Fwd: [ossgfriends] My best friend, food

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for aunt sue also

> My best friend has been with me since the time I was a small child and had

> to sneak into the pantry late at night and steal to satisfy this deep hole

> inside my soul.

>

> My best friend fills the deepest, darkest needs that my body has, that my

> soul craves -- to be filled up with something -- anything. My best friend

> will never desert me or reject me.

>

> My best friend stayed with me when my mother beat me and when my son died.

> My best friend allowed me the freedom to lean on her more and more as I

> needed her and never once complained.

>

> My best friend hid me deep within myself where nobody else could find me.

> She protected me and guided me safely through life.

>

> My best friend is always a quiet listener and never asks for anything in

> return. My best friend always calls to me and wants to help me through all

> of my struggles, pains and fear.

>

> My best friend loves to celebrate with me when something good happens in my

> life. She is always standing ready anytime, day or night when I need her.

> She is never petty or jealous. She never hates me because I may not need

> her that day, but is always standing ready when she is needed once again

> without anger or resentment.

>

> I have needed my best friend less and less this past year, but sometimes

> the pain, anger, resentment and fear builds to such a height, I have to go

> running to her once again and lay my head against her bosom and ask her to

> take care of me once again. She is always happy to oblige.

>

> Somehow I have to tell her that I don't need her anymore. Not ever again.

> That somehow I have to find a new life without her, that she can only be

> there for me as something to help me live, not something to live for. I'm

> afraid of being without her, but I know it's the best for me.

>

> I think she will understand, but the fear is that she will never really go

> away. That she will stay there, always lurking in the shadows, waiting for

> my weaknesses to bring me back to her once again. The even bigger fear is

> that she will really go away forever. For now I put her away...and build

> the hope that the next time I need her, she will be less and less an

> obstacle to life - so I can live

Life is never boring or dull within a day or in the life of one of Gods

special ANGELS!

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My best friend has been with me since the time I was a small child and had

to sneak into the pantry late at night and steal to satisfy this deep hole

inside my soul.

My best friend fills the deepest, darkest needs that my body has, that my

soul craves - to be filled up with something - anything. My best friend

will never desert me or reject me.

My best friend stayed with me when my mother beat me and when my son died.

My best friend allowed me the freedom to lean on her more and more as I

needed her and never once complained.

My best friend hid me deep within myself where nobody else could find me.

She protected me and guided me safely through life.

My best friend is always a quiet listener and never asks for anything in

return. My best friend always calls to me and wants to help me through all

of my struggles, pains and fear.

My best friend loves to celebrate with me when something good happens in my

life. She is always standing ready anytime, day or night when I need her.

She is never petty or jealous. She never hates me because I may not need

her that day, but is always standing ready when she is needed once again

without anger or resentment.

I have needed my best friend less and less this past year, but sometimes

the pain, anger, resentment and fear builds to such a height, I have to go

running to her once again and lay my head against her bosom and ask her to

take care of me once again. She is always happy to oblige.

Somehow I have to tell her that I don't need her anymore. Not ever again.

That somehow I have to find a new life without her, that she can only be

there for me as something to help me live, not something to live for. I'm

afraid of being without her, but I know it's the best for me.

I think she will understand, but the fear is that she will never really go

away. That she will stay there, always lurking in the shadows, waiting for

my weaknesses to bring me back to her once again. The even bigger fear is

that she will really go away forever. For now I put her away...and build

the hope that the next time I need her, she will be less and less an

obstacle to life - so I can live.

Debbi K. - ICQ #23997503

Open RNY 11/4/98

Dr. Sweet - Reading, PA

Start weight 286.5 / height 5'6 "

Total Weight lost 131.5 lbs - Current weight 155 (5 lbs to my personal goal!)

Hernia Repair/Abdominoplasty/apendectomy 8/26/99

My Weight Loss and Plastic Surgery Stories: www.sunlink.net/~debk

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Did you write this yourself? It's really good.