1 week left for me to file on my son's behalf in the VICP

January 9, 2010

On Jan 17th it will be 3 years since a thimerosal containing flu shot

irreparably injured my son. I didn't recognize the signs that he was already

compromised by other mercury-containing flu shots and a poor immune system that

hadn't even been able to recognize his birth Hep B series or 2 other

infant/toddler vaccine series. But Jan 17 2007 he had a 30% language delay and

some other sensory challenges but his regular Ped didn't see an autistic boy and

so we had not referral. A day later on Jan 18, he began looking through people

and a whole set of really odd unusual new behaviors (i.e. autism) we had never

seen in his 3+ years of life so we called back to get that neurodevelopmental

referral. And because the GI problems also started within the month we got a

second GI Dr referral. It didn't matter, in 8 weeks he was completely lost to

our world. Finding a DAN mattered. Thankfully his eye contact is returning. His

voice is still less than before but no longer completely silent. But he is not

nearly as recovered nor regained his prior NT type behavior as I thought/hoped

he would be. He has potential and he shows it from time to time, but on the

whole he is Severely Autistic.

Now, I have to decide whether to throw away 250$ to make my statement to my

unhearing and uncaring govt that yes, their carelessness and recklessness cost

my son his normal life. I have to decide whether I want them to have even more

of my $ in exchange for their lack of help to the injuried and lack of

protection to the future injured. Whether I want to join the other the 5-6

thousand or however many cases have been filed that will be sat on and denied

long after I am gone. And I don't know what to do. I know that shot was the

final straw that broke my son. IF by filing I would ever get the opportunity to

go head to head with them, would I want to exert the time, effort, and $ on what

has proven to be an impossible win with this rigged " jury " or would I want to

put all my resources into restoring as much function and quality to my son as

possible? I am angry...and tired, and I need to carefully guard and conserve my

energy and $ for helping my son and being a good mom to 2 other NT children and

an ADHD son. And I do not know what to do about the deadline that came faster

than I could have imagined.

Ah well, time to climb in the softchamber to pressure out a few more precious

stem cells into my son's circulation.

Thoughts or advice are appreciated.

Becky

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