Thank you for the welcome

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There is so much right now in my life and at almost age 60, I feel

that I should be enjoying what time I have instead of thinking too

much and that isn't all the bad habits I have. Right now I am

battling with severe fatigue due to all the things that have happened

but I guess the thing that I am dealing with right now are my

medications. You would have to understand my situation to get the

full impact and I wouldn't wish that on anyone <smile> so I will just

say that one of my doctors says that they don't feel like my current

antidepressant Wellbutrin is doing the job. Plus I am on so much

medication that they could be working against me. I think I have

known that or maybe considered it a huge possibility. I have been on

Zanax now for about 10 years and at first took it in moderation but

now for about 6 years I have been taking 3 one milligram tablets a

day. For those of you who know about Zanax it is not something one

takes lightly or trys to just drop off of, that happened to me once

and I went off the wall. When I first started taking Zanax I was

told it wasn't addicting only could cause dependence problems. I

have also tried almost every antidepressant there is and I haven't

done well on them or maybe I just didn't make it through all the

transistion time on some of them. Wellbutrin seems to have less side

effects and I have to admit it probably isn't doing the job it

should. I have had so many differing opinions lately that I am

confused about what to do. I have not tried Prozac because the flack

that it got some years ago about it causing people to do crazy things

scared me. One of my doctors told me yesterday that I could do was

what they call a " medical holdiay " the removal of all my meds in the

hospital and they would start over but I don't know if I could go

through that. I am a deep believer in God and He has never left my

side and I am in prayer about the situation but right now I feel a

little lonely because I don't have a support system that I can talk

to. I can try letting them work me off of Zanax with another

medication at home, or I can try another antidepressant again, I just

hate the side effects and it sure doesn't help the other problems I

have. I am trying to weigh the good against the not so good. I have

had 3 breakdowns in my lifetime for different reasons, and the last

in 1987 was due to Thyroid failure. My last doctor (I changed

doctors)didn't monitor my thyroid properly because he was to busy

telling me I needed to see another physcharatist (sp)and this was all

in my head and therefore my thyroid went into Graves disease from

overmedication and I didn't know it until recently. They are about

to get it back to where it should be. Anyway thats partly where I am

at. I am a very sensitive, highly mercy proned caretaker of everyone

but myself, (my parents were deaf and I was the oldest so I was their

go-between for the hearing and deaf world from a very young age (5).

I do guilt well and I am very hard on myself. Now comes an apology

for this being such a long message and hope I haven't broken a

cardinal rule on the list for long messages. Thank you for listening

and I am so interested in your thoughts and prayers and

encouragement. God's blessings.

LaQuinta Long

[Guest guest]

There is no reason to apologize here. We want to hear from everyone.

You do have quite a load on your shoulders. I hope that you can get

straightened out. You will be in my prayers.

tlong@... wrote:

> From: tlong@...

>

> There is so much right now in my life and at almost age 60, I feel

> that I should be enjoying what time I have instead of thinking too

> much and that isn't all the bad habits I have. Right now I am

> battling with severe fatigue due to all the things that have happened

> but I guess the thing that I am dealing with right now are my

> medications. You would have to understand my situation to get the

> full impact and I wouldn't wish that on anyone <smile> so I will just

> say that one of my doctors says that they don't feel like my current

> antidepressant Wellbutrin is doing the job. Plus I am on so much

> medication that they could be working against me. I think I have

> known that or maybe considered it a huge possibility. I have been on

> Zanax now for about 10 years and at first took it in moderation but

> now for about 6 years I have been taking 3 one milligram tablets a

> day. For those of you who know about Zanax it is not something one

> takes lightly or trys to just drop off of, that happened to me once

> and I went off the wall. When I first started taking Zanax I was

> told it wasn't addicting only could cause dependence problems. I

> have also tried almost every antidepressant there is and I haven't

> done well on them or maybe I just didn't make it through all the

> transistion time on some of them. Wellbutrin seems to have less side

> effects and I have to admit it probably isn't doing the job it

> should. I have had so many differing opinions lately that I am

> confused about what to do. I have not tried Prozac because the flack

> that it got some years ago about it causing people to do crazy things

> scared me. One of my doctors told me yesterday that I could do was

> what they call a " medical holdiay " the removal of all my meds in the

> hospital and they would start over but I don't know if I could go

> through that. I am a deep believer in God and He has never left my

> side and I am in prayer about the situation but right now I feel a

> little lonely because I don't have a support system that I can talk

> to. I can try letting them work me off of Zanax with another

> medication at home, or I can try another antidepressant again, I just

> hate the side effects and it sure doesn't help the other problems I

> have. I am trying to weigh the good against the not so good. I have

> had 3 breakdowns in my lifetime for different reasons, and the last

> in 1987 was due to Thyroid failure. My last doctor (I changed

> doctors)didn't monitor my thyroid properly because he was to busy

> telling me I needed to see another physcharatist (sp)and this was all

> in my head and therefore my thyroid went into Graves disease from

> overmedication and I didn't know it until recently. They are about

> to get it back to where it should be. Anyway thats partly where I am

> at. I am a very sensitive, highly mercy proned caretaker of everyone

> but myself, (my parents were deaf and I was the oldest so I was their

> go-between for the hearing and deaf world from a very young age (5).

> I do guilt well and I am very hard on myself. Now comes an apology

> for this being such a long message and hope I haven't broken a

> cardinal rule on the list for long messages. Thank you for listening

> and I am so interested in your thoughts and prayers and

> encouragement. God's blessings.

> LaQuinta Long

>

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