Venting!!CRYING IS NOT FOR ME

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Hello,

I never vent this might be my second time in a year,I

hate it with so many having conditions they are

dealing with.Mine seems so petty but I am at a

complete loss.I finally go see the Neuro after 16

months all this time been getting by only on pain meds

and anxiety meds.

I need so much more like neurotin ect:

My spine is so painful today all I want to do is cry,I

dont cry at all because it uses my strength

and who can afford that?I feel like little bugs are

crawling on my feet and legs sometimes,Is this my

imagination or what is it?

You would think since I have had one decomp no shunt

at that time,I would know alot.

But after 12 years alot has changed they have not come

very far on a cure but at least there are foundations

now that are working very hard for us.

WACMA has been so helpful and just fantastic for me

mentally !!And sometimes that is alot,The ole hang in

there is just what I need sometimes.

But now I am to the point of finally seeing this neuro

at the oklahoma science institute of neurosurgeons.

Where do I go from there,Decisions I have to make are

my concern,He has all my paperwork and I am taking my

mris,

I hope he doesnt crawl backwards I need help so bad,It

scares me.

I guess I am trying to say is there anything I should

say or do to this neuro ,Or will my paperwork,mris

tell him all?

Sympts should I tell him all of them he might think me

to be psychotic!!

Sorry this is so long,Maybe that is

why I never vent.I am kind of scared of the tests he

may run,

hugs to all KK,ACM1,10mm,SM,C1 TO T9

RSD,NMH,DISC PRO,C4,5

DECOMP FIRST TIME 1989

TRAUMA INDUCED SECOND HERN,SM,DISC

PRO.

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DADDY 4-25--99 " ' May you now fly with the Angels,

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