Guest guest Posted August 6, 2007 Report Share Posted August 6, 2007 Well, just thought I would get on here and hog the mailbox up some. LOL.... (just kidding). But the reason I am writing is the just share something. I have been reading about the posts on depression. Just want to say I am depressed every single day of my life. I might have better parts of the day but then the worry and anxiety overwhelm me. I have ALWAYS been this way no matter what my life circumstances are. The times I was severely clinically depressed I could not function. I have been therapied to death and think I could predict everything that will come out of their mouths. (Yes they have helped me though). I have been on almost every single SSRI drug that has come out since the early 90's. I hate this feeling. I am depressed even when I am not in pain. Strange thing is, I will smile at others or act cheerful at times when inside I am depressed. Makes no sense. I hate this illness. I hate the fibro too. I just feel they are intertwined and in my case the depression set in several years before the fibro showed up. Well, just rambling. Thanks you guys, Debra V. --------------------------------- Building a website is a piece of cake. Yahoo! Small Business gives you all the tools to get online. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 7, 2007 Report Share Posted August 7, 2007 Debra, I know how it feels! I am 43 and have been depressed since I was 14. At age 14 I had a near death motordcycle accident that bruised my brain and I had amnesia for 6 months and every day since I have known depression. The joy of living has been robbed of me. I've been on SSRI for over 20 years now and still have never overcome depression. I wake up sad every morning for no apparent reason. After my accident @ age 14 my personality changed and I was alienated because for 3 months I had uncontrollable outburst of of inappropriate laughter. It didn't matter where I was I would burst into laghter so people shuned me because they thought I was crazy or something. That hurt and still does some of the time. No therapy or the next medication every truelly brought me out. Now I have to spend half the daylight hours in bed because of the pain. 5 Drs. have refused me narcotics,that is 5 Dr. have refused me the oppurtunity to function physicaly like " normal people " . Not my faith or anything produce any lasting happiness. Years of pain prior to FM,the hip replacements and all the pain related to the osteomyolitis I had at age 15 kept me frrom being the productive person I might have been. It's like a trap I'm still trying to escape. No amount of encouragement seems to help. I only write to let you know your not alone in this world. Some people just don't relate to us simply because they don't know what we have known for so long. Loving Hugs....................... debra van ness wrote: Well, just thought I would get on here and hog the mailbox up some. LOL.... (just kidding). But the reason I am writing is the just share something. I have been reading about the posts on depression. Just want to say I am depressed every single day of my life. I might have better parts of the day but then the worry and anxiety overwhelm me. I have ALWAYS been this way no matter what my life circumstances are. The times I was severely clinically depressed I could not function. I have been therapied to death and think I could predict everything that will come out of their mouths. (Yes they have helped me though). I have been on almost every single SSRI drug that has come out since the early 90's. I hate this feeling. I am depressed even when I am not in pain. Strange thing is, I will smile at others or act cheerful at times when inside I am depressed. Makes no sense. I hate this illness. I hate the fibro too. I just feel they are intertwined and in my case the depression set in several years before the fibro showed up. Well, just rambling. Thanks you guys, Debra V. --------------------------------- Building a website is a piece of cake. Yahoo! Small Business gives you all the tools to get online. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 7, 2007 Report Share Posted August 7, 2007 Debra, You could have written this about me...totally and completely. I'm sorry that the both of you have to feel this way every single day. You probably know that a " low-level " depression is called dysthymia. It's like having your own personal rain cloud following you around whereever you go...every day. Then the major depressive episode hits and you pray for the right med, the right therapist (been there, done all that, too). You aren't rambling..you are telling us that there are others who feel the way we do. <Smiling, as always!> Rickye Honeycutt wrote: Debra, I know how it feels! I am 43 and have been depressed since I was 14. At age 14 I had a near death motordcycle accident that bruised my brain and I had amnesia for 6 months and every day since I have known depression. The joy of living has been robbed of me. I've been on SSRI for over 20 years now and still have never overcome depression. I wake up sad every morning for no apparent reason. After my accident @ age 14 my personality changed and I was alienated because for 3 months I had uncontrollable outburst of of inappropriate laughter. It didn't matter where I was I would burst into laghter so people shuned me because they thought I was crazy or something. That hurt and still does some of the time. No therapy or the next medication every truelly brought me out. Now I have to spend half the daylight hours in bed because of the pain. 5 Drs. have refused me narcotics,that is 5 Dr. have refused me the oppurtunity to function physicaly like " normal people " . Not my faith or anything produce any lasting happiness. Years of pain prior to FM,the hip replacements and all the pain related to the osteomyolitis I had at age 15 kept me frrom being the productive person I might have been. It's like a trap I'm still trying to escape. No amount of encouragement seems to help. I only write to let you know your not alone in this world. Some people just don't relate to us simply because they don't know what we have known for so long. Loving Hugs....................... debra van ness wrote: Well, just thought I would get on here and hog the mailbox up some. LOL.... (just kidding). But the reason I am writing is the just share something. I have been reading about the posts on depression. Just want to say I am depressed every single day of my life. I might have better parts of the day but then the worry and anxiety overwhelm me. I have ALWAYS been this way no matter what my life circumstances are. The times I was severely clinically depressed I could not function. I have been therapied to death and think I could predict everything that will come out of their mouths. (Yes they have helped me though). I have been on almost every single SSRI drug that has come out since the early 90's. I hate this feeling. I am depressed even when I am not in pain. Strange thing is, I will smile at others or act cheerful at times when inside I am depressed. Makes no sense. I hate this illness. I hate the fibro too. I just feel they are intertwined and in my case the depression set in several years before the fibro showed up. Well, just rambling. Thanks you guys, Debra V. --------------------------------- Building a website is a piece of cake. Yahoo! Small Business gives you all the tools to get online. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 8, 2007 Report Share Posted August 8, 2007 I actually feel bettter when the sky is overcast and the weather is cool. I do *not* do well with bright sunlight and any amount of heat. I do however battle depression, however, that, I do not know if it is more physical pain being persistant or long standing emotional issues from the past as I also have PTSD. I try not to let it get me down either way. India > > I was just thinking about this depression thing alot of us go through. Do > any of you find it beneficial to try to get out in the sunlight???? I hardly > ever do it myself. I am also the type to want to isolate and really don't > want to do anything when I am very depressed. The only reason I mention this > is that I have heard there is a connection between sunlight and serotonin > release. I know I have read about those special lights you can buy for your > home that is suppose to mimic sunlight and help depression. (especially for > Seasonal Affective Disorder).... those who are more depressed in the fall > and winter months. > > I also might add sometimes sunlight is hard to come by depending on the > weather patterns. > > I don't know if it would help much at all. Just a question. > > Debra V. > > --------------------------------- > Park yourself in front of a world of choices in alternative vehicles. > Visit the Yahoo! Auto Green Center. > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 8, 2007 Report Share Posted August 8, 2007 Since I have Seasonal Affective Disorder I try to get outside when the weather is nice. At least walk around my yard. The sunlight really does help my mood. Debbie J > > I was just thinking about this depression thing alot of us go through. Do any of you find it beneficial to try to get out in the sunlight???? > I also might add sometimes sunlight is hard to come by depending on the weather patterns. > > I don't know if it would help much at all. Just a question. > > Debra V. > > > --------------------------------- > Park yourself in front of a world of choices in alternative vehicles. > Visit the Yahoo! Auto Green Center. > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 8, 2007 Report Share Posted August 8, 2007 Forgot to add that when I am outside I always wear sunglasses and sun protection. Don't go out as often when it's too hot. Debbie J Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 8, 2007 Report Share Posted August 8, 2007 When I'm feeling 'normal' sunlight seems to brighten my day and cheer me up. When I'm feeling down it just kind of makes me angry (what's that about?). Maybe it's because I seem to get my energy sapped from heat, I dunno. I know sunlight is supposed to help bring people 'up' and it does but like I said, only when I'm feeling 'normal.' Hugs, Jane ************************ Subject: Re: Depression On 8/8/07, debra van ness <ladybug75901@ <mailto:ladybug75901%40yahoo.com> yahoo.com> wrote: > > I was just thinking about this depression thing alot of us go through. Do > any of you find it beneficial to try to get out in the sunlight???? I hardly > ever do it myself. I am also the type to want to isolate and really don't > want to do anything when I am very depressed. The only reason I mention this > is that I have heard there is a connection between sunlight and serotonin > release. I know I have read about those special lights you can buy for your > home that is suppose to mimic sunlight and help depression. (especially for > Seasonal Affective Disorder).... those who are more depressed in the fall > and winter months. > > I also might add sometimes sunlight is hard to come by depending on the > weather patterns. > > I don't know if it would help much at all. Just a question. > > Debra V. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 11, 2007 Report Share Posted August 11, 2007 Hi Well, it's a little difficult to get out in the sun when there is no sun. At the moment it's dark and grey and raining heavily. It's also pretty cold and stormy. I don't want to go out today, but my friend will be here in an hour, may be, if she doesn't care about the rain. But when it is sunny I like to be outside. It does make you feel better. And the warm temperatures also help. But it can't be too warm, because then I don't feel good. -- --- debra van ness wrote: > I was just thinking about this depression thing alot > of us go through. Do any of you find it beneficial > to try to get out in the sunlight???? I hardly ever > do it myself. I am also the type to want to isolate > and really don't want to do anything when I am very > depressed. The only reason I mention this is that I > have heard there is a connection between sunlight > and serotonin release. I know I have read about > those special lights you can buy for your home that > is suppose to mimic sunlight and help depression. > (especially for Seasonal Affective Disorder).... > those who are more depressed in the fall and winter > months. > > I also might add sometimes sunlight is hard to > come by depending on the weather patterns. > > I don't know if it would help much at all. Just a > question. > > Debra V. ________________________________________________________________________________\ ____ Shape Yahoo! in your own image. Join our Network Research Panel today! http://surveylink.yahoo.com/gmrs/yahoo_panel_invite.asp?a=7 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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