Thursday at Pegi's

[Guest guest]

Today I am going to force myself to take it easy after two very busy days and then tomorrow being non-stop action, I'll be in trouble if I overdo today. I'll just do the little picking up things, bedmaking and laundry one must do to keep things running. It is a rainy day so no biking outdoors, but I will use the indoor equipment. I am working on my Walk for Life sponsorships so I'll call some people for that, but not the ones I KNOW will want to talk forever. That drains me so fast, all the talking. I am so thankful for my friends though who love me, it is just exhausting though.

I have two friends in the hospital so I hope later after the rains stop to visit them. and hubby are off to work. is off today so she is working on school work all day.

I am feeling really good today which is such a relief. I am thinking somehow this process cycles itself in some sort of surreal loop of fatigue and energy. I don't see any consistency in it though as it is still so unpredictable. I am finding I am obsessing over all this too. I am not sure how to be 'self-aware' and still not be 'self-obsessed. Do any of you know what I mean? I want to reach the point, and I know I eventually will, where I just do what I need to do to keep this disease controlled and then go on with my days and not give it another thought. Everyone I know keeps asking me about it or how I am so it is hard not to talk about it or dwell on it. I also have having one hard time staying asleep at night. I mean at 3:30-4am I am wide awake and ready to get busy. THEN at 6am I am about to die I am so tired. That seems to be the ONLY predictable factor I am find.

Love, Pegi in Indianapegi@...We may not have it all together, but together we have it all.Pegi, wife to Clarencemom to , 18 and , 17