A Christmas hug for everyone (p.s. I need one back-having a tough day)

[Guest guest]

Happy holidays to all of my cyber friends. Today has been an unusually rough

day emotionally and I am handling it the best I can. This morning started

out fine...my kids opened their presents and were having a good time. As it

happens every year, my husband of 12 years once again failed to buy me even

the smallest token gift for Christmas while I bought him FIVE presents. It

could have been the smallest of gifts...not even spending money-a handmade

present or poem would have sufficed. I know we haven't been getting along

latenly and he doesn't have a lot of extra money to spend on frivolties. But

nothing at all? I was really crushed. And then things got worse when I

decided to call my sister for the third time this week (left two previous

messages) to wish her a Merry Christmas. She immediately cut me off and told

me she was opening presents and would call me back a little while later (this

was five hours ago). This is my one and only sister...who apparently has

decided that she can't accept the fact that I am now thinner than she is.

Once again she blew me off and I am really sad that we are no longer close.

It has really been a tough day.

I ate a little breakfast and had a few pieces of candy but food no longer

comforts me when I am upset...in fact my stomach knots up in a ball and

eating is the last thing on my mind! So instead I quietly shared with my

husband just how much his thoughtlessness upset me, and have spent the day

isolated in the basement cleaning and washing clothes rather than let my

upset mood spoil my kids' holiday. At least I haven't turned to my old

" friend " food to pacify me and I will have a nice clean house instead! I

hope your holidays are a little less frustrating then mine has been today. I

just try to remember all of my blessings and thank God for my four beautiful

loving children and my health.

Hugs and best wishes,

Betty D.