Guest guest Posted May 9, 2007 Report Share Posted May 9, 2007 Oh, God, Lori, I know what you are going through. It's so awful and scary and lonely. It is a part of Fibro, a horrible part of Fibro. We shouldn't have to always be explaining ourselves and telling doctors how we need more meds. They are supposed to be on our side. I've been having a really bad day too. It has more to do with the fear that my heart is going bad but I'm in fear and very recently was where you are right now. I'll pray for you. Fibro isn't fair and it takes your life away. I want me back so bad! I loved to walk and have fun and anymore I have to pretend I'm enjoying myself when I go out when, really, I'm either hurting or exhausted. God Bless you, Big, warm hugs, Jane ********************************************************* Hi, Guys I am going throught a very bad time right now. No one has died and no one has hurt my feelings in any way. I am really very depressed right now. You guys are talking to dead people and now I have started. That is no way to hurt anyones feelings. I am writing a letter to God right now. Asking him why I have this disease and why no one understands it. I am writing to my grandparents, I had a grandfather who passed when I was very young. I barely remember him but I can still feel the love he gave me. I remember playing under his hospital bed and then all of the sudden he never came home again. I feel his love to this day. I do not know what is wrong withme other wise . I am tired of fighting Drs. trying to tell them that what they are giving me for pain is not enough. God forbid you would need it a few days early. Stuck up B______ds. Right now I just feel lost totally lost. This must be another phase of the fibro. I have had my down days but this one scares me. It is like a voice inside my head telling me that Lori is gone she is not here. Like someone else has taken my place that is a stronger personality than Lori. Does this sound odd. I wish I had my Gramps here to guide me. I know his love was never based on anything but me. I was his first granddaughter. I wqant to know him more. I am crying while I am typing this ccause I miss him so badly it hurts. Enough for now just pray for me. That is about all we can do for each other. You guys are my family, I read your posts and get to know you better than my own family. They just keep living their lives and I sit in the background wishing I could keep up and live again. Thanks for listening, Lori Hammer Father, I know that You are watching over me. I trust my life to You. Thank You that You are faithful and that You will act at just the right time for me. I praise You. In Jesus' name. Amen. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 10, 2007 Report Share Posted May 10, 2007 Lori, if I were there right now, I would hold you and tell you that it is only in the darkness that we search and find light. It always coms. Joan prayers and support Hi, Guys I am going throught a very bad time right now. No one has died and no one has hurt my feelings in any way. I am really very depressed right now. You guys are talking to dead people and now I have started. That is no way to hurt anyones feelings. I am writing a letter to God right now. Asking him why I have this disease and why no one understands it. I am writing to my grandparents, I had a grandfather who passed when I was very young. I barely remember him but I can still feel the love he gave me. I remember playing under his hospital bed and then all of the sudden he never came home again. I feel his love to this day. I do not know what is wrong withme other wise . I am tired of fighting Drs. trying to tell them that what they are giving me for pain is not enough. God forbid you would need it a few days early. Stuck up B______ds. Right now I just feel lost totally lost. This must be another phase of the fibro. I have had my down days but this one scares me. It is like a voice inside my head telling me that Lori is gone she is not here. Like someone else has taken my place that is a stronger personality than Lori. Does this sound odd. I wish I had my Gramps here to guide me. I know his love was never based on anything but me. I was his first granddaughter. I wqant to know him more. I am crying while I am typing this ccause I miss him so badly it hurts. Enough for now just pray for me. That is about all we can do for each other. You guys are my family, I read your posts and get to know you better than my own family. They just keep living their lives and I sit in the background wishing I could keep up and live again. Thanks for listening, Lori Hammer Father, I know that You are watching over me. I trust my life to You. Thank You that You are faithful and that You will act at just the right time for me. I praise You. In Jesus' name. Amen. --------------------------------- Ahhh...imagining that irresistible " new car " smell? Check outnew cars at Yahoo! Autos. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 10, 2007 Report Share Posted May 10, 2007 I think I can speak for everyone when I wish you gentle hugs. I hope you start felling better real soon. We are all here for you. Doreen prayers and support Hi, Guys I am going throught a very bad time right now. No one has died and no one has hurt my feelings in any way. I am really very depressed right now. You guys are talking to dead people and now I have started. That is no way to hurt anyones feelings. I am writing a letter to God right now. Asking him why I have this disease and why no one understands it. I am writing to my grandparents, I had a grandfather who passed when I was very young. I barely remember him but I can still feel the love he gave me. I remember playing under his hospital bed and then all of the sudden he never came home again. I feel his love to this day. I do not know what is wrong withme other wise . I am tired of fighting Drs. trying to tell them that what they are giving me for pain is not enough. God forbid you would need it a few days early. Stuck up B______ds. Right now I just feel lost totally lost. This must be another phase of the fibro. I have had my down days but this one scares me. It is like a voice inside my head telling me that Lori is gone she is not here. Like someone else has taken my place that is a stronger personality than Lori. Does this sound odd. I wish I had my Gramps here to guide me. I know his love was never based on anything but me. I was his first granddaughter. I wqant to know him more. I am crying while I am typing this ccause I miss him so badly it hurts. Enough for now just pray for me. That is about all we can do for each other. You guys are my family, I read your posts and get to know you better than my own family. They just keep living their lives and I sit in the background wishing I could keep up and live again. Thanks for listening, Lori Hammer Father, I know that You are watching over me. I trust my life to You. Thank You that You are faithful and that You will act at just the right time for me. I praise You. In Jesus¢ name. Amen. ------------ --------- --------- --- Ahhh...imagining that irresistible " new car " smell? Check outnew cars at Yahoo! Autos. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 10, 2007 Report Share Posted May 10, 2007 Thank you Joan from the bottom of my heart. Hugs, Lori Hammer Joan E wrote: Lori, if I were there right now, I would hold you and tell you that it is only in the darkness that we search and find light. It always coms. Joan prayers and support Hi, Guys I am going throught a very bad time right now. No one has died and no one has hurt my feelings in any way. I am really very depressed right now. You guys are talking to dead people and now I have started. That is no way to hurt anyones feelings. I am writing a letter to God right now. Asking him why I have this disease and why no one understands it. I am writing to my grandparents, I had a grandfather who passed when I was very young. I barely remember him but I can still feel the love he gave me. I remember playing under his hospital bed and then all of the sudden he never came home again. I feel his love to this day. I do not know what is wrong withme other wise . I am tired of fighting Drs. trying to tell them that what they are giving me for pain is not enough. God forbid you would need it a few days early. Stuck up B______ds. Right now I just feel lost totally lost. This must be another phase of the fibro. I have had my down days but this one scares me. It is like a voice inside my head telling me that Lori is gone she is not here. Like someone else has taken my place that is a stronger personality than Lori. Does this sound odd. I wish I had my Gramps here to guide me. I know his love was never based on anything but me. I was his first granddaughter. I wqant to know him more. I am crying while I am typing this ccause I miss him so badly it hurts. Enough for now just pray for me. That is about all we can do for each other. You guys are my family, I read your posts and get to know you better than my own family. They just keep living their lives and I sit in the background wishing I could keep up and live again. Thanks for listening, Lori Hammer Father, I know that You are watching over me. I trust my life to You. Thank You that You are faithful and that You will act at just the right time for me. I praise You. In Jesus' name. Amen. --------------------------------- Ahhh...imagining that irresistible " new car " smell? Check outnew cars at Yahoo! Autos. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 10, 2007 Report Share Posted May 10, 2007 You are quite welcome. Feeling any better toay? prayers and support Hi, Guys I am going throught a very bad time right now. No one has died and no one has hurt my feelings in any way. I am really very depressed right now. You guys are talking to dead people and now I have started. That is no way to hurt anyones feelings. I am writing a letter to God right now. Asking him why I have this disease and why no one understands it. I am writing to my grandparents, I had a grandfather who passed when I was very young. I barely remember him but I can still feel the love he gave me. I remember playing under his hospital bed and then all of the sudden he never came home again. I feel his love to this day. I do not know what is wrong withme other wise . I am tired of fighting Drs. trying to tell them that what they are giving me for pain is not enough. God forbid you would need it a few days early. Stuck up B______ds. Right now I just feel lost totally lost. This must be another phase of the fibro. I have had my down days but this one scares me. It is like a voice inside my head telling me that Lori is gone she is not here. Like someone else has taken my place that is a stronger personality than Lori. Does this sound odd. I wish I had my Gramps here to guide me. I know his love was never based on anything but me. I was his first granddaughter. I wqant to know him more. I am crying while I am typing this ccause I miss him so badly it hurts. Enough for now just pray for me. That is about all we can do for each other. You guys are my family, I read your posts and get to know you better than my own family. They just keep living their lives and I sit in the background wishing I could keep up and live again. Thanks for listening, Lori Hammer Father, I know that You are watching over me. I trust my life to You. Thank You that You are faithful and that You will act at just the right time for me. I praise You. In Jesus' name. Amen. --------------------------------- Ahhh...imagining that irresistible " new car " smell? Check outnew cars at Yahoo! Autos. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 10, 2007 Report Share Posted May 10, 2007 a little. working on it thanks. do not be afraid to email me off line ifyou want Joan E wrote: You are quite welcome. Feeling any better toay? prayers and support Hi, Guys I am going throught a very bad time right now. No one has died and no one has hurt my feelings in any way. I am really very depressed right now. You guys are talking to dead people and now I have started. That is no way to hurt anyones feelings. I am writing a letter to God right now. Asking him why I have this disease and why no one understands it. I am writing to my grandparents, I had a grandfather who passed when I was very young. I barely remember him but I can still feel the love he gave me. I remember playing under his hospital bed and then all of the sudden he never came home again. I feel his love to this day. I do not know what is wrong withme other wise . I am tired of fighting Drs. trying to tell them that what they are giving me for pain is not enough. God forbid you would need it a few days early. Stuck up B______ds. Right now I just feel lost totally lost. This must be another phase of the fibro. I have had my down days but this one scares me. It is like a voice inside my head telling me that Lori is gone she is not here. Like someone else has taken my place that is a stronger personality than Lori. Does this sound odd. I wish I had my Gramps here to guide me. I know his love was never based on anything but me. I was his first granddaughter. I wqant to know him more. I am crying while I am typing this ccause I miss him so badly it hurts. Enough for now just pray for me. That is about all we can do for each other. You guys are my family, I read your posts and get to know you better than my own family. They just keep living their lives and I sit in the background wishing I could keep up and live again. Thanks for listening, Lori Hammer Father, I know that You are watching over me. I trust my life to You. Thank You that You are faithful and that You will act at just the right time for me. I praise You. In Jesus' name. Amen. --------------------------------- Ahhh...imagining that irresistible " new car " smell? Check outnew cars at Yahoo! Autos. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 10, 2007 Report Share Posted May 10, 2007 Thnks Doreen, I wa feeling better till my mother called and told me a favorite aunt of mine has 2 dys to live! I am very sad if not sadder than I was yesterdy. My daughter and i went to see her. it is such a painful hurt and you cannot dsoaything about it. that is where the paincomes in I think. But thanks for your email it really helps. and is greatly appredciated. Pleade do not be afraid to email me privately if you need me . that is what I wam here for Thanks and hugs , Lori Hammer " boomummy@... mollycheck " wrote: I think I can speak for everyone when I wish you gentle hugs. I hope you start felling better real soon. We are all here for you. Doreen prayers and support Hi, Guys I am going throught a very bad time right now. No one has died and no one has hurt my feelings in any way. I am really very depressed right now. You guys are talking to dead people and now I have started. That is no way to hurt anyones feelings. I am writing a letter to God right now. Asking him why I have this disease and why no one understands it. I am writing to my grandparents, I had a grandfather who passed when I was very young. I barely remember him but I can still feel the love he gave me. I remember playing under his hospital bed and then all of the sudden he never came home again. I feel his love to this day. I do not know what is wrong withme other wise . I am tired of fighting Drs. trying to tell them that what they are giving me for pain is not enough. God forbid you would need it a few days early. Stuck up B______ds. Right now I just feel lost totally lost. This must be another phase of the fibro. I have had my down days but this one scares me. It is like a voice inside my head telling me that Lori is gone she is not here. Like someone else has taken my place that is a stronger personality than Lori. Does this sound odd. I wish I had my Gramps here to guide me. I know his love was never based on anything but me. I was his first granddaughter. I wqant to know him more. I am crying while I am typing this ccause I miss him so badly it hurts. Enough for now just pray for me. That is about all we can do for each other. You guys are my family, I read your posts and get to know you better than my own family. They just keep living their lives and I sit in the background wishing I could keep up and live again. Thanks for listening, Lori Hammer Father, I know that You are watching over me. I trust my life to You. Thank You that You are faithful and that You will act at just the right time for me. I praise You. In Jesus¢ name. Amen. ------------ --------- --------- --- Ahhh...imagining that irresistible " new car " smell? Check outnew cars at Yahoo! Autos. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 13, 2007 Report Share Posted May 13, 2007 Thank you Claudette that means alot to me. Lori H claudette hudson wrote: Dear Lori, I feel bad because you feel bad, I wish there was something I could say or do that would make it all go away, but I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers that you start to feel better soon. We are all here for you and for each other. I am glad to have found this group, you've all helped me so much, I guess we are all bonded through this illness. Anyway, please feel better soon. Hugs and prayers. Claudette Lori Hammer wrote: Thank you Joan from the bottom of my heart. Hugs, Lori Hammer Joan E wrote: Lori, if I were there right now, I would hold you and tell you that it is only in the darkness that we search and find light. It always coms. Joan prayers and support Hi, Guys I am going throught a very bad time right now. No one has died and no one has hurt my feelings in any way. I am really very depressed right now. You guys are talking to dead people and now I have started. That is no way to hurt anyones feelings. I am writing a letter to God right now. Asking him why I have this disease and why no one understands it. I am writing to my grandparents, I had a grandfather who passed when I was very young. I barely remember him but I can still feel the love he gave me. I remember playing under his hospital bed and then all of the sudden he never came home again. I feel his love to this day. I do not know what is wrong withme other wise . I am tired of fighting Drs. trying to tell them that what they are giving me for pain is not enough. God forbid you would need it a few days early. Stuck up B______ds. Right now I just feel lost totally lost. This must be another phase of the fibro. I have had my down days but this one scares me. It is like a voice inside my head telling me that Lori is gone she is not here. Like someone else has taken my place that is a stronger personality than Lori. Does this sound odd. I wish I had my Gramps here to guide me. I know his love was never based on anything but me. I was his first granddaughter. I wqant to know him more. I am crying while I am typing this ccause I miss him so badly it hurts. Enough for now just pray for me. That is about all we can do for each other. You guys are my family, I read your posts and get to know you better than my own family. They just keep living their lives and I sit in the background wishing I could keep up and live again. Thanks for listening, Lori Hammer Father, I know that You are watching over me. I trust my life to You. Thank You that You are faithful and that You will act at just the right time for me. I praise You. In Jesus' name. Amen. --------------------------------- Ahhh...imagining that irresistible " new car " smell? Check outnew cars at Yahoo! Autos. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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