Uncomfortable with physical contact as a child

May 12, 2009

Okay, first all, I am going to start a blog. Otherwise, I'm going to keep

hijacking this forum. I feel like I have SO much to say and so much to

relate to and I can't get it all out without driving you all bananas if I do,

lol.

Anyway, I was wondering if any of you who had a BPD that showed you no

physical affection, felt uncomfortable with affection?

I was in high school when I realized something was wrong. When someone (a

friend or other relative) hugged me, I didn't know what to do! I seriously

would just stand there with my arms by my side and would no hug back. I

didn't know how and it made me sooooooo uncomfortable.

Once my best friend was upset over a boyfriend in 11th grade. She was

crying and latched onto me, crying on my shoulder. I pushed her away! I did not

know how to react at all. I had never had someone I could do that with and

certainly no one had ever done it to me!

I'm 39 now. I am so the opposite of it. I am very huggy/touchy now. I hug

my children all the time. I tell them I love then 1000393939 times a day. I

want them to know and I don't want them to feel like I did.

I talked about this in therapy yesterday. About how uncomfortable it made

me and unless it's my husband or kids, it still makes me a wee bit nervous.

My therapist hugs me and I just want to crawl under a rock, lol.

Do any of you have this happen?

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