Thanks guys

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Irish!, , Marsha...

Thanks for the little pep talk. I've been trying to pinpoint what is

really bothering me and I'm more and more convinced that it has

nothing to do with how involved I am in this group. In fact, I am so

grateful to have you guys right now because you are the only ones

that really understand how I feel. Tonight I went out to dinner with

my dad and brother and I brought up how frustrated I am that I don't

have a date to get my braces on yet. My dad proceeded to say that

when Southwest comes through I should check into their benefits which

is of course the logical thing to do since I can't afford $4000 right

now. However, if I wait until my benefits kick in with them it might

not be until Sept or Oct that I can start ortho treatment and that

throws my schedule way off track because I was hoping to be done with

everything by next June for my brothers wedding. As it is I'm kind of

pushing my luck even if I had my braces put on tomorrow. Anyway, my

dad was completely clueless and insensitive and actually asked me WHY

it was so important to have it done by the wedding!!! I couldn't even

dignify that stupid question with a remark. I mean what did he want

me to say, that I feel ugly and self conscious with the smile and

profile I have right now?? Any moron could've guessed that, but

nope...not my dad. It honestly didn't even enter his mind that I'd

like to look better for the wedding. Maybe it's the father in him

thinking that his daughter is perfect already but c'mon! Even my

brother had to stop the conversation because he was getting annoyed

with my dad. Just a glimpse into my world, this is the support I

have. My mom and bro are a lot better but are more sympathetic than

pro-actively helpful. I can't blame them, I don't know what they

could really do aside from dishing out the money themselves for me to

start ASAP. They really don't have it either but I guess what I want

is for them to come with me to the ortho, sit down face to face with

him and help me make some sort of a payment plan that might work for

everyone. I can't do that myself because I have no income coming in

right now and am unfortunately dependant on their help. What pisses

me off the most is that when I decided that I wanted to go through

this again I literally sat them down, cried my heart out and told

them that the hardest thing for me before was feeling alone with the

whole thing. Here I am again....sigh. Maybe I'm just a spoiled brat

who is used to getting what she wants when she wants it. I am trying

to be adult about it, I understand that you don't always get what you

want in life and perhaps I just need to accept that this might not be

done with by the wedding. The wedding for me is a big motivating

factor so I'm really stuck here. I know that a lot of you have had

your surgery days changed on you and I really know how you felt now.

How did you deal with it? Like I said, this has just been a bad day

and I'm sure that tomorrow will be fine.

Thanks for listening, I really am not saying this for you all to feel

sorry for me, it's just nice to have a place to vent!

Thanks again,

Neta-lee

> Thanks, you guys, for the nice words about my family! I'm pretty

> partial to them myself!

>

> It's 12:25am here, and as you can see, I'm not sleeping. I got up

to

> take a sleeping pill and decided to check in since the computer was

> still on. I couldn't believe all the posts this late! You guys are

a

> bunch of night owls!

>

> ! Congrats! It's always good to hear (or read, I guess)

> someone's good news! It's about time for you to make your list and

> check it twice! I, myself, think I'm going to be a lifetime brace

> wearer too! Won't complain about that right now, though!

>

> Think I'll go try sleeping again!

> Marsha