Guest guest Posted April 24, 2005 Report Share Posted April 24, 2005 Levona ~~ I can identify with your loss. AND it truly is a loss ~~ almost like that of a human child or grandchild (of course, it's not the same). AND I know not everyone can understand this !! I never had children either, but have had dogs most of my life. At the present time I have 6 !!!! All in the house !!!! They are our babies !!! We do have a grandchild and a 'like' grandchild, my youngest brother's 3 yr old darling daughter. BUT I can feel your loss too. You know in your heart little Blackie is in a far better place ---not suffering, but it still hurts. Have you ever heard of the Rainbow Bridge ?? It's a poem about losing your pets -- and you find them waiting for you across the Rainbow Bridge. I hope you get a well-deserved sleep tonight --- please know I will pray for you to cope with your loss !!!! Hugs from a retired teacher (I know you are a teacher) in SE Texas, Randie going haywire I feel like I'm going haywire right now. I know I'll be alright but I just need to "talk" a little right now before I go to bed. It has been a really hard week for me but I think most of you guys will understand. I have read several of your emails and you feel the same as I do. If your not one of those just delete this and chalk it up to a crazy person. lol Everytime I think that I'm going to quit crying then I start all over again. Last Sunday one of my "grandbabies" was injured some how. Let me explain, I have no children nor do I really want any. I teach school and have my Mom at home with me that is all the children I really need. But I'm one of those people that REALLY love their pets. They are my children. Five years ago we adopted Fred and Wilma (Doxies) and about a year later Wilma had puppies. We sold the 2 male puppies to really good homes (as a matter of a fact one lives with a really good friend) but the 2 precious females we just had to keep. Blackie and Sable. Blackie was the first born "grandchild" I was there when Wilma went into labor and produced the puppy. I was so afraid she wouldn't know what to do but she took care of everything right away and soon I was holding the little black and silver dapple baby in the palm of my hand. She was so precious. Blackie was the only pup she had naturally, the rest she had to have a c-section. Well Blackie was the baby that got hurt last weekend. The vet had told us that she would not walk again that she had ruptured a disc and if it continue she would probably not live past 2 or 3 days..He did seem to think that she probably would make it. All week I have agonized over what we should do. By Thursday she was getting stronger and finally beginning to eat good and she even looked better. I finally felt like we had some hope. We had contacted a couple in Houston who makes dog wheel chairs and she was telling me all the things I needed to know for the long haul. Well Friday night Blackie took a turn for the worse and she died at about 6:15 tonight. It hurts so much that I feel like I'm going crazy. Donna came over and helped us take care of her and bury her this evening. Now I'm sitting here alone. I am relieved because she is no longer suffering but sad because her life seemed so short. I'm sorry for rambling on and on. I'm going to try to go to bed soon and cuddle with the rest of my babies and try not to think about anything else for a while. Thanks for letting me tell my story I just needed to get it out of my system. Levona , Co-Leader TOPS #Tx 1454, Pleasantonclick here to email me EMAIL SUPPORT TEXAS-STYLE!!THE CRAZIEST BUNCH OF "LOSERS" ON THE 'NET'!!Visit us on the web: http://www.texastops.org Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 24, 2005 Report Share Posted April 24, 2005 I'm sorry Levona! I completely understand what you are talking about. I am very attached to my babies(2 Westie pups) and I would feel the same way about them if something happened to them. So you go ahead and let us know how you are feeling, you always have an ear or shoulder if you need it. Jeannene going haywire I feel like I'm going haywire right now. I know I'll be alright but I just need to "talk" a little right now before I go to bed. It has been a really hard week for me but I think most of you guys will understand. I have read several of your emails and you feel the same as I do. If your not one of those just delete this and chalk it up to a crazy person. lol Everytime I think that I'm going to quit crying then I start all over again. Last Sunday one of my "grandbabies" was injured some how. Let me explain, I have no children nor do I really want any. I teach school and have my Mom at home with me that is all the children I really need. But I'm one of those people that REALLY love their pets. They are my children. Five years ago we adopted Fred and Wilma (Doxies) and about a year later Wilma had puppies. We sold the 2 male puppies to really good homes (as a matter of a fact one lives with a really good friend) but the 2 precious females we just had to keep. Blackie and Sable. Blackie was the first born "grandchild" I was there when Wilma went into labor and produced the puppy. I was so afraid she wouldn't know what to do but she took care of everything right away and soon I was holding the little black and silver dapple baby in the palm of my hand. She was so precious. Blackie was the only pup she had naturally, the rest she had to have a c-section. Well Blackie was the baby that got hurt last weekend. The vet had told us that she would not walk again that she had ruptured a disc and if it continue she would probably not live past 2 or 3 days..He did seem to think that she probably would make it. All week I have agonized over what we should do. By Thursday she was getting stronger and finally beginning to eat good and she even looked better. I finally felt like we had some hope. We had contacted a couple in Houston who makes dog wheel chairs and she was telling me all the things I needed to know for the long haul. Well Friday night Blackie took a turn for the worse and she died at about 6:15 tonight. It hurts so much that I feel like I'm going crazy. Donna came over and helped us take care of her and bury her this evening. Now I'm sitting here alone. I am relieved because she is no longer suffering but sad because her life seemed so short. I'm sorry for rambling on and on. I'm going to try to go to bed soon and cuddle with the rest of my babies and try not to think about anything else for a while. Thanks for letting me tell my story I just needed to get it out of my system. Levona , Co-Leader TOPS #Tx 1454, Pleasantonclick here to email me EMAIL SUPPORT TEXAS-STYLE!!THE CRAZIEST BUNCH OF "LOSERS" ON THE 'NET'!!Visit us on the web: http://www.texastops.org Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 24, 2005 Report Share Posted April 24, 2005 Thank you for your thoughts Randie, I went to bed and gathered all my babies around me. Fred is beginning to look around for his baby. He was so good when she got hurt. He stayed beside her and licked on her and hugged her and just all around took care of her as best he could. Now he just looks confused. Sable stayed curled up in my arms all night, it was comforting to her and me. I haven't heard of the Rainbow bridge. I'll have to find a copy of it so I can read it. Its a little hard when most of your family understands but doesn't understand. My husband was reminding me last night that you have to go through it 3 more times. I was just thinking let me get through them one at a time. He hates to see me this way. He doesn't say much but he doesn't have the grief as much either. The last time I went through this I was continuing with life but grieving at the same time. This went on for 2 or 3 months and finally he called the breeder we had be talking too and had her bring sweet Fred over for me to look at. Well that was all it took and I had a new baby. Even now 5 years later I still grieve for my first doxie but not as hard. I must be a weirdo to hurt this much. Good grief I'm babbling again. I better get off for now. Thank you again for your kind words. It does help to know someone understands. Levona , Co-Leader TOPS #Tx 1454, Pleasantonclick here to email me going haywire I feel like I'm going haywire right now. I know I'll be alright but I just need to "talk" a little right now before I go to bed. It has been a really hard week for me but I think most of you guys will understand. I have read several of your emails and you feel the same as I do. If your not one of those just delete this and chalk it up to a crazy person. lol Everytime I think that I'm going to quit crying then I start all over again. Last Sunday one of my "grandbabies" was injured some how. Let me explain, I have no children nor do I really want any. I teach school and have my Mom at home with me that is all the children I really need. But I'm one of those people that REALLY love their pets. They are my children. Five years ago we adopted Fred and Wilma (Doxies) and about a year later Wilma had puppies. We sold the 2 male puppies to really good homes (as a matter of a fact one lives with a really good friend) but the 2 precious females we just had to keep. Blackie and Sable. Blackie was the first born "grandchild" I was there when Wilma went into labor and produced the puppy. I was so afraid she wouldn't know what to do but she took care of everything right away and soon I was holding the little black and silver dapple baby in the palm of my hand. She was so precious. Blackie was the only pup she had naturally, the rest she had to have a c-section. Well Blackie was the baby that got hurt last weekend. The vet had told us that she would not walk again that she had ruptured a disc and if it continue she would probably not live past 2 or 3 days..He did seem to think that she probably would make it. All week I have agonized over what we should do. By Thursday she was getting stronger and finally beginning to eat good and she even looked better. I finally felt like we had some hope. We had contacted a couple in Houston who makes dog wheel chairs and she was telling me all the things I needed to know for the long haul. Well Friday night Blackie took a turn for the worse and she died at about 6:15 tonight. It hurts so much that I feel like I'm going crazy. Donna came over and helped us take care of her and bury her this evening. Now I'm sitting here alone. I am relieved because she is no longer suffering but sad because her life seemed so short. I'm sorry for rambling on and on. I'm going to try to go to bed soon and cuddle with the rest of my babies and try not to think about anything else for a while. Thanks for letting me tell my story I just needed to get it out of my system. Levona , Co-Leader TOPS #Tx 1454, Pleasantonclick here to email me EMAIL SUPPORT TEXAS-STYLE!!THE CRAZIEST BUNCH OF "LOSERS" ON THE 'NET'!!Visit us on the web: http://www.texastops.org EMAIL SUPPORT TEXAS-STYLE!!THE CRAZIEST BUNCH OF "LOSERS" ON THE 'NET'!!Visit us on the web: http://www.texastops.org Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 24, 2005 Report Share Posted April 24, 2005 Thank you for your thoughts. My family is understanding but they don't understand if that makes sense. I feel like my heart is shattered and pieces are falling out and my Mom and husband are like they are just your pets. They feel bad that I feel bad but they don't feel the same way. So they look at me and I can see them shaking their heads from time to time. It does help to have the other babies to cuddle with which I did last night. It really helps to have someone I can talk to that understands. Thank you so much. Levona , Co-Leader TOPS #Tx 1454, Pleasantonclick here to email me going haywire I feel like I'm going haywire right now. I know I'll be alright but I just need to "talk" a little right now before I go to bed. It has been a really hard week for me but I think most of you guys will understand. I have read several of your emails and you feel the same as I do. If your not one of those just delete this and chalk it up to a crazy person. lol Everytime I think that I'm going to quit crying then I start all over again. Last Sunday one of my "grandbabies" was injured some how. Let me explain, I have no children nor do I really want any. I teach school and have my Mom at home with me that is all the children I really need. But I'm one of those people that REALLY love their pets. They are my children. Five years ago we adopted Fred and Wilma (Doxies) and about a year later Wilma had puppies. We sold the 2 male puppies to really good homes (as a matter of a fact one lives with a really good friend) but the 2 precious females we just had to keep. Blackie and Sable. Blackie was the first born "grandchild" I was there when Wilma went into labor and produced the puppy. I was so afraid she wouldn't know what to do but she took care of everything right away and soon I was holding the little black and silver dapple baby in the palm of my hand. She was so precious. Blackie was the only pup she had naturally, the rest she had to have a c-section. Well Blackie was the baby that got hurt last weekend. The vet had told us that she would not walk again that she had ruptured a disc and if it continue she would probably not live past 2 or 3 days..He did seem to think that she probably would make it. All week I have agonized over what we should do. By Thursday she was getting stronger and finally beginning to eat good and she even looked better. I finally felt like we had some hope. We had contacted a couple in Houston who makes dog wheel chairs and she was telling me all the things I needed to know for the long haul. Well Friday night Blackie took a turn for the worse and she died at about 6:15 tonight. It hurts so much that I feel like I'm going crazy. Donna came over and helped us take care of her and bury her this evening. Now I'm sitting here alone. I am relieved because she is no longer suffering but sad because her life seemed so short. I'm sorry for rambling on and on. I'm going to try to go to bed soon and cuddle with the rest of my babies and try not to think about anything else for a while. Thanks for letting me tell my story I just needed to get it out of my system. Levona , Co-Leader TOPS #Tx 1454, Pleasantonclick here to email me EMAIL SUPPORT TEXAS-STYLE!!THE CRAZIEST BUNCH OF "LOSERS" ON THE 'NET'!!Visit us on the web: http://www.texastops.org EMAIL SUPPORT TEXAS-STYLE!!THE CRAZIEST BUNCH OF "LOSERS" ON THE 'NET'!!Visit us on the web: http://www.texastops.org Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 24, 2005 Report Share Posted April 24, 2005 No, you are not a weirdo to grieve that much. They are like our babies, our children. I had poodles and lost all three of themm last summer. I still miss them. Now all I have is 1 cat and 1 fish. But I plan to get another dog soon, probably from the pound. Ann --- Levona wrote: > bring sweet Fred over for me to look at. Well that > was all it took and I had a new baby. Even now 5 > years later I still grieve for my first doxie but > not as hard. I must be a weirdo to hurt this much. > Good grief I'm babbling again. I better get off for > now. Thank you again for your kind words. It does > help to know someone understands. > Levona , Co-Leader > TOPS #Tx 1454, Pleasanton > Ann Baird from Texas __________________________________________________ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 24, 2005 Report Share Posted April 24, 2005 I completely understand. I cried when one of our dobie pups died and it was only 1 day old (it might have been 2 days). I also cried when my baby (JRT) had to have surgery on her knee. I'm sorry for your loss. Rhonda Lain Sponsor My Walk! http://www.walkamerica.org/rhondatx162arl I will walk on April 30 in Ft. Worth. It is a 5 mile walk. -- going haywire I feel like I'm going haywire right now. I know I'll be alright but I just need to "talk" a little right now before I go to bed. It has been a really hard week for me but I think most of you guys will understand. I have read several of your emails and you feel the same as I do. If your not one of those just delete this and chalk it up to a crazy person. lol Everytime I think that I'm going to quit crying then I start all over again. Last Sunday one of my "grandbabies" was injured some how. Let me explain, I have no children nor do I really want any. I teach school and have my Mom at home with me that is all the children I really need. But I'm one of those people that REALLY love their pets. They are my children. Five years ago we adopted Fred and Wilma (Doxies) and about a year later Wilma had puppies. We sold the 2 male puppies to really good homes (as a matter of a fact one lives with a really good friend) but the 2 precious females we just had to keep. Blackie and Sable. Blackie was the first born "grandchild" I was there when Wilma went into labor and produced the puppy. I was so afraid she wouldn't know what to do but she took care of everything right away and soon I was holding the little black and silver dapple baby in the palm of my hand. She was so precious. Blackie was the only pup she had naturally, the rest she had to have a c-section. Well Blackie was the baby that got hurt last weekend. The vet had told us that she would not walk again that she had ruptured a disc and if it continue she would probably not live past 2 or 3 days..He did seem to think that she probably would make it. All week I have agonized over what we should do. By Thursday she was getting stronger and finally beginning to eat good and she even looked better. I finally felt like we had some hope. We had contacted a couple in Houston who makes dog wheel chairs and she was telling me all the things I needed to know for the long haul. Well Friday night Blackie took a turn for the worse and she died at about 6:15 tonight. It hurts so much that I feel like I'm going crazy. Donna came over and helped us take care of her and bury her this evening. Now I'm sitting here alone. I am relieved because she is no longer suffering but sad because her life seemed so short. I'm sorry for rambling on and on. I'm going to try to go to bed soon and cuddle with the rest of my babies and try not to think about anything else for a while. Thanks for letting me tell my story I just needed to get it out of my system. Levona , Co-Leader TOPS #Tx 1454, Pleasantonclick here to email me EMAIL SUPPORT TEXAS-STYLE!!THE CRAZIEST BUNCH OF "LOSERS" ON THE 'NET'!!Visit us on the web: http://www.texastops.org Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 24, 2005 Report Share Posted April 24, 2005 Levona, I am so sorry to hear about your "grandbaby" and I feel your pain. I know how much it hurts to lose a "member" of your family. Only people who are not true animal lovers would not understand or feel you heartache and pain you are going through. I have a daughter and 3 granddaughters and there is no love like the love you have for your children, BUT, the love I have for my "babies" (chihuahuas) is a love that is just as deep and strong it is just a different love. People feel the same kind of deep, protecting, caring, giving, and joyful love for thier pets as they do for their family members. Its is just a little different. I would be totally devastated if anything happened to Bambi or Bear and Bambi is about to have puppies in a couple more weeks. I get very very attached to my "babbies' . I had a llasa (not sure about the spelling) for 13 years and she finally die. I cried and cried every single day for weeks over here. then I cried off and on for over 2 years over her and it has been about 15 years since she died and I still remember her and I cry over losing her. So yes I understand your hurt and I am glad you are able to trya nd share you greif and heartache because it helps to know others understand and care for you in a time like this. I do hope you feel better this morning and just remember you did everything you could and you were there for Blackie and she knew it and felt your love to the end. I will keep you in my thoughts. Take care and remember I care. Love Pepper Levona wrote: I feel like I'm going haywire right now. I know I'll be alright but I just need to "talk" a little right now before I go to bed. It has been a really hard week for me but I think most of you guys will understand. I have read several of your emails and you feel the same as I do. If your not one of those just delete this and chalk it up to a crazy person. lol Everytime I think that I'm going to quit crying then I start all over again. Last Sunday one of my "grandbabies" was injured some how. Let me explain, I have no children nor do I really want any. I teach school and have my Mom at home with me that is all the children I really need. But I'm one of those people that REALLY love their pets. They are my children. Five years ago we adopted Fred and Wilma (Doxies) and about a year later Wilma had puppies. We sold the 2 male puppies to really good homes (as a matter of a fact one lives with a really good friend) but the 2 precious females we just had to keep. Blackie and Sable. Blackie was the first born "grandchild" I was there when Wilma went into labor and produced the puppy. I was so afraid she wouldn't know what to do but she took care of everything right away and soon I was holding the little black and silver dapple baby in the palm of my hand. She was so precious. Blackie was the only pup she had naturally, the rest she had to have a c-section. Well Blackie was the baby that got hurt last weekend. The vet had told us that she would not walk again that she had ruptured a disc and if it continue she would probably not live past 2 or 3 days..He did seem to think that she probably would make it. All week I have agonized over what we should do. By Thursday she was getting stronger and finally beginning to eat good and she even looked better. I finally felt like we had some hope. We had contacted a couple in Houston who makes dog wheel chairs and she was telling me all the things I needed to know for the long haul. Well Friday night Blackie took a turn for the worse and she died at about 6:15 tonight. It hurts so much that I feel like I'm going crazy. Donna came over and helped us take care of her and bury her this evening. Now I'm sitting here alone. I am relieved because she is no longer suffering but sad because her life seemed so short. I'm sorry for rambling on and on. I'm going to try to go to bed soon and cuddle with the rest of my babies and try not to think about anything else for a while. Thanks for letting me tell my story I just needed to get it out of my system. Levona , Co-Leader TOPS #Tx 1454, Pleasantonclick here to email me EMAIL SUPPORT TEXAS-STYLE!!THE CRAZIEST BUNCH OF "LOSERS" ON THE 'NET'!!Visit us on the web: http://www.texastops.org __________________________________________________ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 24, 2005 Report Share Posted April 24, 2005 Levona, I am so sorry you are going through this. I also know how attached we get to our animals. I recently had to have my 14-yr old Persian put to sleep. I cried for days afterward. I also did as you did - I hugged my other kitties while I continued to cry. So, you're not going haywire - you are just having a normal grief period. Please know my heart is with you while you handle this difficult time. Hugs, Deanna Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 25, 2005 Report Share Posted April 25, 2005 Oh, Levona, I'm soooo sorry to hear about your little Blackie. And you're so right, many of us would feel the same way that you do right now. Just know that it's perfectly normal to grieve for your little guy... and that eventually the sadness will pass. I lost my yorkie Madeline this past November. I'm finally to the point where I can remember something about her and smile to myself. Although, after almost 13 years of coming home to her, I still catch myself expecting to see her when I walk in the door. I'm sure that too will pass. I won't ever get another dog though. This past year was horrible. In addition to losing Madeline, our farm dog Dexter also died. This was after having lost my daughter's 35 year old pony that she grew up with since she was two, and three of my pet pygmy goats. Our pets are so much a part of our family, that when we lose one, there is an incredible void. Sending {{{comforting hugs}}}, Janet Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 26, 2005 Report Share Posted April 26, 2005 Levona, I'm so sorry about your little dog. I feel your pain and know what you are going through. Helon I feel like I'm going haywire right now. I know I'll be alright but I just need to "talk" a little right now before I go to bed. It has been a really hard week for me but I think most of you guys will understand. I have read several of your emails and you feel the same as I do. If your not one of those just delete this and chalk it up to a crazy person. lol Everytime I think that I'm going to quit crying then I start all over again. Last Sunday one of my "grandbabies" was injured some how. Let me explain, I have no children nor do I really want any. I teach school and have my Mom at home with me that is all the children I really need. But I'm one of those people that REALLY love their pets. They are my children. Five years ago we adopted Fred and Wilma (Doxies) and about a year later Wilma had puppies. We sold the 2 male puppies to really good homes (as a matter of a fact one lives with a really good friend) but the 2 precious females we just had to keep. Blackie and Sable. Blackie was the first born "grandchild" I was there when Wilma went into labor and produced the puppy. I was so afraid she wouldn't know what to do but she took care of everything right away and soon I was holding the little black and silver dapple baby in the palm of my hand. She was so precious. Blackie was the only pup she had naturally, the rest she had to have a c-section. Well Blackie was the baby that got hurt last weekend. The vet had told us that she would not walk again that she had ruptured a disc and if it continue she would probably not live past 2 or 3 days..He did seem to think that she probably would make it. All week I have agonized over what we should do. By Thursday she was getting stronger and finally beginning to eat good and she even looked better. I finally felt like we had some hope. We had contacted a couple in Houston who makes dog wheel chairs and she was telling me all the things I needed to know for the long haul. Well Friday night Blackie took a turn for the worse and she died at about 6:15 tonight. It hurts so much that I feel like I'm going crazy. Donna came over and helped us take care of her and bury her this evening. Now I'm sitting here alone. I am relieved because she is no longer suffering but sad because her life seemed so short. I'm sorry for rambling on and on. I'm going to try to go to bed soon and cuddle with the rest of my babies and try not to think about anything else for a while. Thanks for letting me tell my story I just needed to get it out of my system. Levona , Co-Leader TOPS #Tx 1454, Pleasantonclick here to email me EMAIL SUPPORT TEXAS-STYLE!! THE CRAZIEST BUNCH OF " LOSERS " ON THE 'NET'!! Visit us on the web: http://www.texastops.org Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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