Re: Back from hades

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Hi Mozz;

I am so behind on messages, miss one day and I'm lost in an avalanche! So

just in case I didn't reply to this, here I go again.

It's highly likely that we all have PTSD from what we've been through. You

don't have to forget where you are and have a full-blown regression into the

past for it to be PTSD. For me it can be as simple as hating the sound of

the phone ringing, expecting a raging person on the other end - when it

rarely is. But the sound of the phone reminds me. That's a very small

example. I feel like it's going to be bad news - even though it probably

isn't. I wake up each morning feeling like my heart is racing, expecting

another horrible day - when it isn't. I can hear a song and it reminds me of

unbearable sadness and I can't hear the song for just what it is. And so on.

I'm sure others can pitch in some other examples.

Oh, hear is a big one: if I hear the sound of something hitting skin, I

panic, thinking someone is getting hit or slapped and I'm feeling awful - no

matter what is really happening. Sometimes kids do have to be disciplined

but I can't bear to be around it, I will just freak out. I walked into a

woman spanking her child in the bathroom one day and I did freak out. She

wasn't raging or anything, she was very calm and the kid was misbehaving.

She was a nice woman from a good family and I just freaked out. She thought

I was having a heart attack.

Flowers in Oz

Re: Back from hades

Hi Flowers,

Thank you for the advice- much appreciated. I don't need to defend myself,

you are right. I need to get over feeling like I need to. I am curious about

you mentioning PTSD. Do you think I have that? I was taught that PTSD

involved flashbacks, which I don't have. But I wanted to ask why you

mentioned that in case I am missing something...