Re: Sweet Dede:

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Good Morning Darling Dede:

How are you doing today? I noticed that our Sandy gave you a wake up call. I did not come near the computer yesterday. We finally put our yard to sleep for the winter, it took all morning, and after I was showered I went to bed. I broke my mother duck, and she has to have surgery today. Her husband is lost without her. did all of the hard work, and I just helped to rake up more leaves. The neighbours do not care about the leaves, and when the wind comes up they all blow onto our lawn.

Honey, my doctors are not responding to my calls, but today we hope that we get the call. I would love to have this surgery over with, but they might be afraid to do any surgery on me because of the respiratory problems, plus I am on Coumadin.

Honey, have a happy day...we love you... Lea and Superman

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Re: Sweet Lea

I tell ya, I think we all have some stories to tell !

It has been a journey for sure, the best part of it

has been meeting so many wonderful people here

in our group !

Hugs Dede

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Good morning sweet Dede:

We are so sorry that this has happened to your family. Is there any way that your daughter could get some counselling to help her to get over the trauma?It must so hard on the little children, and your poor father, and what it must be doing to you. Take care of your precious heart.

Honey, try to take one day at a time, and things will work out. This is so heartbreaking to see you go through all this pain.

Sending love and hope to all of you....Lea and Superman

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Re: Sandy...Chemical Soup Enema, for you know who:

Hello Sweet Lea ~

Yes, my cup over floweth........and my plate

is no longer a plate, its a smorgasboard, and it

is overflowing. Life is not like a box of chocolates

right now it is like a horrible cancer eating away at

my household. Dad is feeling the effects of the chemo

right now, my daughter is severly depressed, and crying

all the time. We tried to get an attorney, but the one we

saw wanted 10 grand ! boy did he think highly of himself.

Its a mess. Dad an I barely make it month to month, so

there are no resources. This hubby has really done it this

time. Because didnt call the law on him all this time

she has no " proof " that he has been abuseing her for so

long. Only emails that I have written back and forth to her

and to my sisters, and the one I wrote him last summer the day

before my heart attack about how he abuses her.

Email, is no proof ! Sad to say........B loved him unconditionally

and just kept forgiving him for all his abuse of her. He

gets mad and the black anger rages and he does things like

trash, literally trash and board up MY car to keep her from

going to the store. " To prove a point " It was HIM that kept

her from coming over and helping me and Dad. The story

can go on and on, but I gotta rest my brain and soul. He is a wicked

evil person, and just how crazy is this...............?.....?

He has called everyone he knows over this last year and told them

all kinds of things, he is obcessive and jealous and makes up things, anyway

he told everyone that he went in his backyard, and fell to his knees

and asked God what to do, and God told him to do this..........

Geezus, it wasnt my loving God ! ! NO God tells someone to set someone

up and screw them as hard as they can so as to prove a point. Sorry.......

Let me tell you, it is a very long story and would make you cry for , and the poor kids, what he has done to brainwash them and wrip them from their friends and schools, only to live with his mother, and she has never allowed my grandson to even spend the night with her, she better be treating him right. This is heartening to the core ! has no defense, and we have no money to fight this...........all we can do is hand it to God.......the real one and let him guide the way.

I still dont have the results on my heart. I have an appt tuesday. I am having alot of pain around the device and burning in the center of my

chest, and my bp and pulse have been like a yoyo 75/50 all the way to

167/99 130 pulse. I am resting when it yoyo's.

Anyway, anyone have an suggestions ? ? I am trying to be strong........

I figure that what doesnt kill us, will make us much stronger.

I am sorry I am not much or any help to anyone right now, but know I love you all and pray for you all !

Much Love ~ Dede

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Goodmorning Sweet Lea ~

I feel horrible.......ugh...grr...grr......ugh....

This is terribly old, and nighttimes are a nightmare

for me right now. My entire body hurts and burns.

and I am up peeing every 30 min or so, and I am

exhausted. My bones hurt too, and my insides

feel abused. My guts feel like my bones grind on

them and make them raw. It is really a strange

feeling. I am nausiated badly.

I have an appt with my heart doc tomrrow, but had

to do a transmission of this device over the phone friday,

because of this weird feeling and jerking my heart has

been doing, and I found out my entire lower chambers

are running by the pacemaker, then the pacemaker

also kicks in when I get bradycardia ( too slow ). I just

thought the thing paced me when I needed it, only......

Also, for some reason I am having arrhythema ( a 3rd beat )

and a pause, often, and they didnt know why, and they told

me if my heart got in trouble this weekend, that the device

would shock me.......geezus, that was comforting......actually

it was, I was glad to know there was enough juice left in it to

shock me if needed. Anyway the nurse told me she didnt

know what the doc would want to do with me...

So, maybe this heart arrhythema is what is making me feel

so badly, as it is constant....I only get a couple hours a day

that it is calm....

So........I will know more tomorrow afternoon....Hopefully

they will just have to reprogram my heart to take away

the arrhythema.

Thank you for asking.....I sure hope you start to feel better.

Glad to hear you are having your testing on friday for your

breasts. I wish they wouldnt squish them with the mammo

machine.......I think that is not a wise idea........

I wonder if you need an antibiotic to cover you in case

there are cysts in there that rupture due to the smashing

of the machine......God will protect you ! ! You are in

my prayers, Love you ! ! Dede**************New MapQuest Local shows what's happening at your destination. Dining, Movies, Events, News & more. Try it out (http://local.mapquest.com/?ncid=emlcntnew00000002)

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Darling Dede:

Good Morning, how are you doing today? We hope that you are feeling better. I have been reading many of the articles that you have posted. Some of them bring back many memories of my life after implants.

Have a happy day, and know that we are thinking of you.

Love you always...Lea and Superman

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Re: quick update on chemo

Lynda ~ Bless your heart, so glad you got some bloodto build yours up. That is really low. GodBless YOU and keep you safe ! Sending lots of love and prayers ~ Dede**************New MapQuest Local shows what's happening at your destination. Dining, Movies, Events, News & more. Try it out (http://local.mapquest.com/?ncid=emlcntnew00000002)

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Hello Sweet Lea ~

Doctors here are weird......I have an appt tomorrow.

I will be fine.

Even goin to the er, they put you through all this

financial crap first. That is their first duty......

they dont care about your health, just what they can

earn.

I am trusting in God to be sure I get the care that I

need when I need it, and what I am suposed to have.

I am glad your mouth is getting better. I know you are

too !

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Hello Lea ~

I bet that was a good movie. I love Diane

Keaton, she is great ! Happy endings are

always nice ! !

Love to you both ~

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Oh, Sweet Dede:

We are sorry that you are having a bad time. What is wrong with your doctors, because it sounds like something is failing?

Honey, I wish that I were there to help you. The pain sounds awful, and it sounds like you might have a bladder infection. Honey, we have to get those implants out of your body soon. This is all so crazy, and how can they allow you to suffer! If I were you, I would go straight to the ER and demand that they help you. You are so far in debt, it would better to be a sheep than a lamb...they cannot get any money from you....so get some help...the B*******.

Sweetheart, please just rest, and make sure that you do not fall. This all makes me so angry, because this should never happen to anyone.

I am doing much better, because I have been on a massive dose of antibiotics. The canker sores in my mouth are getting better, I had one that went down into my throat and it was so painful. That one has been murdered.

Please stay close to us today..we love you so much....Lea and Superman

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Re: Sweet Dede:

Goodmorning Sweet Lea ~ I feel horrible.......ugh...grr...grr......ugh....This is terribly old, and nighttimes are a nightmarefor me right now. My entire body hurts and burns.and I am up peeing every 30 min or so, and I amexhausted. My bones hurt too, and my insidesfeel abused. My guts feel like my bones grind onthem and make them raw. It is really a strangefeeling. I am nausiated badly. I have an appt with my heart doc tomrrow, but hadto do a transmission of this device over the phone friday,because of this weird feeling and jerking my heart hasbeen doing, and I found out my entire lower chambersare running by the pacemaker, then the pacemakeralso kicks in when I get bradycardia ( too slow ). I justthought the thing paced me when I needed it, only......Also, for some reason I am having arrhythema ( a 3rd beat )and a pause, often, and they didnt know why, and they toldme if my heart got in trouble this weekend, that the devicewould shock me.......geezus, that was comforting......actuallyit was, I was glad to know there was enough juice left in it toshock me if needed. Anyway the nurse told me she didntknow what the doc would want to do with me...So, maybe this heart arrhythema is what is making me feelso badly, as it is constant....I only get a couple hours a daythat it is calm....So........I will know more tomorrow afternoon....Hopefullythey will just have to reprogram my heart to take awaythe arrhythema. Thank you for asking.....I sure hope you start to feel better.Glad to hear you are having your testing on friday for yourbreasts. I wish they wouldnt squish them with the mammomachine.......I think that is not a wise idea........I wonder if you need an antibiotic to cover you in casethere are cysts in there that rupture due to the smashingof the machine......God will protect you ! ! You are inmy prayers, Love you ! ! Dede**************New MapQuest Local shows what's happening at your destination. Dining, Movies, Events, News & more. Try it out (http://local.mapquest.com/?ncid=emlcntnew00000002)

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Me again.

Dede, honey for the first time in my life, I watched a movie this morning. It was called Baby Boom with Diane Keaton, it was so funny that I laughed, and so did . We only saw the last part, but we will get this movie soon...it looked so good....with a happy ending.

Honey, we all need a happy endings....love you so....Us

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Re: Sweet Dede:

Goodmorning Sweet Lea ~ I feel horrible.......ugh...grr...grr......ugh....This is terribly old, and nighttimes are a nightmarefor me right now. My entire body hurts and burns.and I am up peeing every 30 min or so, and I amexhausted. My bones hurt too, and my insidesfeel abused. My guts feel like my bones grind onthem and make them raw. It is really a strangefeeling. I am nausiated badly. I have an appt with my heart doc tomrrow, but hadto do a transmission of this device over the phone friday,because of this weird feeling and jerking my heart hasbeen doing, and I found out my entire lower chambersare running by the pacemaker, then the pacemakeralso kicks in when I get bradycardia ( too slow ). I justthought the thing paced me when I needed it, only......Also, for some reason I am having arrhythema ( a 3rd beat )and a pause, often, and they didnt know why, and they toldme if my heart got in trouble this weekend, that the devicewould shock me.......geezus, that was comforting......actuallyit was, I was glad to know there was enough juice left in it toshock me if needed. Anyway the nurse told me she didntknow what the doc would want to do with me...So, maybe this heart arrhythema is what is making me feelso badly, as it is constant....I only get a couple hours a daythat it is calm....So........I will know more tomorrow afternoon....Hopefullythey will just have to reprogram my heart to take awaythe arrhythema. Thank you for asking.....I sure hope you start to feel better.Glad to hear you are having your testing on friday for yourbreasts. I wish they wouldnt squish them with the mammomachine.......I think that is not a wise idea........I wonder if you need an antibiotic to cover you in casethere are cysts in there that rupture due to the smashingof the machine......God will protect you ! ! You are inmy prayers, Love you ! ! Dede**************New MapQuest Local shows what's happening at your destination. Dining, Movies, Events, News & more. Try it out (http://local.mapquest.com/?ncid=emlcntnew00000002)

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Hello Lea ~

I am glad you got to get outdoors for awhile.

It is so good for you. I am sorry your leg is

a nuisance, but hopefully soon they will be

fixing it for you. Please get plenty of rest.

I am doing nothing myself.....nothing at all..

oh, well.....its ok......

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Honey, we are back indoors. I have to go to bed, because I have done too much in our little garden...my poor old leg. We will be here all day.

Please write if you need to talk...we love you...Lea and Superman

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Re: Sweet Dede:

Hello Lea ~ I bet that was a good movie. I love DianeKeaton, she is great ! Happy endings arealways nice ! ! Love to you both ~ Dede**************New MapQuest Local shows what's happening at your destination. Dining, Movies, Events, News & more. Try it out (http://local.mapquest.com/?ncid=emlcntnew00000002)

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Honey, we are anxious about your visit to your doctor tomorrow. Please continue to rest, and have a good night tonight. I guess you do not take a sleeping pill because of your heart. I take one every night, because I would never get any sleep without it.

We have put all of our plants to sleep for the winter, we covered many with peater moss. They took all of the leaves away today, what a noise, but our yard looks nice and clean.

Stay close sweet Dede....Lea and Superman

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Re: Sweet Dede:

Hello Lea ~ I am glad you got to get outdoors for awhile.It is so good for you. I am sorry your leg isa nuisance, but hopefully soon they will befixing it for you. Please get plenty of rest.I am doing nothing myself.....nothing at all..oh, well.....its ok......Love and hugs to you both ~ Me**************New MapQuest Local shows what's happening at your destination. Dining, Movies, Events, News & more. Try it out (http://local.mapquest.com/?ncid=emlcntnew00000002)

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Darling Dede:

How are you feeling today, and this is the day that you get some help. We will pray that your doctor will help you to get well. He should make sure that you get explanted soon. Last night, I had some vaginal pain, and it frightened us so much. That is what happened a month ago, but the pain is gone today.

Good luck honey...love you always...Lea and

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Re: Sweet Dede:

Hello Lea ~ I am glad you got to get outdoors for awhile.It is so good for you. I am sorry your leg isa nuisance, but hopefully soon they will befixing it for you. Please get plenty of rest.I am doing nothing myself.....nothing at all..oh, well.....its ok......Love and hugs to you both ~ Me**************New MapQuest Local shows what's happening at your destination. Dining, Movies, Events, News & more. Try it out (http://local.mapquest.com/?ncid=emlcntnew00000002)

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Lea,

Baby Boom is one of my favorite movies!!

Sis

>

> Me again.

>

> Dede, honey for the first time in my life, I watched a movie this

morning. It was called Baby Boom with Diane Keaton, it was so funny

that I laughed, and so did . We only saw the last part, but we

will get this movie soon...it looked so good....with a happy ending.

>

> Honey, we all need a happy endings....love you so....Us

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> Re: Sweet Dede:

>

>

> Goodmorning Sweet Lea ~

>

> I feel horrible.......ugh...grr...grr......ugh....

> This is terribly old, and nighttimes are a nightmare

> for me right now. My entire body hurts and burns.

> and I am up peeing every 30 min or so, and I am

> exhausted. My bones hurt too, and my insides

> feel abused. My guts feel like my bones grind on

> them and make them raw. It is really a strange

> feeling. I am nausiated badly.

> I have an appt with my heart doc tomrrow, but had

> to do a transmission of this device over the phone friday,

> because of this weird feeling and jerking my heart has

> been doing, and I found out my entire lower chambers

> are running by the pacemaker, then the pacemaker

> also kicks in when I get bradycardia ( too slow ). I just

> thought the thing paced me when I needed it, only......

> Also, for some reason I am having arrhythema ( a 3rd beat )

> and a pause, often, and they didnt know why, and they told

> me if my heart got in trouble this weekend, that the device

> would shock me.......geezus, that was comforting......actually

> it was, I was glad to know there was enough juice left in it to

> shock me if needed. Anyway the nurse told me she didnt

> know what the doc would want to do with me...

> So, maybe this heart arrhythema is what is making me feel

> so badly, as it is constant....I only get a couple hours a day

> that it is calm....

> So........I will know more tomorrow afternoon....Hopefully

> they will just have to reprogram my heart to take away

> the arrhythema.

> Thank you for asking.....I sure hope you start to feel better.

> Glad to hear you are having your testing on friday for your

> breasts. I wish they wouldnt squish them with the mammo

> machine.......I think that is not a wise idea........

> I wonder if you need an antibiotic to cover you in case

> there are cysts in there that rupture due to the smashing

> of the machine......God will protect you ! ! You are in

> my prayers, Love you ! ! Dede

>

>

> **************

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My Dear Sis:

Thank you for being here, it is so nice to see your posts. We are so happy that you are doing better, and hope that you will continue to get your life back.

Sending love to you...Lea

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Re: Sweet Dede:> > > Goodmorning Sweet Lea ~ > > I feel horrible.......ugh...grr...grr......ugh....> This is terribly old, and nighttimes are a nightmare> for me right now. My entire body hurts and burns.> and I am up peeing every 30 min or so, and I am> exhausted. My bones hurt too, and my insides> feel abused. My guts feel like my bones grind on> them and make them raw. It is really a strange> feeling. I am nausiated badly. > I have an appt with my heart doc tomrrow, but had> to do a transmission of this device over the phone friday,> because of this weird feeling and jerking my heart has> been doing, and I found out my entire lower chambers> are running by the pacemaker, then the pacemaker> also kicks in when I get bradycardia ( too slow ). I just> thought the thing paced me when I needed it, only......> Also, for some reason I am having arrhythema ( a 3rd beat )> and a pause, often, and they didnt know why, and they told> me if my heart got in trouble this weekend, that the device> would shock me.......geezus, that was comforting......actually> it was, I was glad to know there was enough juice left in it to> shock me if needed. Anyway the nurse told me she didnt> know what the doc would want to do with me...> So, maybe this heart arrhythema is what is making me feel> so badly, as it is constant....I only get a couple hours a day> that it is calm....> So........I will know more tomorrow afternoon....Hopefully> they will just have to reprogram my heart to take away> the arrhythema. > Thank you for asking.....I sure hope you start to feel better.> Glad to hear you are having your testing on friday for your> breasts. I wish they wouldnt squish them with the mammo> machine.......I think that is not a wise idea........> I wonder if you need an antibiotic to cover you in case> there are cysts in there that rupture due to the smashing> of the machine......God will protect you ! ! You are in> my prayers, Love you ! ! Dede> > > **************> New MapQuest Local shows what's happening at your destination. Dining, Movies, Events, News & more. Try it out (http://local.mapquest.com/?ncid=emlcntnew00000002)>

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Hello Sweet Lea ~

I dont feel so well, today, we are having some weather

changes, and I am a barometer, along with everything

else....

So, that pain you are having.....what is going on?

When was your last pap smear ? I am sorry you are

having this pain and that it is so scarey....Bless your

heart. How are you today ?

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Hi Lea,

I had a number of things on my plate that were a huge burden, and

thankfully I've got them all off my plate now - so that gives me

time to check in on my wonderful, loving friends at this site.

Thank you for the note, you are a ray of sunshine.

Sis

>

> My Dear Sis:

>

> Thank you for being here, it is so nice to see your posts. We are

so happy that you are doing better, and hope that you will continue

to get your life back.

>

> Sending love to you...Lea

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> Re: Sweet Dede:

> >

> >

> > Goodmorning Sweet Lea ~

> >

> > I feel horrible.......ugh...grr...grr......ugh....

> > This is terribly old, and nighttimes are a nightmare

> > for me right now. My entire body hurts and burns.

> > and I am up peeing every 30 min or so, and I am

> > exhausted. My bones hurt too, and my insides

> > feel abused. My guts feel like my bones grind on

> > them and make them raw. It is really a strange

> > feeling. I am nausiated badly.

> > I have an appt with my heart doc tomrrow, but had

> > to do a transmission of this device over the phone friday,

> > because of this weird feeling and jerking my heart has

> > been doing, and I found out my entire lower chambers

> > are running by the pacemaker, then the pacemaker

> > also kicks in when I get bradycardia ( too slow ). I just

> > thought the thing paced me when I needed it, only......

> > Also, for some reason I am having arrhythema ( a 3rd beat )

> > and a pause, often, and they didnt know why, and they told

> > me if my heart got in trouble this weekend, that the device

> > would shock me.......geezus, that was comforting......actually

> > it was, I was glad to know there was enough juice left in it to

> > shock me if needed. Anyway the nurse told me she didnt

> > know what the doc would want to do with me...

> > So, maybe this heart arrhythema is what is making me feel

> > so badly, as it is constant....I only get a couple hours a day

> > that it is calm....

> > So........I will know more tomorrow afternoon....Hopefully

> > they will just have to reprogram my heart to take away

> > the arrhythema.

> > Thank you for asking.....I sure hope you start to feel better.

> > Glad to hear you are having your testing on friday for your

> > breasts. I wish they wouldnt squish them with the mammo

> > machine.......I think that is not a wise idea........

> > I wonder if you need an antibiotic to cover you in case

> > there are cysts in there that rupture due to the smashing

> > of the machine......God will protect you ! ! You are in

> > my prayers, Love you ! ! Dede

> >

> >

> > **************

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Hi Dede,

I know what you mean, my body definitely reacts to the changes of

season - although I know you have alot more going on healthwise than

I do. What's been happening lately with your health? I recall

seeing messages about going to a doctor or having surgey?

Sis

>

> Hello Sweet Lea ~

> I dont feel so well, today, we are having some weather

> changes, and I am a barometer, along with everything

> else....

> So, that pain you are having.....what is going on?

> When was your last pap smear ? I am sorry you are

> having this pain and that it is so scarey....Bless your

> heart. How are you today ?

> Love you so much ~ Dede

>

>

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Patty ~

Thank you for you sweet note.......My appointment went

ok, but unfortunately the cardiomyopathy is progressing.

That is the reason for the start up of the 3 beats and pauses

( arrhythemia ) and the CHF and other problems I am having.

I am seeing my regular cardiologist tomorrow. I saw my

electrophysiology cardiologist tuesday, he is only in charge

of the electrical portion of my heart.

He wants Doc V to review all my stuff and maybe check the pumping action ( heart muscle strength ) again to be sure it is still ok. He said Doc V can order the CT for my lungs to check those nodules and check the emphysema I now have, and they can compare it to the last one, then advise me from there what to do, see a pulmonary specialist or go to another oncologist, then advise me on my other heart related issues........

He also told me that if my heart pumping action is still ok

then they will give me cardiac clearance for the surgery to have

the implants removed, but then I still need lung clearance.......

he said they will not do the heart and breast surgery at the same time because during the heart one, they will be turning off the machine and allowing my heart to fire wrong ( basically go into cardiac arrest ) so they can be sure they have the 3 wire leads in the areas they want them. AT that point my heart will be too weak to do other surgery.

Implant removal is a top priority, but the heart and lungs have to be able to survive it.....no doctor will do surgery on me without cardiac and pulmonary clearance, not even Dr Kolb.

I am in a catch 22 right now....God is carrying me......

I will be ok.....things will happen as they were meant to.

I have strong faith, and great will.

Love

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Hello Sweet Lea ~

I am ok......surviving, dont feel well, but ok.

I am so glad to hear your Va-JJ pain is better/gone.

With clots and things, that must be scarey !

Well, we both have appts tomorrow, we will

have to report back to each other. I wonder how

long it will take them to report to you their findings?

Wonder if you can sweet talk them outta any info.....

What all did your dear friend do with your hair ? ?

How kind of him to keep you in his do's after all

his medical problems I know his stories must be

just incredible. What fun that is for both of you, as

I know you have many awesome stories too.

Love to you and Superman ~

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My Sweet Dede:

We hope that today will be a better day for you. My vaginal pain is gone; however, I feel that it is a warning, that I could have another blood clot. The one good thing is that the hospital is aware that this could happen to me again, they will be ready if this should happen again. I will be sent to my urologist who works out of that hospital. My last pap smear was last year and everything was fine.

Honey, we will all pray that you will get some positive answers soon. As you all know, I am having a mammogram and an ultrasound on my breasts tomorrow. My doctor said that they must be gentle with the mammogram, and I will tell them too. He told us that a mammogram is important in case of a cancerous lump in my right breast.

Stay close to everyone...love you always.......Lea and Superman

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Re: Sweet Dede:

Hello Sweet Lea ~I dont feel so well, today, we are having some weatherchanges, and I am a barometer, along with everythingelse....So, that pain you are having.....what is going on?When was your last pap smear ? I am sorry you arehaving this pain and that it is so scarey....Bless your heart. How are you today ? Love you so much ~ Dede**************Play online games for FREE at Games.com! All of your favorites, no registration required and great graphics – check it out! (http://pr.atwola.com/promoclk/100000075x1211202682x1200689022/aol?redir= http://www.games.com?ncid=emlcntusgame00000001)

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Oh, Sis, it is so wonderful to have you back, because our group really needs to stay together. I miss many of the women who used to post, but we hope that they will return. You too are a ray of Sunshine to all of us.

Stay close...love you.......Lea

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Re: Sweet Dede:> > > > > > Goodmorning Sweet Lea ~ > > > > I feel horrible.......ugh...grr...grr......ugh....> > This is terribly old, and nighttimes are a nightmare> > for me right now. My entire body hurts and burns.> > and I am up peeing every 30 min or so, and I am> > exhausted. My bones hurt too, and my insides> > feel abused. My guts feel like my bones grind on> > them and make them raw. It is really a strange> > feeling. I am nausiated badly. > > I have an appt with my heart doc tomrrow, but had> > to do a transmission of this device over the phone friday,> > because of this weird feeling and jerking my heart has> > been doing, and I found out my entire lower chambers> > are running by the pacemaker, then the pacemaker> > also kicks in when I get bradycardia ( too slow ). I just> > thought the thing paced me when I needed it, only......> > Also, for some reason I am having arrhythema ( a 3rd beat )> > and a pause, often, and they didnt know why, and they told> > me if my heart got in trouble this weekend, that the device> > would shock me.......geezus, that was comforting......actually> > it was, I was glad to know there was enough juice left in it to> > shock me if needed. Anyway the nurse told me she didnt> > know what the doc would want to do with me...> > So, maybe this heart arrhythema is what is making me feel> > so badly, as it is constant....I only get a couple hours a day> > that it is calm....> > So........I will know more tomorrow afternoon....Hopefully> > they will just have to reprogram my heart to take away> > the arrhythema. > > Thank you for asking.....I sure hope you start to feel better.> > Glad to hear you are having your testing on friday for your> > breasts. I wish they wouldnt squish them with the mammo> > machine.......I think that is not a wise idea........> > I wonder if you need an antibiotic to cover you in case> > there are cysts in there that rupture due to the smashing> > of the machine......God will protect you ! ! You are in> > my prayers, Love you ! ! Dede> > > > > > **************> > New MapQuest Local shows what's happening at your destination. > Dining, Movies, Events, News & more. Try it out > (http://local.mapquest.com/?ncid=emlcntnew00000002)> >>

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Dede,

I'm so sad for you that you are going through such trouble with your

heart, and all the other horrible symptoms. You are always such a ray

of sunshine, and I don't know how you stay so cheerful for everyone,

but I admire you for it!

You MUST get those implants out as soon as possible. I don't know why

your doctors can't get on board with this idea....have you asked them

to make removal a top priority for you?

I hope your appointment went well.

Patty

> > Re: Sweet Dede:

> >

> >

> > Goodmorning Sweet Lea ~

> >

> > I feel horrible.......ugh...grr...grr......ugh....

> > This is terribly old, and nighttimes are a nightmare

> > for me right now. My entire body hurts and burns.

> > and I am up peeing every 30 min or so, and I am

> > exhausted. My bones hurt too, and my insides

> > feel abused. My guts feel like my bones grind on

> > them and make them raw. It is really a strange

> > feeling. I am nausiated badly.

> > I have an appt with my heart doc tomrrow, but had

> > to do a transmission of this device over the phone friday,

> > because of this weird feeling and jerking my heart has

> > been doing, and I found out my entire lower chambers

> > are running by the pacemaker, then the pacemaker

> > also kicks in when I get bradycardia ( too slow ). I just

> > thought the thing paced me when I needed it, only......

> > Also, for some reason I am having arrhythema ( a 3rd beat )

> > and a pause, often, and they didnt know why, and they told

> > me if my heart got in trouble this weekend, that the device

> > would shock me.......geezus, that was comforting......actually

> > it was, I was glad to know there was enough juice left in it to

> > shock me if needed. Anyway the nurse told me she didnt

> > know what the doc would want to do with me...

> > So, maybe this heart arrhythema is what is making me feel

> > so badly, as it is constant....I only get a couple hours a day

> > that it is calm....

> > So........I will know more tomorrow afternoon....Hopefully

> > they will just have to reprogram my heart to take away

> > the arrhythema.

> > Thank you for asking.....I sure hope you start to feel better.

> > Glad to hear you are having your testing on friday for your

> > breasts. I wish they wouldnt squish them with the mammo

> > machine.......I think that is not a wise idea........

> > I wonder if you need an antibiotic to cover you in case

> > there are cysts in there that rupture due to the smashing

> > of the machine......God will protect you ! ! You are in

> > my prayers, Love you ! ! Dede

> >

> >

> > **************

> > New MapQuest Local shows what's happening at your destination.

> Dining, Movies, Events, News & more. Try it out

> (http://local.mapquest.com/?ncid=emlcntnew00000002)

> >

>

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Thank you, Lea - this group is always close to my heart, so I really

want to post more regularly than I have been lately.

Sis

> > >

> > > Me again.

> > >

> > > Dede, honey for the first time in my life, I watched a movie

> this

> > morning. It was called Baby Boom with Diane Keaton, it was so

> funny

> > that I laughed, and so did . We only saw the last part,

but

> we

> > will get this movie soon...it looked so good....with a happy

> ending.

> > >

> > > Honey, we all need a happy endings....love you so....Us

> > > ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~``

> > > Re: Sweet Dede:

> > >

> > >

> > > Goodmorning Sweet Lea ~

> > >

> > > I feel horrible.......ugh...grr...grr......ugh....

> > > This is terribly old, and nighttimes are a nightmare

> > > for me right now. My entire body hurts and burns.

> > > and I am up peeing every 30 min or so, and I am

> > > exhausted. My bones hurt too, and my insides

> > > feel abused. My guts feel like my bones grind on

> > > them and make them raw. It is really a strange

> > > feeling. I am nausiated badly.

> > > I have an appt with my heart doc tomrrow, but had

> > > to do a transmission of this device over the phone friday,

> > > because of this weird feeling and jerking my heart has

> > > been doing, and I found out my entire lower chambers

> > > are running by the pacemaker, then the pacemaker

> > > also kicks in when I get bradycardia ( too slow ). I just

> > > thought the thing paced me when I needed it, only......

> > > Also, for some reason I am having arrhythema ( a 3rd beat )

> > > and a pause, often, and they didnt know why, and they told

> > > me if my heart got in trouble this weekend, that the device

> > > would shock me.......geezus, that was

comforting......actually

> > > it was, I was glad to know there was enough juice left in it

to

> > > shock me if needed. Anyway the nurse told me she didnt

> > > know what the doc would want to do with me...

> > > So, maybe this heart arrhythema is what is making me feel

> > > so badly, as it is constant....I only get a couple hours a

day

> > > that it is calm....

> > > So........I will know more tomorrow afternoon....Hopefully

> > > they will just have to reprogram my heart to take away

> > > the arrhythema.

> > > Thank you for asking.....I sure hope you start to feel

better.

> > > Glad to hear you are having your testing on friday for your

> > > breasts. I wish they wouldnt squish them with the mammo

> > > machine.......I think that is not a wise idea........

> > > I wonder if you need an antibiotic to cover you in case

> > > there are cysts in there that rupture due to the smashing

> > > of the machine......God will protect you ! ! You are in

> > > my prayers, Love you ! ! Dede

> > >

> > >

> > > **************

> > > New MapQuest Local shows what's happening at your

destination.

> > Dining, Movies, Events, News & more. Try it out

> > (http://local.mapquest.com/?ncid=emlcntnew00000002)

> > >

> >

>

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Hello Sweet Lea ~

I am glad that you are enjoying your new hair do, and

that likes it too. I know it is always refreshing

to get renewed !

I will let ya know what doc says today. I am not sure that

the cardiomyopathy with this heart will get better. It is

my goal, but it has advanced per my EP cardio that I saw

on tuesday. My heart is very scarred.

I bet that Jag was definately tempting ! ! what a fun ride !

I pray you get your answers too today. Then we both can

celebrate, and know that one day soon we can get into some

trouble.....playing and living for a change.......

Sending you lots of love and healing ~

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My Sweet Dede:

Today is the day that we both have medical exams, and I will try to report in later. We all pray that you will get the doctors to move quickly. Many women do get well after explant, even though they have had severe heart problems. I am one of them, because my heart was so enlarged a few years ago. We are happy that it is better, but I still have stiffening of the left ventricle.

Honey, the cardiomyopathy will get better. It seems to be common among many of us. I remember doing research on this and it frightened me; however, with women who have had breast implants, it seems to get better after explant.

My hair is shoulder length, and permed, and now I look like I have put my finger in a light socket. It did give me a lift, because I have not had my hair done in over a year. likes it, and he tells the kitties not to laugh at their Mom. Today was the first time that I have washed it because my hairdresser told me to wait. He called me yesterday to see how I was doing, and he is such a special man. He wanted to take me to lunch, but I refused because was on his way to pick me up...a new Jag was tempting though.

We pray that you get the answers that you need today, and we will be thinking of you.

Sending love always...Lea and

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Re: Sweet Dede:

Hello Sweet Lea ~ I am ok......surviving, dont feel well, but ok.I am so glad to hear your Va-JJ pain is better/gone.With clots and things, that must be scarey ! Well, we both have appts tomorrow, we will have to report back to each other. I wonder howlong it will take them to report to you their findings?Wonder if you can sweet talk them outta any info.....What all did your dear friend do with your hair ? ? How kind of him to keep you in his do's after allhis medical problems I know his stories must bejust incredible. What fun that is for both of you, asI know you have many awesome stories too.Love to you and Superman ~ Dede**************Play online games for FREE at Games.com! All of your favorites, no registration required and great graphics – check it out! (http://pr.atwola.com/promoclk/100000075x1211202682x1200689022/aol?redir= http://www.games.com?ncid=emlcntusgame00000001)