- Re: 2nd HSG results - HUGE support needed

[Guest guest]

> Yes, it sucks.

Dear Cyn:

I joined this group when I discovered not only my inital septum

surgery was a joke, but their sloppy work sealed my uterus shut in

the process, and not a thing I could do about it except just try

again. I can completely understand your sense of horror at this

moment. Not only does this mean more surgery, risk, and consequent

doubts and fears about the results, but also it means that all of

the relief and hope you let yourself feel when the first operation

was over was completely based on false pretenses. This must be a

very low time for you right now, and I am so so sorry that another

one of us has to go down this road again, Cyn. I am so sorry that

it happened to you.

In fact the more I think about it the more angry I am feeling. I'm

sorry ladies I just have to let it out. It is so completely

dissapointing that any doctor can bank the check, claim to have done

their job, and then look any patient in the face and tell them they

must not have been agressive enough, oops! Meantime our whole lives

are completely turned upside down because a technique was lacking

(or nerve, or skill, or experience, or just plain cotton

picking " luck " because no doc is going to admit he made a mistake!)

and we are helpless to do anything about it except maybe find

another doc after having lost all trust in the first place, and feel

like the next one may also be a quack and play roulette with our

reproductive health yet again. I am angry right now and I am having

a tantrum, and I guess i'm angry about a whole lot of things

including betas and nurses and needles, and flippy receptionists and

the way I feel so powerless in the face of this big bad stale

feeling of emptiness, but Why oh why can't it be a law that if a

surgeon can't get it right the first time, it must be redone, for

FREE? And he has to pay the hospital and lab fees out of his own

pocket! AND damages for the anguish! Maybe that would make a

surgeon think twice about taking a case over referring it to someone

with more experience.

I am so so sorry about what has happened, Cyn. I am so angry and so

sorry that this has happened to you. All of my wishes for strength

and perseverance for the upcoming long weeks and possibly months of

anguish to come.