Re: Venting my spleen

[Guest guest]

I am really really trying not to mess up. I have spoken to the nurse

that works with the doctor covering for my doctor before he is back to work and

I have spoken to a pharmacist about how to do the medicines. I keep checking it

is not doubting either of these professionals. It is me just making sure I do

not mess up.

I have already been on Celexia and I went off of it to be on the Savella. I took

over a week to get off of that drug. I was told taking Celexia a day after the

last Xanax was fine and that is what

I did. I did messages to the group and online research to make sure I was doing

the right thing given the hand I am given at this time.

I see my counselor today and I am afraid I could not see my own

doctor sooner than the 31st because he went on vacation with his family. I

refuse to go back to my pain doctor without talking to my own doctor who has to

be the one to deal with the depression because the other doctor won't. I simply

have no other recourse right now but to do it the way I am. I have a counselor I

see today and she does not subscribe medicine. I did not ask for more Xanax I

can't till Monday unless I go to a clinic associated with my doctor's office.

I go to my parents when I physically feel I can push myself to survive a car

ride in the passenger seat just to make sure I am not

alone and I have cried in my Mom cat's fur. I stave off pleas to hurry back to

work in the family business because I know where I am at emotionally and

physically. I know my Mom is overwhelmed and I know my brother and his wife want

more of my parents right now because they just had a baby. My brother told me

last night I need to find away to get back to work and I know I really know but

I have to do self care and I may not be perfect at it but I have to do what I

have to do..

Christy