My body and I seem to disagree...

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Sometimes I think my body doesn't want to let me lose weight. I'll

admit, I have started counting calories again. It seems like I can go

about 5 days at an average of 1400 calories and then wham, I get a day

like today where my appetite is sky high and no matter how much I eat

of what, I can never feel full or satisfied. This is about the weight

where my body has been able to hold steady without dieting in the

past, but I honestly don't like this weight and it may mean that I

need to buy a few new pairs of (bigger) jeans.

But like I said, I do " good " and then I get a day where nothing seems

to be enough for me and I don't know if it is mental or physical

hunger, probably both, but I'm just not satisfied with the quantity of

food I've eaten. And I don't binge, I just eat...I take my time and

enjoy my food and go back for more 20 or 30 minutes later. I just

wind up eating a lot and reversing all of the " good " I've done in the

week.

With my lower days and these few higher days, it probably winds up

balancing out in the end to maintain my weight or only gain a little

bit very slowly. However, it's wreaking havoc on my mind because I

just want my body to agree with me that it needs to be a little

lighter. Scratch that, I just want to agree with my body that it's

fine at the weight it is.

*sigh*