Brainstorming a book

[Guest guest]

Been playing with ideas for a book. Working title Orphans in the FOG.

The perspective is from the child still living in us, stuck there by the

emotional smack downs from nada. First seen from that child as the

child, 4 or 5, maybe younger, when we first knew something was not just

right. Then glimpses across the years, aging on the outside, but

emotionally still that cowering child, waiting for something bad.

Mental image of this concept is a small child, in the shitty little

house in the middle of a junk yard we lived in, earliest memories, with

a FOG that comes to my eyes. Occasionally I can stand on something and

see others not living like I do. I can see clean houses, nurturing

parents, a day lived without fear, being cherished and protected. Then

I sink back into the FOG, alone, afraid, an orphan, not really the child

of those tall people who live with me.

Always wondering, when will I grow tall enough to see over it, and not

live in it. But it grows with me, until I change the entire dynamic.

So I, and we, grow into adulthood, still as

Orphans in the FOG.

Thats the sketch from brainstorming. What do you think, fellow Orphans?

Doug

Doug