I am so sick of this

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Hi Everyone,

I am so sick of this damn disease. I realize ther are people worse

off than my family and I, but I don,t know how much more I can

take.My family had to go through the Thanksgiving holidy waiting for

test result,s from liver biopsy from spot,s that were suspicious. So

okay the test came back good. I went to my mom,s saturday we had our

christmas early at her house.They saw a spot on her lung earlier

before liver biopsy but said it looked like a shadow and they said if

liver biopsy was okay, then they were satisfied that it was probably

just a shadow. i was surprised at the time that they were just going

to assume it was a shadow without making sure.(sorry for my sloppy

typeing I am just so upset) Anyway i found out at my mom,s that lung

Dr. now want,s to make sure it is just a shadow. He asked her if she

wanted to wait till after the holiday,s she said yes, she thinks we

have had enough bad new,s for the month(or let me correct that we

have had enough bad new,s for the last 3 month,s) Any way so now I

have to go through christmas waiting and worrying wondering what test

result,s will be in January. i just feel like the weight of the world

is on my shoulder,s, i want to cry and i don,t know how much more I

can take of this. I cry as I type this, I have major problem,s with

depression and stress anyway. I am sitting here crying, but just

thought of something funny, I guess I am not as strong as I thought I

was Ha Ha. Sorry for this depressing post, I am just in the dumps and

don,t see a way out.

Best Reguards

Jana