An answer for apple an have you read...

[Guest guest]

In answer to you question ("how long have I been sober and how did I

ever find the group...?"): I quit drinking Three weeks ago. I woke up

one morning after a bender and said, 'I ain't doing this to myself

anymore'. I made an appointment w/ my MD that day and requested Anabuse

for those moments- and that's what they were, really- that I wanted to

get slammed in the evenings...I had reached the point where I was

totally FED UP and liked me to much to continue. It was not a huge

revelation; there are those moments of opportunity that come around

regularily for all of us when all we have to do is Carp Deim but choose

to let them float by ("there will be another"). So I grabbed and

refused to let go...

Keep in mind I have drank for the past Decade like many others: XXX

Cuervo and beers every night, and tried every treatment modality short

of Electro Shock or Lobotomy to quit: Five inpatients stays inc. THE

MEADOWS (a waste of my own $25,000), half an out patient program,

Psssycho therapy, promises, AA,AA,AA,AA,AA,AA, but none made the nut.

It took my fineally "being tired of being tired", becomming honest-

that's what it takes, really- digging digging my feet in and comming up

with my teeth bared and ready for a fight. Forget 'surrender'. I'm done

w/drinking. Now, I have to mourn the years of pain. Oh, well; that's my

legacy. DEAL WITH IT. (Was this to much of an answer to your

question...?) In truth, everything that I did, successfully or no, got

me here. All our pasts' lead us to this present.Blahblahblahblah.

How I found LifeRing: I went down to Barne's and Nobel, looking for

some "self help" books on sobriety (non Twelve step). The SOS manual

leaped into my paws. I read it in one evevning, checked out the

Unplugged site, went to a meeting Forty miles from where I live and

that was that...

It seem easy to quit once you have quit; "how did it ever take so

long????". But in truth, it is a quirky journey to that moment. The

trick, I think, is not finding the "Brass Ring" but GRABBING IT as it

rolls by. Hell, what did I have to lose...? Ruining my life?

Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.....

Something tells me that this was a long- winded answer ("CHRIST. ALL I

ASKED WAS HOW LONG WAS HE SOBER!!!") Thanx for letting me share. ...

Has anyone read, :"Life in a bottle: my story as an alcoholic"? I'm

heading down to B&N to hunt for it. Great way to spend a rainy

Washinghton day...Later

[Guest guest]

The antabuse sounds drastic. But I'm sure you can do it! I hope things

work out for you . Hang in there.

Apple

"james russell" wrote: original article:

In answer to you question ("how long have I been sober and how did I

ever find the group...?"): I quit drinking Three weeks ago. I woke up

one morning after a bender and said, 'I ain't doing this to myself

anymore'. I made an appointment w/ my MD that day and requested Anabuse

for those moments- and that's what they were, really- that I wanted to

get slammed in the evenings...I had reached the point where I was

totally FED UP and liked me to much to continue. It was not a huge

revelation; there are those moments of opportunity that come around

regularily for all of us when all we have to do is Carp Deim but choose

to let them float by ("there will be another"). So I grabbed and

refused to let go...

Keep in mind I have drank for the past Decade like many others: XXX

Cuervo and beers every night, and tried every treatment modality short

of Electro Shock or Lobotomy to quit: Five inpatients stays inc. THE

MEADOWS (a waste of my own $25,000), half an out patient program,

Psssycho therapy, promises, AA,AA,AA,AA,AA,AA, but none made the nut.

It took my fineally "being tired of being tired", becomming honest-

that's what it takes, really- digging digging my feet in and comming up

with my teeth bared and ready for a fight. Forget 'surrender'. I'm done

w/drinking. Now, I have to mourn the years of pain. Oh, well; that's my

legacy. DEAL WITH IT. (Was this to much of an answer to your

question...?) In truth, everything that I did, successfully or no, got

me here. All our pasts' lead us to this present.Blahblahblahblah.

How I found LifeRing: I went down to Barne's and Nobel, looking for

some "self help" books on sobriety (non Twelve step). The SOS manual

leaped into my paws. I read it in one evevning, checked out the

Unplugged site, went to a meeting Forty miles from where I live and

that was that...

It seem easy to quit once you have quit; "how did it ever take so

long????". But in truth, it is a quirky journey to that moment. The

trick, I think, is not finding the "Brass Ring" but GRABBING IT as it

rolls by. Hell, what did I have to lose...? Ruining my life?

Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.....

Something tells me that this was a long- winded answer ("CHRIST. ALL I

ASKED WAS HOW LONG WAS HE SOBER!!!") Thanx for letting me share. ...

Has anyone read, :"Life in a bottle: my story as an alcoholic"? I'm

heading down to B&N; to hunt for it. Great way to spend a rainy

Washinghton day...Later