Venting--Long but please read anyway.

[Guest guest]

There was no 'other person' involved. Bob and I met with the pathologist

and the oncologist Wednesday afternoon. There are 2 different labs and

one says malignancy and the other says benign. I have requested a 3rd

opinion and am waiting the reslults of that.

I am scared to death!! I don't know if I will believe anything they tell

me. My trust in the doctors and the hospital have been shattered. I worry

that in 6 months or more that they will say " Oops " , the first lab was right

after all. How will I ever KNOW whether it is cancer or not?

How do I know what effect the chemo will have in the future. There are

always chances of bad side effects with medication, one of the meds that

they gave me lists heart damage as a possibility. I already have heart

problems and I don't need any more.

How do I know what effect the chemo has on chiari patients? I have searched

medline and can find NOTHING.

How many people have needed treatment for cancer and did not get it because

the Lab screwed up the tests?

I was scheduled to have a 2nd chiari surgery on Dec 5. I had to cancel

that and you all know how long you have to wait to get back on the list.

I do not know how long I would have to wait before my immune system

gets strong enough [from the effects of the chemo] for me to have a major

surgery.

I am angry and I am afraid. Every day that passes brings more

questions than answers. Please pray that I can give this to God and quit

worrying about it myself.

I need prayers desperately, I am becoming very depressed.

Cherry

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> WEll, I am So Happy for you. Thank God.

> but what about the other person? someone didnt get

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