Jerry

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Hi all,

Did any of you see Jerry on the Larry King show Friday night? I did not recognize him at first glance. He later said he was taking steroids for an illness and had been in pain since 1965. He also had a pain pump inserted and it was keeping him pain free for the first time since then. He said he had a lung illness. I was wondering, does HE have some form of Muscular Dystrophy?

He said that he believes and has been told that there will be a cure for MD in HIS lifetime. That would be great.

My mom is so "different". I have been telling you of all of the problems my family is having. My mom saw Jerry and she did not care that he was sick or that he had a pain relief system, she saw that he had gotten "fat". Prednisoine does that and I explained it was helping him and she just continued that "he was fat".I would never ever ever take it even if it would help me because of the weight gain it causes. I know that my family's attitude contributed to my being anorectic and bulemic as a teen and why she constantly is "on my case" about my weight. That is what is important to her. I have even been "banned" from seeing certain relatives due to being overweight. I was told I had to be a certain size to be in my brother's wedding. I did it, lost the weight, but I had never been a model like the other bridesmaids so I did not "fit".

The next thing I know my mother calls me to ask if I had taken a check from her check book without asking. I would NEVER do anything like that. Then she thought maybe she had given me money to help me with something and she had forgotten writing me a check. She DID NOT. I then got an e-mail from my brother asking if I had stolen a check. I don't need this stress. This was it!!! My brother takes care of the checkbook and the bills. He, apparently, wrote a check for a bill and forgot to record it, but he did not look into that without accusing me first.

I was up all of last night upset. Then I got angry. My husband did not want me to show my anger and "start anything" so I am venting here. I can't take all of this anymore. Why does my family treat me like this?I know I am not thin enough and that makes me less of a good person, but I have lost 50 pounds and am not huge. I am a bit overweight. That makes me as bad as a thief? I use to spend every spare minute advocating for the less fortunate. I even went to DC to lobby congress for rights for Mental Illness and coordinated support groups, non-for-profit organizations etc to help others. This is what I get from my family. I know I never had the "good paying and prestegious" job my brother has, but I tried to live a good life and help others. I am really crap because I am not thin and I have OCD and MITO. I am just crap to them. It makes me wonder why I bother. Then there was discussion about my mother giving my 12yr old daughter a check for $25 for her birthday. UGH.

Thanks for letting me vent.

Janis

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