Pain Med Addiction Questions..(Warning: EPIC length)

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I posted about pain meds once before. I mentioned that my mother was/is

addicted to pain meds and that I was worried I was going to be too. I was

pretty relieved to hear many of your answers..Seemed like it was just a

matter of keeping in touch with my Dr.

Now I'm not sure....

How do I know if what I am feeling is from the ACM or from possible misuse

of pain meds?

Tonight for example, I can't Sleep. I've been up since 4 am and it's now 1

am the next night and I am still not sleepy. I was exhausted earlier..and I

still really want to go to sleep..but I can't.

Is this ACM? Percoset? *sigh*

THe reason I wondered if it was the Percoset is because I haven't taken it

the last two days (Good days! WooHoo!) ..and wondered if this was some sort

of 'response'? Does this make sense to anyone?

THe other thing is, I don't know how much I've taken..As I said before, my

mom is addicted to pain meds..she's been doing pretty good now that she's on

the patch but STILL whenever she comes over she asks for a " couple of

Percoset " . I don't know what to do..I told her OVER and over that the Dr.

was watching how much I take and that he's not going to give me anymore and

that I need the meds..but then I feel horribly guilty for telling her No,

when her back hurts (multiple surgeries) because she's picking up my two

year old all day. She's coming over to Help me...and I'm gonna say No?

I did finally..the other day...ya know why? Cause I got the script for 50

Percoset (10mg) on April 5th.. I have maybe 4 or 5 left now...And I don't

know " for sure " what I've taken versus what she has asked for...and frankly,

I don't know what she might have taken without asking.

I have been taking about 1/2 pill a day. Sometimes a whole one..but they

make me sick, so I take a half one when I need it, if that doesn't work I'll

go back later and take the other half. It usually DOES work though.

The thing that gets me though, is I've told her over and over how scared I

am of being addicted..and when I mentioned that I was running out of

Percoset (I was HINTING Damnit!) the next time she comes over she brings me

a LOT of Darvocet..and tells me..here, these aren't as bad, take these

instead. ARGGHHH>>>>

And ya know, I did take one of the Darvocet..didn't do a damn thing to make

me feel better...So, Now I'm REALLY worried..is it because I am already

addicted to the Percoset????

I'm so confused..I've been taking Midrin periodically all along...and am

wondering if I should just STOP the percoset and hang onto the Midrin..but

sometimes the Midrin just doesn't work...and the Percoset DOES...

WHY Does this have to be so Freakin confusing? Why must I choose between a

possible addiction and PAIN???? *sniff*

K.

Thanks for letting me whine so VERY long...

Mandy

" You know how it is when you're walking up the stairs, and you get to the

top, and you think there's one more step? I'm like that all the time. "

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