Have I even accepted this?

[Guest guest]

Well guys, I have had a rough week....I have tried to pull myself out

with positives but haven't found all of them yet. I started having

head pain kinda migraine kinda sinus yet I kept feeling very faint

when standing. Of course once you have fibro I feel you are

catagorized at the doctors, but anyways this went on from Friday till

Sunday I was shaking bad and could not stand up without feeling like

someone was choking me. My fingers went numb and toes too. I tried

to cope but freaked myself out enough to go to ER.

Well ....Er was great lol, virus they said, just hang in there, take

cold medicines over the counter and have a great day. What the he## ?

I was so ticked off but all I could do was cry. I just need to know

if this is normal, is this my life and as positive as I do tend to

stay, why is it getting worse!! I have never cried like I have the

past few days, I am scared, I am trying, I am p'd off, I am

completely lost feeling back to square one.

Heres the kicker...the doc says " well when a fibro patient gets a

virus, it affects them worse than that of a normal person, you should

recognize when a flare is coming and be prepared "

How do I know when a flare is coming? How do I prepare? How come

everytime I flare it hurts more? I have found that to accept this I

have literally separated myself from me almost llke pretending I dont

have it, of course I know I have it, but here I am helping my friend

with lupis and giving her positive advice but I am to weak to admit

that I am struggling I guess, is this normal?

Well, sorry, lots of questions just completely lost this week guys,

Deb R