- Emotional Scars or Merit Badges?

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You asked " ...except emotional, how do you get rid of those? " A very

good question! I don't know....I guess I don't really feel the need

to get rid of mine....instead, I have turned them into " badges of

honor " .

I was actually thinking about this just this morning before reading

your post. I am a big believer that there are no true accidents and

that almost everything that happens, even " bad " things and tragedy

ultimately serves some kind of " higher purpose " some larger

plan...some greater good of some kind, even if we can't see it now.

The repurcussions of even our tiniest act have such a " ripple " effect

on the world as a whole that we may never know how much we have

changed the universe as a whole by what we do. So, I truly believe

that in some way, my going through Asherman's has a larger purpose.

That I have learned something important about myself, about my

spouse, my family. About my love for children, my relationship with

my own mother and my daughter through this whole thing. Without going

through Asherman's, I never would have learned to " listen " to my

inner voice more often nor learned NOT to listen to and trust

whatever a person with an " MD " after their name says to me. And most

importantly, I never would have met all of you!! Through all of you I

have learned that the world really is a smaller place than I thought,

that women around the world, regardless of heritage, language or life

experience share a common soul, a certain generosity of spirit and

willingness to nuture and help that I never truly appreciated before.

What an awesome force we are for change!

So, in an odd way, having Asherman's has been a blessing....has

taught me a lot I might not have learned otherwise, has enriched my

life and brought my priorities into focus in a way that I didn't

expect. So, I guess I don't think of the " scars " that Asherman's has

left on my life and soul as scars...I think of them as merit badges,

just like those I earned as a girl scout for learning something

new!

There is a saying from my " Zen-A-Day " calendar that I am particularly

fond of.... " You are what you think about all day. " I really believe

this to be true as well. So, if you think of them as scars, then they

will be just that. But if you think of the residual effects of

Asherman's as badges of honor...then that's just what they'll be as

well!!

Sorry to ramble on there...once again, got off on a tangent!

Certainly hope you can figure out what is going on with your cycle

soon. Maybe another PG test is warranted, they do give false

positives sometimes, especially if you tested early. Hang in there...

Gwen