RE: haven't been posting much

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Jacquie

I hope you feel better soon...depression can really rule your life sometimes...I

haven't been posting or replying much either and it's not cause I have nothing

to say cause I do. I read all the posts and say (often out loud) my replies in

my head but never get around to replying properly until it's so late most people

don't even know what I'm replying to...so sorry to everyone for that...life here

has been a bit of a battle lately (read Matt!) but I think we are on an upswing

finally...of course the minute I typed that a feeling of dread came over me -

the old " knock on wood " type of thing...I am a born pessimist...hohum ;o)

(inAus)

btw - what's your neopet username?

Just thought I'd send a note and apologize for not replying to much nor

sending in anything of my own, really.

I'm not doing so well. My feet are giving me constant pain, and my doctor has

put me back up on the max dosage for my antidepressant.

I haven't left the house in four days. The dishes are piling up, the carpets

need to be vaccuummed, and I really need to get in and do my work at the

library, but all I seem able to do is sit and play mindless computer games and

hide from .There's a load in the washer and a load in the dryer. They've

been there for days, I think.

[Guest guest]

Hang in there Jacquie! Are you maybe headed into another downswing? Is there

anything I can do to help, barring coming and cleaning your house? School is

out, and I'm gonna be home all day for the next two weeks here, so if you need

help with list stuff, let me know!!

" It is a curious thought, but it is only when you see people looking ridiculous

that you realize just how much you love them. "

- Agatha Christie

, frazzled mom to:

, PDD-NOS, ADHD, Mixed Expressive/Receptive Language Disorder, 4

, NT, Terrible Twos, but adorable none-the-less, 2

haven't been posting much

Just thought I'd send a note and apologize for not replying to much nor

sending in anything of my own, really.

I'm not doing so well. My feet are giving me constant pain, and my doctor has

put me back up on the max dosage for my antidepressant.

I haven't left the house in four days. The dishes are piling up, the carpets

need to be vaccuummed, and I really need to get in and do my work at the

library, but all I seem able to do is sit and play mindless computer games and

hide from .There's a load in the washer and a load in the dryer. They've

been there for days, I think.

This morning Marc was getting something in the freezer. walked in to put

his plate on the counter and walked into the freezer door and started to cry.

Marc yelled at him for not watching where he was going. I screamed at Marc for

yelling at the boy.

School needs to start.

Jacquie

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I'll do a reading for you tonight Jacquie, after I get my obnoxious, cranky,

cabin-fevered children to bed. Would I be a horrible Mom if I doped them up with

melatonin from now till tomorrow morning at 8 am when they go to Daycare?????

" It is a curious thought, but it is only when you see people looking ridiculous

that you realize just how much you love them. "

- Agatha Christie

, frazzled mom to:

, PDD-NOS, ADHD, Mixed Expressive/Receptive Language Disorder, 4

, NT, Terrible Twos, but adorable none-the-less, 2

Re: haven't been posting much

> Hang in there Jacquie! Are you maybe headed into another downswing?

Yes, without a doubt.

You know what sucks about lithium as a mood stabilizer? The highs go away

so you can be on an even keel, and yet the lows k\eep coming. Not half so

bad, but they keep coming. It hardly seems fair. <sigh>

>Is there anything I can do to help, barring coming and cleaning your house?

School is out, and I'm gonna be home all day for the next two weeks here, so

if you need help with list stuff, let me know!!

>

No, I've got the list stuff under control. But can you do a remote tarot

card reading? I've read mine every day this week and it comes up the same

every time -- doom, gloom, and more of the same.

Yes, the atheist reads tarot. I have my own theory of how it works, based

on the unconscious mind. :-)

Jacquie

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> Hang in there Jacquie! Are you maybe headed into another downswing?

Yes, without a doubt.

You know what sucks about lithium as a mood stabilizer? The highs go away

so you can be on an even keel, and yet the lows k\eep coming. Not half so

bad, but they keep coming. It hardly seems fair. <sigh>

>Is there anything I can do to help, barring coming and cleaning your house?

School is out, and I'm gonna be home all day for the next two weeks here, so

if you need help with list stuff, let me know!!

>

No, I've got the list stuff under control. But can you do a remote tarot

card reading? I've read mine every day this week and it comes up the same

every time -- doom, gloom, and more of the same.

Yes, the atheist reads tarot. I have my own theory of how it works, based

on the unconscious mind. :-)

Jacquie

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> Would I be a horrible Mom if I doped them up with melatonin from now till

tomorrow morning at 8 am when they go to Daycare????? <

not if it'll keep you from killing them. just don't make it a habit

" Something important to remember...we'll always be who we are. " - Mr.

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That's ok, Jacquie:

I'm feeling crappy right now myself.

Too much stuff going on and coming up at once I think. And the thing that's

putting it over the edge is that two women that I know have managed to

figure out how to go back to work. One is my very good friend, who takes

Jacqui for me occasionally (and, who now, somehow it seems has managed to

turn the tables and is asking ME to sit for HER)*which btw, is not a bad

thing, just disconcerting to my ego*. Second is the woman next door, with

the Aspie boy. She has three children, one who is two, and SHE is

managing to figure out how to go back to work.

This is causing me pain, mentally and physically.

I'm there with ya Jacquie....BIG HUGS.

Penny :-(

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Just thought I'd send a note and apologize for not replying to much nor

sending in anything of my own, really.

I'm not doing so well. My feet are giving me constant pain, and my doctor

has put me back up on the max dosage for my antidepressant.

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[Guest guest]

Well now, that's just not fair at all!

>>>>>>>

You know what sucks about lithium as a mood stabilizer? The highs go away

so you can be on an even keel, and yet the lows k\eep coming. Not half so

bad, but they keep coming. It hardly seems fair. <sigh>

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[Guest guest]

> Too much stuff going on and coming up at once I think. And the thing

that's

> putting it over the edge is that two women that I know have managed to

> figure out how to go back to work. One is my very good friend, who takes

> Jacqui for me occasionally (and, who now, somehow it seems has managed to

> turn the tables and is asking ME to sit for HER)*which btw, is not a bad

> thing, just disconcerting to my ego*. Second is the woman next door, with

> the Aspie boy. She has three children, one who is two, and SHE is

> managing to figure out how to go back to work.

Again, the envy would kill me.

But by the same token, I have no desire to go back into the traditional

workplace. Is that something you want to do?

Jacquie

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Ya know Jacquie-

I really just want to have the CHOICE.

Right now, I really have NO choices.

I HAVE to take her to school. I HAVE to pick her up. I HAVE to be around

for sick days, days off, holidays and track breaks.

I can't use sitters or safe key.

....and in a TWO parent household, it really irks me that I'M the one who has

to deal with all this...and I KNOW I'd still have to, even if I were

working.

(I DO love my husband, btw...he is a wonderful husband and Dad...don't get

me wrong)

I'm just " stuck " and it's causing me a lot of grief.

Penny

Re: haven't been posting much

> Too much stuff going on and coming up at once I think. And the thing

that's

> putting it over the edge is that two women that I know have managed to

> figure out how to go back to work. One is my very good friend, who takes

> Jacqui for me occasionally (and, who now, somehow it seems has managed to

> turn the tables and is asking ME to sit for HER)*which btw, is not a bad

> thing, just disconcerting to my ego*. Second is the woman next door, with

> the Aspie boy. She has three children, one who is two, and SHE is

> managing to figure out how to go back to work.

Again, the envy would kill me.

But by the same token, I have no desire to go back into the traditional

workplace. Is that something you want to do?

Jacquie