Guest guest Posted March 6, 2004 Report Share Posted March 6, 2004 In a message dated 3/6/2004 11:17:32 AM Eastern Standard Time, nutri_olade@... writes: I've finally decided that the truth is: I'm ONLY a diabetic in good control. I'm not cured, not no longer a diabetic -- just in excellent control -- for now. I need to continue to check my blood sugars twice a day and keep up reading and my associations with other people who have diabetes. Thank you Ade for writing this! It is the very thing that I have been struggling with. I was diagnosised pre-diabetic in August 2003. I have diet and exercised, lost 40 pounds,, now have HgbA1C of 5.3. My last visit with doc he said I could quit checking my BG but to keep on doing whatever it was that got my numbers down. Well,, checking my BG twice daily and after any new food is what helped me get my numbers down. Being scared and reading everything I can about diabetes, sweetners, carbs etc. helped get my numbers down. So I don't trust myself to stop doing all that. I began to think I was odd for wanting to continue poking my fingers twice daily after he told me I didn't need to,,,but that is part of the control that helped get my numbers down. So thank you,, your note 'keeping on the mark' just encouraged me to keep on doing what worked for me in the beginning, diet, exercise and checking BG. This is working for now. Glad you are on the mark again! Thanks, Sue Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 6, 2004 Report Share Posted March 6, 2004 Hi Ade-- You sound just like me (insulin resistant). I have been on insulin for 30 years and still to this day no matter what we try nothing seems to work. I run anywhere from the 30's and up, the bad part is that it isn't consistently the same average at any point in the day or night. Although I haven't had any real lows in quite a while. I am at least 100lbs overweight, and cannot exercise because of other health issues. Could you please fill me in on this diet you used and tell me how long it took to take off that kind of weight? My doctor just a couple of days okayed the Atkins diet for me, but if there is something else that could help me to lose some of this weight I'm game for anything. Please email me privately so we can really discuss this without tying up the group site. Thanks Sharon in CA Keeping on the mark > Hi everyone, I'm a newbie to this group, but I've had diabetes > for 21 years. I'm 48 and I'm here because I've been stupid > recently and I need to again begin to live with the reality > that I have diabetes. > > For most of the 21 years I've had it, my blood sugars were > high. I'm very insulin resistant and I was taking over 150 > units of Humulin N and R per day with BG numbers still in > the 200s or more. I did my best with diet and exercise but after > some weightloss and a little lowering of my insulin, I'd always > become disgusted with the constant hunger and tension and I'd > stop. I had 20 years of that. > > Well, I guess you all have heard this kind of story before. > > My blood sugars were always high and I also can't exercise > because of arthritis in my hips. I was feeling terrible and > depressed all the time. All in all, diabetes was the biggest > thing in my life > > Long story short (Right, too late LOL) my sister find an easy > healthy great diet for me and she also went on it. I've lost > 100 pounds (she lost 130, but I'm NOT holding that against > her LOL) and my sugar levels are now normal and I don't take > insulin anymore. > > OK Finally here's why I'm here. The minute my doctor said > I could stop taking the insulin shots, I've been under the > stupid thought/hope/ dream/selfdelusion that I am not a > diabetic anymore. As long as I show my doctor my great BG > numbers, he doesn't talk about diabetes anymore either. > > I know it was stupid but after all those years of terrible > depression and nothing working to get my blood sugars > lowered, to not have to take insulin injections and worry > all the time about food, or when I'd eat and if I could > visit people and take my shots and test in public, and > worrying about low BG reactions when I was traveling and stuff, > I got a little giddy. > > I stopped reading about diabetes, stopped getting the > magazines and pretty much acted like all the news about the > disease didn't apply to me. Because of my fantastic healthy > weightloss diet, my blood sugars are now always normal so I > began to forget the last 20 years. Maybe it's human nature, > or maybe I'm just too stupid. > > This morning I was walking in my bedroom barefoot and stepped > on something sharp -- it didn't break the skin or anything (Thank > Goodness) but I flashed on my mother who had her foot amputated > because of diabetes and the fears of all those years of having > the same happen to me came rolling back and almost crushed me. > How could I have been so stupid as to walk barefoot, the first > rule of diabetes care?? That's the number one rule, something I > always never did. A foot wound was something I feared more than > anything because of what my Mom went through, because I was her > caregiver too and had to clean the wound that never did heal > for the last years of her life. > > > And I had a good long talk with myself. > > I've finally decided that the truth is: I'm ONLY a diabetic > in good control. I'm not cured, not no longer a diabetic -- > just in excellent control -- for now. I need to continue to > check my blood sugars twice a day and keep up reading and my > associations with other people who have diabetes. Just because > I've lost the weight and have great BG readings now, it doesn't > make up for all the years of terrible readings and the damage > my body has and still goes through because of the disease. > > So I've joined this group to help me not fib to myself. > Great blood sugar control because of my weight loss and new > diet doesn't mean I'm not a diabetic, it just means that I've > gotten control -- finally for the first time in the last two > decades. > > Has anyone else gone through this? The minute you get a handle > on BG control you did your best to forget you've ever had diabetes? > Or am I just one foolish person? > > Oh well, sorry I've gone on for so long. It just hit me that > I need to do a reality check. I'm still a diabetic no matter > what the readings say. I'm just in very good control now - > and I hope that it continues and I need to keep my sights on > keeping the control good. > > Thanks for your reading this. If anyone has gone through this > kind of self delusion can you tell me about it? I'd appreciate > knowing how people who might have great BG control, deals > with the temptation to deny that you still have diabetes. > > Thanks, > > Ade > > > > > > > > Diabetes homepage: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/diabetes/ > > To unsubscribe to this group, send an email to: diabetes-unsubscribe > Hope you come back soon! > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 7, 2004 Report Share Posted March 7, 2004 EXCESSIVE QUOTING MANUALLY REMOVED BY MODERATOR Dear All, I call diabetes as second wife. Who is so loyal that she is going to stay with me for ever. She would die only with me. That is a reality of life. So there is no question of denying diabetes. In fact I think that many borderline cases , continue not to take precautions Exercise , Weight control , Diet Control etc as they keep on thinking that their diabetes is only borderline. Lastly , if experiments like implantation of pig embryo beta cells become successful in human beings , one day we also may be able to called as " once diabetic " Anil Keeping on the mark Hi everyone, I'm a newbie to this group, but I've had diabetes for 21 years. I'm 48 and I'm here because I've been stupid recently and I need to again begin to live with the reality that I have diabetes. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 7, 2004 Report Share Posted March 7, 2004 I was diagnosed about a month ago. The first 3 weeks went great. Diet and exercise got my bg down and I was losing weight rapidly. Then I started fighting off a cold, got a period, and began " experimenting " to see what I could add back to my diet. And suddenly my bg was spiking again, sometimes without me knowing why. Some of the romantic novelty had certainly worn off! I personally do not *want* meds that allow me to continue my unhealthy behaviors. I was doing a lot of things wrong, and I know it. I'm much better off knowing the dangers of having this disease and taking personal responsibility for controlling it than to count on a pill or injection to overcome my bad behaviors. At some point I may need the medication in addition to the self control, but I'm afraid taking anything now will allow me to believe I can " cheat " , and those little cheats add up. I feel better now than I have in years. On the other hand, my brother just said give me the meds, and he eats anything he wants to. Guess everyone has a different approach. Sharon, Type 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 7, 2004 Report Share Posted March 7, 2004 > I personally do not *want* meds that allow me to continue my unhealthy > behaviors. I was doing a lot of things wrong, and I know it. I'm much > better off knowing the dangers of having this disease and taking personal > responsibility for controlling it than to count on a pill or injection to > overcome my bad behaviors. At some point I may need the medication in > addition to the self control, but I'm afraid taking anything now will allow > me to believe I can " cheat " , and those little cheats add up. I feel better > now than I have in years. > > Sharon, I totally agree with you. I find that the bg meter is more my friend than I thought it would be. It keeps me in line, and reminds me -- with a higher reading than I'm happy with -- that the food I ate last night wasn't a good idea. I want to stay off meds as long as possible, so am doing everything I can to NOT CHEAT. Please feel free to e-mail me if you've had a bad or even an acceptional day; we'll be buddies! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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