Re: Digest Number 642

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Dawn, I'm reading my digests backwards (latest first and on to the

earliest)...no time last night...I read about your 1) hit on the head; 2) bad

day of eating; 3) mentioning noticing heavy people more often. You're not

alone with #2 or #3, thankfully, I haven't knocked myself on the head lately.

#1...The shakiness/dizziness and extra water drinking reminded me of my last

week. I have been drinking loads of water and still feeling extremely

thirsty (and shaky)...finally it dawned (no pun intended!) on me that maybe I

was low on sodium. Since I don't use salt in anything, I rarely get salt,

unless of course it's a bad day and chips are calling my name.

#2...bad days - well, mine are more like Lyssa's...chips, candy, you know,

the old comfort food, although nowadays it really doesn't comfort me, it's

just a habit. I try very hard not to have this stuff in the house although I

do break down occasionally. What I am trying to keep track of is writing down

my food consumption during the day, especially protein and water, so that I

can look back and see that my day isn't as bad as I think. It's my brain

trying to screw me up and throw me back into old, bad habits.

#3...this is a big one for me. I notice people who are overweight constantly

and I do compare myself to them. I try very hard not to be critical.

Sometimes I am just so grateful that I'm not where they are anymore that I

want to cry for them. I also would love to hand out cards, etc. but that

would be difficult and I would have hated it when I was at my top weight of

366, but believe me I can sympathize with your thoughts about giving them

support.

I also have become more sensitive to " fat " comments about people. I spoke to

one guy who told me he dated a woman who was 5'4 " tall and weighed 150 (he

thought this was overweight) and I would kill to be at this weight. So of

course, I immediately said " well, at 150 , she's not overweight " - the dead

silence on the other end of the line was amazing. Here was this guy who had

just finished telling me that he was no Redford, Brad Pitt, etc. but

he was thinking in his little brain that even though he was no prize, he

should have a prize on his arm (and she needed to be his height of 5'5 " or

shorter). Give me an absolute break!!! Doesn't she deserve a prize, too?

Certainly with his small ability to be kind, sympathetic, etc. I can

understand why the man only dates each woman once, no one can possibly fit

his unreasonable standards. Up to this point, our conversation had been

going so well, he couldn't wait to meet me because he believed that I was

perfect for him...right...LOL! Needless to say, I then delighted in telling

him about my recent weight loss of 133 pounds, now weighing 233 (and STILL

holding). He actually gulped on the phone and hung up shortly thereafter. I

delighted in being able to knock him down a peg but you can't get him to

understand because he has his own issues.

Please, guys, don't be upset about the " little brain " comment...I was truly

being very specific about this man only...I certainly don't believe that men

have little brains...some of the nicest and most sympathetic people I know

are men...I'd just like to find one that's available and looking for a good

woman in his life...all the really terrific ones are taken...hint, hint,

Carla!!

Sorry this was so long, I guess it's a case of not have participated in the

conversation for such a long time. Best wishes, Annie

366/233 and holding/???

Open RNY, LMH, Dr. Randall

1999

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Annie

Great letter especially the story of that guy you were talking to.

Have you ever noticed that the ones who are not big prizes always want the

perfect woman? or Man? I don't think my ego could ever be that big.

Don