be a more serious

problem that you MUST speak to your dr about. I don't mean to worry you, but

just trying to urge you! All meds like cymbalta will say " if you have suicidal

thoughts.... " etc to contact your dr immediatly. This is prolly one of those

things you shouls contact him about.

Just my 2 cents

Need Help. Does anyone else do this?

Hey everyone. I'm 20 years old and have a diagnosis of Fibromyaliga

but no real depression or anything like that. I've been on 60mg of

Cymbalta every day since the beginning of Decmeber. My problem is

sometimes when I've been pushing myself way too hard and ignoring

all the other signs my body gives me to slow down, sometimes I have

like a mental type of breakdown. I get really angry and have this

overwhelming urge to throw and break things (I've never given into

it but it's very hard and I'm scared one day I will.) I'll pick

fights with my husband or my loved ones and scream all kinds of

obsenities at them, try to leave to go somewhere else, etc. The next

day I usually don't even remember the fight. I don't remember

screaming F--- You at my loving wonderful husband or why I did it. I

don't know why I wanted to leave or where I thought I was going. My

husband is really good about it, he tries to calm me down and get me

to just rest, he never lets me leave the house, even to the point of

wrestling me to the floor if he must. I grew up with my mother

having CFS and Fibro among other things and she had episodes like

this very often. What is this called and does anyone else do this? I

feel so crazy and don't know how to explain this to my doctor

without looking like a nutjob. Thanks guys. -

[Guest guest]

Morning Group.

Gountback here;

To tell the truth, I have been in the same place

for some time now. Super Depression has taken over

my thinking. I just got back from a nut ward.

I attemped suicide by electricity last Saturday.

Didn't work.

I also have a great problem cutting up my arms.

Don't know if it's from my meds or just 23yrs. of constant

severe Pain. I'm in sorry shape right now.

Love Gountback.

>

> , when I was on Cymbalta I had weird thoughts like

pulling out in

> front of on coming traffic, or cutting my wrist " just to see what

it felt

> like " TELL you doctor right away Hon. This isn't good for any of

you.

> etta

>

> Need Help. Does anyone else do this?

>

>

> > Hey everyone. I'm 20 years old and have a diagnosis of

Fibromyaliga

> > but no real depression or anything like that. I've been on 60mg

of

> > Cymbalta every day since the beginning of Decmeber. My problem is

> > sometimes when I've been pushing myself way too hard and ignoring

> > all the other signs my body gives me to slow down, sometimes I

have

> > like a mental type of breakdown. I get really angry and have this

> > overwhelming urge to throw and break things (I've never given

into

> > it but it's very hard and I'm scared one day I will.) I'll pick

> > fights with my husband or my loved ones and scream all kinds of

> > obsenities at them, try to leave to go somewhere else, etc. The

next

> > day I usually don't even remember the fight. I don't remember

> > screaming F--- You at my loving wonderful husband or why I did

it. I

> > don't know why I wanted to leave or where I thought I was going.

My

> > husband is really good about it, he tries to calm me down and

get me

> > to just rest, he never lets me leave the house, even to the

point of

> > wrestling me to the floor if he must. I grew up with my mother

> > having CFS and Fibro among other things and she had episodes like

> > this very often. What is this called and does anyone else do

this? I

> > feel so crazy and don't know how to explain this to my doctor

> > without looking like a nutjob. Thanks guys. -

> >

> >

> >

> > 1. While it is wonderful to share our experiences with everyone

on the

> list as to what treatments do and don't work for us, pls always

check with

> your dr. Some treatments are dangerous when given along with

other meds as

> well as to certain health conditions or just dangerous in general.

> >

> > 2. If you are in a difficult situation (doesn't matter what it

is) pls

> don't be afraid to ask for help. It is the first step to trying

to make

> that situation better.

> >

> > 3. To unsubscribe the e-mail is:

> Fibromyalgia_Support_Group-unsubscribe

> >

> > 4. Also, it is not uncommon for more than one member to be

feeling bad at

> the same time when it comes to flares and b/c of that potentially

take

> something another member says the wrong way. And that includes

the things

> that one member may find funny (even if it's laughing at fibro

itself) even

> though we who deal with illness whether one such as fibro or

multiple

> illnesses try to keep a sense of humor.

> >

> > 5. Pls let's be gentle with each other, and if you are having a

bad day

> pls let us know so that we can do our best to offer our support.

> >

> > Have a nice day everyone.

> >

> >

[Guest guest]

Hi

So happy to hear that you are open to discussing this issue with your Doc.

You may not be able to do anything about having a predisposition to this

disease but hopefully there is something you can do about these episodes.

You may just be able to break the cycle.

I applaud you for being open to seeking help.

It's the same as seeking help for any type of problem like shortness of breath

or seizures. Please don't be concerned about what the Doc will think.....they

see and hear everything. It's the ones who don't seek help that are thought of

as " nuts " .

Don't forget were here if you need us.

Dailey wrote:

Hi , thanks for the encouragement. I had the episodes before

starting the Cymbalta. I just got the Fibro diagnosis in November

and this is the first med we've tried so far. My next appointment is

in March. The Dr. said he wanted it to get in my system really good

for a few months before we took any other steps.

The episodes were more frequent before the Cymbalta but the fact

that I have them at all bothers me. Most of my childhood it was just

my mother and I and she got sick when I was about 7 years old. She

became unable to work and was finally accepted for disability. I

homeschooled myself and was the primary caregiver of the household.

My biggest fear was getting sick myself some day. When I was finally

diagnosed, the Dr. told me I just had a gentetic disposition to the

disease and there was nothing anyone could have done. Definitley a

hard thing for a 20 year old to grasp and I'm sure I do have some

depression.

My mother had these same episodes, getting mad over what seemed like

nothing, throwing things, crying and screaming, threatening to run

away because " nobody loved her " . The next day she wouldn't remember

any of it. I always just kind of thought she was crazy until it

started happening to me too. My husband has literally had to tackle

me down and just hold me still until I gave up and fell asleep to

keep me from leaving in the middle of a rage. The next morning I

only remember small pieces and flashes and have no idea where I

thought I was going or why I was upset.

It will definitley be discussed with my Dr. on my next visit. I just

wanted some insight as to whether it was maybe connected to the

Fibro or maybe just connected to my family in particular?

Thanks,

---------------------------------

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[Guest guest]

>

> Hey everyone. I'm 20 years old and have a diagnosis of Fibromyaliga

> but no real depression or anything like that. I've been on 60mg of

> Cymbalta every day since the beginning of Decmeber. My problem is

> sometimes when I've been pushing myself way too hard and ignoring

> all the other signs my body gives me to slow down, sometimes I have

> like a mental type of breakdown. I get really angry and have this

> overwhelming urge to throw and break things (I've never given into

> it but it's very hard and I'm scared one day I will.) I'll pick

> fights with my husband or my loved ones and scream all kinds of

> obsenities at them, try to leave to go somewhere else, etc. The

next

> day I usually don't even remember the fight. I don't remember

> screaming F--- You at my loving wonderful husband or why I did it.

I

> don't know why I wanted to leave or where I thought I was going. My

> husband is really good about it, he tries to calm me down and get

me

> to just rest, he never lets me leave the house, even to the point

of

> wrestling me to the floor if he must. I grew up with my mother

> having CFS and Fibro among other things and she had episodes like

> this very often. What is this called and does anyone else do this?

I

> feel so crazy and don't know how to explain this to my doctor

> without looking like a nutjob. Thanks guys. -

>

Hi, my name is LeAnne,I was dignosed with F.M. a year ago

October, I went through the same thing you went through. My dr. also

put me Cymbalta, and I done nothing but vomit for 6 hours straight I

refuse to be put on another " antidepressant, I'm already on an

antianxiouty{spelling not right }LOL then he tried others \, that

messed with my head so I'm sticking to xanax, flexeral, zomig, and

vicodine. As those are all the meds that seem to work for me and I

can still think clear! Good luck and maybe we can become friends to

help oneanother out! Thans for lisening.

[Guest guest]

Gountback

I'm so sorry to hear your in such a terribly dark place right now and have

been for quite a while.

I wish I knew how to help.

I really do.

I have seen you here in the group help many others and

I wish I could return the help to you.

Were they able to give you any help what so ever while you were in?

You need to find a support system ...no matter how small. I believe you are

mainly alone. No wonder you are in such a bad place.

Are there any type of support group in your area?

You are such an intelligent guy. I wish I could think of a way or a forum

where you could share your abundant life knowledge and in turn build up

friendships and support.

Maybe you could give some thought to that.

I don't know if your religious so I hope you don't mind if I pray for you.

I've always enjoyed reading your emails and wish you would return more often.

Take care friend you are in my thoughts

A Canadian Fibro Friend

" ph S. " wrote:

Morning Group.

Gountback here;

To tell the truth, I have been in the same place

for some time now. Super Depression has taken over

my thinking. I just got back from a nut ward.

I attemped suicide by electricity last Saturday.

Didn't work.

I also have a great problem cutting up my arms.

Don't know if it's from my meds or just 23yrs. of constant

severe Pain. I'm in sorry shape right now.

Love Gountback.

>

> , when I was on Cymbalta I had weird thoughts like

pulling out in

> front of on coming traffic, or cutting my wrist " just to see what

it felt

> like " TELL you doctor right away Hon. This isn't good for any of

you.

> etta

>

> Need Help. Does anyone else do this?

>

>

> > Hey everyone. I'm 20 years old and have a diagnosis of

Fibromyaliga

> > but no real depression or anything like that. I've been on 60mg

of

> > Cymbalta every day since the beginning of Decmeber. My problem is

> > sometimes when I've been pushing myself way too hard and ignoring

> > all the other signs my body gives me to slow down, sometimes I

have

> > like a mental type of breakdown. I get really angry and have this

> > overwhelming urge to throw and break things (I've never given

into

> > it but it's very hard and I'm scared one day I will.) I'll pick

> > fights with my husband or my loved ones and scream all kinds of

> > obsenities at them, try to leave to go somewhere else, etc. The

next

> > day I usually don't even remember the fight. I don't remember

> > screaming F--- You at my loving wonderful husband or why I did

it. I

> > don't know why I wanted to leave or where I thought I was going.

My

> > husband is really good about it, he tries to calm me down and

get me

> > to just rest, he never lets me leave the house, even to the

point of

> > wrestling me to the floor if he must. I grew up with my mother

> > having CFS and Fibro among other things and she had episodes like

> > this very often. What is this called and does anyone else do

this? I

> > feel so crazy and don't know how to explain this to my doctor

> > without looking like a nutjob. Thanks guys. -

> >

> >

> >

> > 1. While it is wonderful to share our experiences with everyone

on the

> list as to what treatments do and don't work for us, pls always

check with

> your dr. Some treatments are dangerous when given along with

other meds as

> well as to certain health conditions or just dangerous in general.

> >

> > 2. If you are in a difficult situation (doesn't matter what it

is) pls

> don't be afraid to ask for help. It is the first step to trying

to make

> that situation better.

> >

> > 3. To unsubscribe the e-mail is:

> Fibromyalgia_Support_Group-unsubscribe

> >

> > 4. Also, it is not uncommon for more than one member to be

feeling bad at

> the same time when it comes to flares and b/c of that potentially

take

> something another member says the wrong way. And that includes

the things

> that one member may find funny (even if it's laughing at fibro

itself) even

> though we who deal with illness whether one such as fibro or

multiple

> illnesses try to keep a sense of humor.

> >

> > 5. Pls let's be gentle with each other, and if you are having a

bad day

> pls let us know so that we can do our best to offer our support.

> >

> > Have a nice day everyone.

> >

> >

[Guest guest]

Hi, ph! I wish I could just give you a gentle hug, and let you

cry on my shoulder if you needed to. I'm a 50 year OLD grammy, so

no one would get the 'wrong' idea, not that it's any of their

concern anyhow. I've been to the place where you are, where it

feels like nonexistance would be better than pain, both emotional

and physical. For me, it was mostly emotional. What helped me not

to do it was the realisation that even though no one was around, and

no one needed me, there were a couple of people who did sorta love

me. I figured out that by doing myself in, I would be hurting them,

making them sad, giving them the same kind of pain that I was trying

to escape...and I just couldn't bring myself to inflict that kind of

pain on another human being. Also, I would miss seeing what happens

next! I am on Cymbalta now. It has been a godsend. I hope you

find your godsend soon. Wish I could take your pain away. Please

hang in there...

Hugs,

LCB

>

> Morning Group.

> Gountback here;

>

> To tell the truth, I have been in the same place

> for some time now. Super Depression has taken over

> my thinking. I just got back from a nut ward.

> I attemped suicide by electricity last Saturday.

> Didn't work.

> I also have a great problem cutting up my arms.

> Don't know if it's from my meds or just 23yrs. of constant

> severe Pain. I'm in sorry shape right now.

>

> Love Gountback.

>

>

[Guest guest]

ph

Keep in contact OK?

maybe we can all put our brain fogged heads together and come up with an

useful idea.

You never know what a bunch of crazy Fibromites might come up with.

Seriously though...keep in contact OK??

" ph S. " wrote:

Morning Group.

Gountback here;

To tell the truth, I have been in the same place

for some time now. Super Depression has taken over

my thinking. I just got back from a nut ward.

I attemped suicide by electricity last Saturday.

Didn't work.

I also have a great problem cutting up my arms.

Don't know if it's from my meds or just 23yrs. of constant

severe Pain. I'm in sorry shape right now.

Love Gountback.

>

> , when I was on Cymbalta I had weird thoughts like

pulling out in

> front of on coming traffic, or cutting my wrist " just to see what

it felt

> like " TELL you doctor right away Hon. This isn't good for any of

you.

> etta

>

> Need Help. Does anyone else do this?

>

>

> > Hey everyone. I'm 20 years old and have a diagnosis of

Fibromyaliga

> > but no real depression or anything like that. I've been on 60mg

of

> > Cymbalta every day since the beginning of Decmeber. My problem is

> > sometimes when I've been pushing myself way too hard and ignoring

> > all the other signs my body gives me to slow down, sometimes I

have

> > like a mental type of breakdown. I get really angry and have this

> > overwhelming urge to throw and break things (I've never given

into

> > it but it's very hard and I'm scared one day I will.) I'll pick

> > fights with my husband or my loved ones and scream all kinds of

> > obsenities at them, try to leave to go somewhere else, etc. The

next

> > day I usually don't even remember the fight. I don't remember

> > screaming F--- You at my loving wonderful husband or why I did

it. I

> > don't know why I wanted to leave or where I thought I was going.

My

> > husband is really good about it, he tries to calm me down and

get me

> > to just rest, he never lets me leave the house, even to the

point of

> > wrestling me to the floor if he must. I grew up with my mother

> > having CFS and Fibro among other things and she had episodes like

> > this very often. What is this called and does anyone else do

this? I

> > feel so crazy and don't know how to explain this to my doctor

> > without looking like a nutjob. Thanks guys. -

> >

> >

> >

> > 1. While it is wonderful to share our experiences with everyone

on the

> list as to what treatments do and don't work for us, pls always

check with

> your dr. Some treatments are dangerous when given along with

other meds as

> well as to certain health conditions or just dangerous in general.

> >

> > 2. If you are in a difficult situation (doesn't matter what it

is) pls

> don't be afraid to ask for help. It is the first step to trying

to make

> that situation better.

> >

> > 3. To unsubscribe the e-mail is:

> Fibromyalgia_Support_Group-unsubscribe

> >

> > 4. Also, it is not uncommon for more than one member to be

feeling bad at

> the same time when it comes to flares and b/c of that potentially

take

> something another member says the wrong way. And that includes

the things

> that one member may find funny (even if it's laughing at fibro

itself) even

> though we who deal with illness whether one such as fibro or

multiple

> illnesses try to keep a sense of humor.

> >

> > 5. Pls let's be gentle with each other, and if you are having a

bad day

> pls let us know so that we can do our best to offer our support.

> >

> > Have a nice day everyone.

> >

> >

[Guest guest]

Hello ,

The description you wrote could have described me when I was in my

20s. I was exactly the same way. Exactly. I'm now 47, and it

doesn't happen anymore. I used to " break up " with my boyfriend every

few weeks. Pack up the car, and drive away with all my stuff. Where

did I think I was going? I'd come back after an hour or something.

I strongly suggest talking to your doctor about it.

It may be hormonal. I know, I hate it when people say that to me

(going through peri-menopause right now), but looking back, I truly

think it was my hormones gone wild.

On the other hand, it could be a side-effect of the Cymbalta, so you

should read the package insert (available online if you don't still

have it) and talk to your doctor or pharmacist to see if psychosis is

a side-effect of the Cymbalta.

Since all this happened to me 20+ years ago, " we " didn't go to

doctors for anything back then. At least " I " didn't. I just lived

with it. I would imagine there are medications that can help now.

Or, like I said, the Cymbalta may be causing it, in which case the

doctor might switch you to something else.

Keep a calendar and note when this happens. If you start to see a

pattern with it being on or near " that " time of the month, then you

will have a better understanding of whether it's hormones. If it's

happening daily, then it may be your medication. At least, you will

have a record of what happens and when, so you can share it with a

doctor if that's what you choose to do. Don't be afraid to talk to a

doctor about it. You're paying the doctor to do a job, so let

him/her do it.

Good luck! Stay in touch!

K2

>

> Hey everyone. I'm 20 years old and have a diagnosis of Fibromyaliga

> but no real depression or anything like that. I've been on 60mg of

> Cymbalta every day since the beginning of Decmeber. My problem is

> sometimes when I've been pushing myself way too hard and ignoring

> all the other signs my body gives me to slow down, sometimes I have

> like a mental type of breakdown. I get really angry and have this

> overwhelming urge to throw and break things (I've never given into

> it but it's very hard and I'm scared one day I will.) I'll pick

> fights with my husband or my loved ones and scream all kinds of

> obsenities at them, try to leave to go somewhere else, etc. The

next

> day I usually don't even remember the fight. I don't remember

> screaming F--- You at my loving wonderful husband or why I did it.

I

> don't know why I wanted to leave or where I thought I was going. My

> husband is really good about it, he tries to calm me down and get

me

> to just rest, he never lets me leave the house, even to the point

of

> wrestling me to the floor if he must. I grew up with my mother

> having CFS and Fibro among other things and she had episodes like

> this very often. What is this called and does anyone else do this?

I

> feel so crazy and don't know how to explain this to my doctor

> without looking like a nutjob. >

[Guest guest]

Hey Gountback, I hope you are ok. I hope you are getting some

support from friends or family... someone you can talk to in person.

My heart goes out to you.

K2

>

> Morning Group.

> Gountback here;

>

> To tell the truth, I have been in the same place

> for some time now. Super Depression has taken over

> my thinking. I just got back from a nut ward.

> I attemped suicide by electricity last Saturday.

> Didn't work.

> I also have a great problem cutting up my arms.

> Don't know if it's from my meds or just 23yrs. of constant

> severe Pain. I'm in sorry shape right now.

>

> Love Gountback.

[Guest guest]

>

Just gotta put my 2 cents in here! Yes yes YES!!! I SO could be

hormone related, esp if it was " every 3 weeks " or so! You were right

to suggest she keep a diary , that will help the dr make a

diagnosis too! I was diagnosed with PMDD about 5 yrs ago, and that

is when I was first put on anti-depressants! I made the mistake of

telling my family what it was " like post pardom depression, EVERY

month " is how I describe it, and my dad (ever the male!) said it

was " all in your head " and I didn't need meds...... 5 yrs later I beg

to differ! Like I alluded to in an earlier post (with 2 books I

used), I was in a dark dark place, and the meds and the books helped

a LOT, but every month I still am unable to control some outburst

anger. I even packed my bag one time, and checked into a hotel room

for the night! It has gotten TONS better on the cymbalta, but it is

still there, and I know I need to check myself every month when I am

getting closer to TOM time. Here is a good link to PMDD description:

http://pmdd.factsforhealth.org/

something to look into. You are not alone!

> Hello ,

>

> The description you wrote could have described me when I was in my

> 20s. I was exactly the same way. Exactly. I'm now 47, and it

> doesn't happen anymore. I used to " break up " with my boyfriend

every

> few weeks. Pack up the car, and drive away with all my stuff.

Where

> did I think I was going? I'd come back after an hour or

something.

>

> I strongly suggest talking to your doctor about it.

>

> It may be hormonal. I know, I hate it when people say that to me

> (going through peri-menopause right now), but looking back, I truly

> think it was my hormones gone wild.

>

>

[Guest guest]

I forgot to mention that, hard as it is, EXERCISE really does help. It

will " burn off " the anger feelings. Just a walk around the block is

better than seething with anger, or blowing up at somebody we love.

K2

> Just gotta put my 2 cents in here! Yes yes YES!!! I SO could be

> hormone related, esp if it was " every 3 weeks " or so! You were right

> to suggest she keep a diary , that will help the dr make a

> diagnosis too! I was diagnosed with PMDD about 5 yrs ago, and that

> is when I was first put on anti-depressants!