Thanks for the hugs & Cheetos :-)

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, Jill, & ,

Thanks for listening. You're right, , just putting it into

words helps so much :-) Instead of Cheetos I substituted a margarita

and some buffalo wings. , I find myself doing the same things

with baby stores. I get into a research frenzy and have to know

everything there is to know about baby slings or co-sleepers (which,

btw, I'm actually looking for woodworking paterns for) and then get

sad when I can't buy them.

Last night I reached the pinacle of baby-making obsessiveness ... I

created an Excel spreadsheet full of formulas. All I have to do is

enter a conception date and it will spit out due date (and a date for

sched c-section, just in case), my age at birth, and DH's age at

birth. But I didn't let it go at that. Of course I'd be happy to have

even one baby, but my dream is three. So set up formulas that would

tell me (based on that first conception date) ideal conception dates

for children 2 & 3, DH & my ages at each birth, the age of each child

at the birth of the next one and delivery dates & csection ranges.

I know, I'm nuts :-) But the end result was something that I can use

to soothe my nerves ... I can think, ok, if I need a second surgery

and can't TTC until october AND it takes 3 months (6m, 9m etc) to get

pg, THIS is how it will affect my plans.

asked what I was doing, and I suggested that he REALLY didn't

want to know :-)

I crack myself up!

Thank you again, guys...