Guest guest Posted July 19, 2007 Report Share Posted July 19, 2007 I'm so exhausted but I can't rest,been up since 2:00 AM. I woke up in pain and nothing but trammadol to tease me. I hope and pray todays Dr appt. does some good . If it doesn't I'm going to start drinking again so I can pass out and sleep for hours. If I get no help from this pain Dr. I'm going to madder than hell! Can many of us relate to tese feelings. Drs. have the power to help but so often they refuse due to some prejudices. I'm loosing my mind! Do suicides go to hell? I know it's a perminet solution to a temporary problem but a person can only live this hell for so long! I know it's selfesh. This is my exhausted spirit talking. I probely wont kill myself but the thought is so tempting. Is life worth living w/out hope? What's the quality of my life going to be worth to this new Dr.?? I've heard of his reputaion,he prefers to stick needles in the spine over adminstraing narcotic relief. My inHUMA doesn't pay well enough for him to keep this type practice up on lowincomes like me. inHumana paid physical therapist about 20% leaving me w/bills I can't pay. My income is below poverty. I live hi on the hog for someone poverty stricken thanks to my mom. But in reality I only exist from day to day. Satan loves this kinda talk I'm sure he's listening. I want to function again like most of society. But my hope for now seems to rely on a man and not the Man. PRAY for Me.................................. --------------------------------- Sick sense of humor? Visit Yahoo! TV's Comedy with an Edge to see what's on, when. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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