Guest guest Posted October 18, 2001 Report Share Posted October 18, 2001 Well, I was doing okay until I opened the fortune in my fortune cookie. Shed a few tears when I read " When one door closes, another will open. " How odd is that that I would receive this fortune today of all days when it seems clear that I will not be carrying this embryo much longer? Some force somewhere sending me some hope I guess which is nice. Took another home test just to torture myself and the line has now disappeared entirely. So I am quite sure that my beta tomorrow will show a number even lower than the measly 11.8 I had from yesterday's test. So now I'm wondering, how long it will take me to miscarry? How long should I wait before I ask for Methroxidate? Anyone have any ideas as to what I should expect? I am so early that it should be just like a heavy period right? It's not like I'm going to need a D & C or anything this early correct? To add insult to this injury, this weekend is our 6th wedding anniversary and we had planned on going away for an overnight, just the two of us, should I still plan on doing so? Will I miscarry this weekend? Will I be in any shape for a romantic overnight with my hubby or will I be cramping and bleeding? Anyone with any thoughts on this? Thanks to all of you for your insight, feedback and messages of support. I do realize that I am much closer to our goal of a second child now than we ever have been, and that we are, overall, very lucky in that we have no other fertility issues and now have a clear uterus to work with. I know all of that intellectually. Emotionally, however, I am still struggling with the " unfairness " of it...but who ever said life was supposed to be fair huh? I'll let you know my results from tomorrow. Gwen Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 18, 2001 Report Share Posted October 18, 2001 I am sorry Gwen, Well I am less optimistic now that your test showed nothing. Two bad tests in a row is nothing you can ignore. If it were one test I would say that your urine was dilute or something. But now 2 tests it's more difficult. I don't think that you are far enough along to have anything worse then a heavy period. Do NOT take the methroxidate unless you absolutely have to. That stuff is nasty. Make sure your betas are really no good before you take any medicines to stop the pregnancy. And you may need a couple more betas to confirm this. Another thought...what about RU 486? It stops progesterone production and allows a medical termination of pregnancy. It may be easier to take this medicine then the methroxidate. Anyway, these are just thoughts. Well gwen I am truly sorry. You are right that it hurts no matter what even though there are many positives to look at too. Time will mend and you will start looking forward to the next time. And...and this helped me...it's better that it happened now then later. I always told myself that I would rather have a pregnancy turn bad at 8 weeks then at 20 weeks. It made me feel better in a small way. You shouldn't have to have a D & c this early. Once your body realizes that your progesterone has dropped, it should shed the lining. Anyway, stay strong. The "door" the fortune may have been referring to is the door closing on Ashermans and the new door is simply ttc and your next pregnancy. The glass is half full not half empty my dear, you are still way better off then a few months ago. Keep that in your rationale mind even though your heart hurts right now. Take care, and big hugs coming at you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 19, 2001 Report Share Posted October 19, 2001 Oh Gwen, I just read your email and am truly sorry about what I read. I was away all day today and I will be away tomorrow too so will be eager to come home and read your news. I really don't know what to tell you about going away for your anniversary, but do whatever your heart tells you too. Another reminder of how life is not fair. I will be thinking of you tonight and will say a prayer that you still are pregnant. Love Poly Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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