why do i feel so bad for her??

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ok,so i went against the advice of you guys and emailed my nada a letter only

to have her freak out on me. i previouly havent spoken to her directly in a year

and have totally cut her off after her last attack by changing my phone number,

blocking her on my email account and sending back any letters she send thru the

mail. So, its my daughters 2nd b-day and i had to return to sender a card she

sent to her. Why do i feel so bad. A huge part of me has this guilty feeling.

And i feel so bad for her sometimes. I cant stand the name calling and her

cruelty towards me, and i know this is better in the long run to not have

contact, but why do i feel so bad? Is this feeling gonna last forever?? I cant

stand it.

missy