almost binged

[Guest guest]

On Friday night I had a situation happen that really got to me and almost caused

a binge.

My husbands cousins (who I am good friends with) keeps making mean comments

about

women being fat and how he can't date this girl because she has a titanic butt

even

though she is really nice and how they would be a great match. He has been doing

this for

about a week now as he has been dating women he has met over the internet. He

keeps

saying things like " She better not be fat " and other mean spirited comments

about their

weight. He has no idea I used to be fat. He thinks it's funny. I haven't said

anything except

that he was being a little shallow. Well, the other night my husband had had

enough of

listening to him go on like that, so when I left the room, my husband told him

he was

being an idiot and that it is really hard to find someone that you love and can

be your best

friend and you can't judge someone by what they weigh. He told him how I used to

be

heavy and how proud he was of me and how he would rather be with someone that

showed the strength I did to make changes then someone that was just naturally

thin. His

cousin was so focused on how he couldn't believe I was ever heavy that the

minute my

daughter walked into the room he started asked her how much I lost (as my

husband

didn't feel a need to tell him exact numbers). That's how I find out about it.

My husband is

a wonderful man!! i don't know if this makes any sense but I felt totally

embarrassed that

he knew I used to be fat. I didn't even want to look at him. I know I should be

proud but I

felt like I was ashamed. Like I was standing there naked and he was looking a me

weird.

Judging me. I wanted to hide and I wanted to eat. I didn't binge though although

I ate a

little past satisfied. This process is not easy but I guess I am making progress

a little at a

time.