Re: At my wits end/Kayla

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--- Kayla wrote:

>I am tired all the time, physically, mentally, emotionally. I just feel so

done. I haven't heard back from the people about my shots. I have fallen in such

a deep depression that I no longer take care of myself. I'm trying to break that

habit before it gets too bad. I'm getting back on my mental illness medicine.

But still I am so far down its very hard to see the light, if there is any light

at the end of this long tunnel anyway. All I crave is relief from this pain...on

the outside as well as on the inside.

Hi Kayla

It doesn't matter if anyone in the group has more pain than someone else, or has

been in chronic pain longer, we don't compete nor compare in our group. Please

don't beat yourself up.

I'm very sorry to hear that you feel so miserable. Each of us have days when we

wake up and think " I just can't make it one more day. " Yet, we get up and put

one foot in front of the other.

Depression is exhausting. Please force yourself to bathe, brush your teeth, comb

your hair and put on clean clothes each day. No one feels good when they are

icky, and stinky.

It can feel impossible some days, or weeks, but do it for those who love you,

when you feel like you cannot do it for yourself. Do it for the members in the

group, if you feel like you have no one else.

Are you eating, and sleeping enough? It is essential that you take good care of

yourself.

I have bipolar disorder, and know how important it is to take my medication each

and every day. It took awhile to do it, and awhile for the doctor to find the

most effective medications.

I have been stable for many years now. My mental health isn't perfect, but it's

as different as night and day, once they found the right combination of

medications.

Counseling, plus medication have been the key. If you aren't seeing someone,

please do asap. Living with chronic pain is hard enough, but adding another

chronic illness, can make it much more stressful.

It is frustrating to go through hoops to get your injection, but please don't

count on it to be miraculous.

Lyndi, mentioned in a previous post multiple therapies that are very useful. A

counselor can teach you these things. Many of these things you can read about

them on line.

Multiple members have said that writing a journal helps them. You can pour your

heart out, to relieve the emotional pain. They usually include one thing each

time that they are thankful for, to help keep a positive attitude.

A few members have said they make themselves sing when they feel horrible.

Naturally the songs need to be cheerful, heck make up some funny lyrics to a

tune you know. If you can't carry a tune in a bucket, then sing in the shower.

Please let us know how you are coming along. If your medication isn't lifting

your depression, please so your doctor to be sure your mental illness has been

diagnosed correctly.

I belong to an online book club, that is fun. We don't read any specific book,

just talk about the ones we like. That keeps it from feeling like a homework

assignment. It's been a great way to learn about authors/books I didn't know

about.

Well, this has turned into a book, but please let me say again, we care about

you.

Best wishes

Kaylene