NA craps on all good pre-NA memories

[Guest guest]

My consellor gave me a great exercise that is really

helping. I imagine a time when I felt good.(radical).

Well, doing this I realized that NA crapped on all

my good memories pre-NA and even the ones IN NA.

For example-

" I had this boyfriend he was kind of a jerk but we

had a lot of great times together " .

NA says- " Impossible. If it was an unhealthy

relationship then it was ALL Crap, and you must throw

the entire thing othe garbage heap and never say

anything good about it ever again. In fact, to do so

would be life-threatening denial. "

So just like that, 2 years of my life which were

60% great are erased. Gone. Scrapped.

And so on. For all thirty- two of my years. All of

them unhealthy, all of them diseased, all of them

totally crap and wasted.

And you wonder why I friggin feel depressed now, for

frigs sakes! Aaargh!

Those friggin b-stards.

Well, I have reclaimed 4 nice memories from my life

so far. It's amazing how much better I feel already.

There are many more to reclaim.

I think it is very important to remember that life

is not black and white like NA makes it out to be.

Sure, for a while you may need to remind yourself of

bad times drinking. But now I think it is a grave

mistake to throw it ALL out. (All the GOOD memories).I

mean, that's your LIFE! At least you were friggin

ALIVE then and living and not just psychoanalyzing

yourself into a suicidal depression because you have

no life, for frig's sakes!

If something has to be perfectly " healthy " before

it can count as positive life experience, it is very

likely you never will have any EVER, and you can sit

on your death bed at 80 (if you don't kill yourself

sooner!) and say " My whole entire life was unhealthy

and diseased and therefore wasted and worth nothing. I

am a big ZERO. " The f-in a-holes. I am so friggin mad.

What a crock of shit. No wonder I've been so friggin'

depressed, for frigs sakes!Aaargh!!!!

Kim

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