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To all the lovely people here

I'm Louise from Australia, the " bad child " of a " Witch " BP mother. wonder if any

of you have felt that if you started making your first post on growing up with a

BP parent, you'd be typing for a week?

I've spent some time reading posts here, and while I haven't harboured any

illusions that I was the only one to experience the things that I did, it has

still been something of a shock to see how perfectly the experiences of others

here match my own. I guess I still thought that some of the betrayals and other

behaviours were too bizarre to be shared by many other people. I've cried for

some of you, but I suspect I am also crying for the child I was. I feel such

sorrow.

I have recently read Lawson's book, and have to admit it was

dreadfully upsetting; I think it touched some of my own deepest terrors and

abandonments. I think that the ability to feel and have a good cry can be

helpful, but I also found it anxiety-provoking and stepped away for a few days.

Although I have dome some good healing work over the years, the wounds have a

way of reopening from time to time at seeming new levels, don't they? I guess I

can accept that this is how it is.

Does anybody relate?

I'm looking forward to getting to know this community. I'd like to share my

story soon, and I'm glad I found you all, though I'm so sorry you know this pain

too.

Hugs to all who want them,

Louise.

[Guest guest]

Hi Louise, my mother was primarily a witch with some hermit and a sprinkling of

waif. As she's aged, she's settled mostly on waif/hermit with still a bit of

witch.

Welcome to the group!

Deanna

>

> To all the lovely people here

>

> I'm Louise from Australia, the " bad child " of a " Witch " BP mother. wonder if

any of you have felt that if you started making your first post on growing up

with a BP parent, you'd be typing for a week?

>

> I've spent some time reading posts here, and while I haven't harboured any

illusions that I was the only one to experience the things that I did, it has

still been something of a shock to see how perfectly the experiences of others

here match my own. I guess I still thought that some of the betrayals and other

behaviours were too bizarre to be shared by many other people. I've cried for

some of you, but I suspect I am also crying for the child I was. I feel such

sorrow.

>

> I have recently read Lawson's book, and have to admit it was

dreadfully upsetting; I think it touched some of my own deepest terrors and

abandonments. I think that the ability to feel and have a good cry can be

helpful, but I also found it anxiety-provoking and stepped away for a few days.

>

> Although I have dome some good healing work over the years, the wounds have a

way of reopening from time to time at seeming new levels, don't they? I guess I

can accept that this is how it is.

>

> Does anybody relate?

>

> I'm looking forward to getting to know this community. I'd like to share my

story soon, and I'm glad I found you all, though I'm so sorry you know this pain

too.

>

> Hugs to all who want them,

>

> Louise.

>

[Guest guest]

welcome Louise. I am the bad child of a witch/queen nada !! I wasn't

always the bad child, I got that title about 15 years ago for some

reason...before that I was invisible

Jackie

To all the lovely people here

I'm Louise from Australia, the " bad child " of a " Witch " BP mother. wonder if

any of you have felt that if you started making your first post on growing

up with a BP parent, you'd be typing for a week?

I've spent some time reading posts here, and while I haven't harboured any

illusions that I was the only one to experience the things that I did, it

has still been something of a shock to see how perfectly the experiences of

others here match my own. I guess I still thought that some of the betrayals

and other behaviours were too bizarre to be shared by many other people.

I've cried for some of you, but I suspect I am also crying for the child I

was. I feel such sorrow.

I have recently read Lawson's book, and have to admit it was

dreadfully upsetting; I think it touched some of my own deepest terrors and

abandonments. I think that the ability to feel and have a good cry can be

helpful, but I also found it anxiety-provoking and stepped away for a few

days.

Although I have dome some good healing work over the years, the wounds have

a way of reopening from time to time at seeming new levels, don't they? I

guess I can accept that this is how it is.

Does anybody relate?

I'm looking forward to getting to know this community. I'd like to share my

story soon, and I'm glad I found you all, though I'm so sorry you know this

pain too.

Hugs to all who want them,

Louise.