Desperate/Ms Katurah

[Guest guest]

Dear Ms Katurah:

Sometimes I think we all need a 'poor me' day.  I indulge way too often, I'm

afraid.  It's just so hard dealing with everything, every day, ad infinitum. 

Especially learning about a new problem.  I always call it 'another movement in

the symphony of pain.' 

Sorry to hear about the new diagnosis.  I sure understand about your wanting to

avoid the wheelchair again.  I've been in one for a little over a  year now and

it really is hard to adjust. 

Since I'm heavy, I have a 'big butt' chair and it's even more difficult to

maneuver in shops that aren't even designed for normal sized chairs.  I've

handed shop keepers money, only to have them ignore me and try to hand the

change to my husband...or who talk to my husband about me like I'm not there. 

But, on the positive side, the wheelchair has given me the freedom to get to go

out more, and even to go places that I thought were lost to me.  Thank goodness

for those electric carts at the grocery stores, too! 

I hope that you really aren't considering stopping your meds.  I so understand

the desperation, but think of how bad the pain would be without the meds.  There

are not too many things worse than the desperate times that we can have when

hope lies bleeding. 

I tend to over-use the phrase 'hang in there,' but it's often all that I can

think of to say.  It's also what I say when people ask me how I'm doing. I say,

'I'm hanging in there.' 

There's nothing wrong with a good cry, too. It can actually cause muscles to

relax.  Sometimes there's just nothing else to do. 

- PA

--- Ms Katurah wrote:

>I really feel like stopping all of my meds and just go herbal I have found my

great grandmother recipes book that has an herbal remedy for just about

everything. It can't make me feel any worse because right now I want to cry or

just die.

[Guest guest]

I agree about the " good cry " ! I had one yesterday. I have been in so much pain

since my radio frequency ablation(and side effects from the Neurontin) that I

can't get anything done. My house looks like crap and my family isn't lifting a

finger to help, so I locked myself in my room for a good cry. lol

S

--- Ms Katurah wrote:

>It can't make me feel any worse because right now I want to cry.