RE: Farm

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Akiba I am so sorry to hear you are so down. We wish only the best for you. If you aren't already on an antidepressant you should talk to your dr or if you are see if he can increase it or give you somethng else. Continued prayers.

Hugs

nne

Well, the farm sold. And I have 2 weeks to vacate. I have nowhere to go. I need a miracle. I also need Robbin. Sometimes the grief is so overwhelming. Today is particularly bad, I am shaking and crying and cannot seem to stop. Sometimes it will lighten for a bit, then I go right back down into severe depression. It just isn't FAIR that SHE is playing house with My husband and MY SON, while I sit here, alone and without the energy to start a fire for warmth. Please pray for a miracle for me.

Akiba

 

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Re: Farm

Akiba I am so sorry to hear you are so down. We wish only the best for you. If you aren't already on an antidepressant you should talk to your dr or if you are see if he can increase it or give you somethng else. Continued prayers.

Hugs

nne

Well, the farm sold. And I have 2 weeks to vacate. I have nowhere to go. I need a miracle. I also need Robbin. Sometimes the grief is so overwhelming. Today is particularly bad, I am shaking and crying and cannot seem to stop. Sometimes it will lighten for a bit, then I go right back down into severe depression. It just isn't FAIR that SHE is playing house with My husband and MY SON, while I sit here, alone and without the energy to start a fire for warmth. Please pray for a miracle for me.

Akiba

 

-- Breast Cancer Patients Soul Mates for Lifehttp://breastcancerpatientssoulmatesforlife.bravehost.com/ Anxiety Depression and Breast Cancerhttp://health.group.yahoo.com/group/AnxietyDepressionandBreastCancerAngel Feather Loomerwww.angelfeatherloomer.blogspot.comThe Cancer Clubwww.cancerclub.com

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I am on wellbutrin, and even take Sam-E. It's just a very bad day in Akiland. Your prayers are always with me, I have only taken off your prayer shawl to sleep since this began. Akiba -- Re: Farm Akiba I am so sorry to hear you are so down. We wish only the best for you. If you aren't already on an antidepressant you should talk to your dr or if you are see if he can increase it or give you somethng else. Continued prayers. Hugs nne Well, the farm sold. And I have 2 weeks to vacate. I have nowhere to go. I need a miracle. I also need Robbin. Sometimes the grief is so overwhelming. Today is particularly bad, I am shaking and crying and cannot seem to stop. Sometimes it will lighten for a bit, then I go right back down into severe depression. It just isn't FAIR that SHE is playing house with My husband and MY SON, while I sit here, alone and without the energy to start a fire for warmth. Please pray for a miracle for me. Akiba   -- Breast Cancer Patients Soul Mates for Lifehttp://breastcancerpatientssoulmatesforlife.bravehost.com/ Anxiety Depression and Breast Cancerhttp://health.group.yahoo.com/group/AnxietyDepressionandBreastCancerAngel Feather Loomerwww.angelfeatherloomer.blogspot.comThe Cancer Clubwww.cancerclub.com

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Akiba! Whatever happened to them coming to get you?!? Was that just a big lie? (duh, on my part). No surprise, given the price on that farm that it sold so quickly. Yet, here you are. Alone. However, we are here for you in whatever capacity we can be here for you. This seems so surreal, and if that feels that way to ME, I cannot even imagine the depth of how surreal it feels to YOU my dear friend. NONE of this is FAIR whatsoever. You have lost both your partner and your blood--your precious son, in a matter of months...I so feel your sadness and grief dear one, and am at a loss for words. Please know I'm a phone call away, and God is a mere whisper away. blessings and much love, Kate FarmTo: MSersLife > Well, the farm sold. And I have 2 weeks to vacate. I have > nowhere to go. I> need a miracle. I also need Robbin. Sometimes the grief is so > overwhelming.Today is particularly bad, I am shaking and crying > and cannot seem to stop.> Sometimes it will lighten for a bit, then I go right back down > into severe> depression. It just isn't FAIR that SHE is playing house with My > husband and> MY SON, while I sit here, alone and without the energy to start > a fire for> warmth. Please pray for a miracle for me.> > Akiba> > > >   > Please visit: http://www.bicycleman.comawesome guy, fantastic site. All types of bicyles, many recumbents; perfect for an MS Bike Tour!

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I just need the assets to get my ass-ets down there. Unfortunately I can either afford to get there, or to get a place there, but not both. Like I said, I need a miracle. God seems to be ignoring my cries. I just feel so alone. I know God is probably busy with all the other problems in the world. I did get a fire going so I am not so cold. Akiba -- Re: Farm Akiba! Whatever happened to them coming to get you?!? Was that just a big lie? (duh, on my part). No surprise, given the price on that farm that it sold so quickly. Yet, here you are. Alone. However, we are here for you in whatever capacity we can be here for you. This seems so surreal, and if that feels that way to ME, I cannot even imagine the depth of how surreal it feels to YOU my dear friend. NONE of this is FAIR whatsoever. You have lost both your partner and your blood--your precious son, in a matter of months...I so feel your sadness and grief dear one, and am at a loss for words. Please know I'm a phone call away, and God is a mere whisper away. blessings and much love, Kate FarmTo: MSersLife > Well, the farm sold. And I have 2 weeks to vacate. I have > nowhere to go. I> need a miracle. I also need Robbin. Sometimes the grief is so > overwhelming.Today is particularly bad, I am shaking and crying > and cannot seem to stop.> Sometimes it will lighten for a bit, then I go right back down > into severe> depression. It just isn't FAIR that SHE is playing house with My > husband and> MY SON, while I sit here, alone and without the energy to start > a fire for> warmth. Please pray for a miracle for me.> > Akiba> > > >   > Please visit: http://www.bicycleman.comawesome guy, fantastic site. All types of bicyles, many recumbents; perfect for an MS Bike Tour!

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Wow! The farm sold quickly! Lifting you in prayer for your miracle to come.

Lifting you high...

Val

MS and BPD Awareness

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Subject: FarmTo: MSersLife Date: Sunday, October 26, 2008, 9:08 PM

Well, the farm sold. And I have 2 weeks to vacate. I have nowhere to go. I need a miracle. I also need Robbin. Sometimes the grief is so overwhelming. Today is particularly bad, I am shaking and crying and cannot seem to stop. Sometimes it will lighten for a bit, then I go right back down into severe depression. It just isn't FAIR that SHE is playing house with My husband and MY SON, while I sit here, alone and without the energy to start a fire for warmth. Please pray for a miracle for me.

Akiba

 

[Guest guest]

MS and BPD Awareness

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Well, the farm sold. And I have 2 weeks to vacate. I have nowhere to go. I need a miracle. I also need Robbin. Sometimes the grief is so overwhelming. Today is particularly bad, I am shaking and crying and cannot seem to stop. Sometimes it will lighten for a bit, then I go right back down into severe depression. It just isn't FAIR that SHE is playing house with My husband and MY SON, while I sit here, alone and without the energy to start a fire for warmth. Please pray for a miracle for me.

Akiba

 

-- Breast Cancer Patients Soul Mates for Lifehttp://breastcancer patientssoulmate sforlife. bravehost. com/ Anxiety Depression and Breast Cancerhttp://health. group.yahoo. com/group/ AnxietyDepressio nandBreastCancerAngel Feather Loomerwww.angelfeatherloo mer.blogspot. comThe Cancer Clubwww.cancerclub. com

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Bowing my head right now, asking for the greatest only to happen for you!!!!! Thinking of you always, and KNOWING only the best is coming for you. Remember it is always darkest before the the dawn!!. Love always, .

Subject: FarmTo: MSersLife Date: Sunday, October 26, 2008, 4:08 PM

Well, the farm sold. And I have 2 weeks to vacate. I have nowhere to go. I need a miracle. I also need Robbin. Sometimes the grief is so overwhelming. Today is particularly bad, I am shaking and crying and cannot seem to stop. Sometimes it will lighten for a bit, then I go right back down into severe depression. It just isn't FAIR that SHE is playing house with My husband and MY SON, while I sit here, alone and without the energy to start a fire for warmth. Please pray for a miracle for me.

Akiba

 

[Guest guest]

The farm sold quickly, she will get her full price, and I will be homeless by the 15th. BUT I have a plan, I do need a financial miracle to pull it off but stranger things have happened. I WILL be with my son again, soon! I could not even start to think otherwise. And how did it go with Vicente? Hugs Akiba -- FarmTo: MSersLife Date: Sunday, October 26, 2008, 9:08 PM Well, the farm sold. And I have 2 weeks to vacate. I have nowhere to go. I need a miracle. I also need Robbin. Sometimes the grief is so overwhelming. Today is particularly bad, I am shaking and crying and cannot seem to stop. Sometimes it will lighten for a bit, then I go right back down into severe depression. It just isn't FAIR that SHE is playing house with My husband and MY SON, while I sit here, alone and without the energy to start a fire for warmth. Please pray for a miracle for me. Akiba  

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Well, I will pray that you get the finances you need before the 15th. You must keep up the faith, a miracle will happen. I know you're missing Robbin so much. I know exactly how that feels. Sometimes I don't think there's a greater pain than to be separated from a child.

Vicente is doing great! He's so much happier now, and he really is starting to be like the Vicente I rememeber. He hasn't changed much, just gotten older. He's a good kid.

I keep reminding him that he still needs to get to the magistrates office if he wants to press charges. I think he's going through that chronic abuse syndrome, where the victim desides not to press charges because they no longer fear for themselves. But, I told him he has to think of his two little half brothers. What his father did to him, he could do to them. He says he's going to do it, but he seems to be dragging his feet. I'll keep working on him.

Love and blessings....

Val

MS and BPD Awareness

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Woomail.com/Val

Subject: FarmTo: MSersLife@yahoogrou ps.comDate: Sunday, October 26, 2008, 9:08 PM

Well, the farm sold. And I have 2 weeks to vacate. I have nowhere to go. I need a miracle. I also need Robbin. Sometimes the grief is so overwhelming. Today is particularly bad, I am shaking and crying and cannot seem to stop. Sometimes it will lighten for a bit, then I go right back down into severe depression. It just isn't FAIR that SHE is playing house with My husband and MY SON, while I sit here, alone and without the energy to start a fire for warmth. Please pray for a miracle for me.

Akiba

 

[Guest guest]

Rob has no intention of coming to get me. I HAVE TO somehow get down there, I think HE thinks I will end up alone, in the local "home" and just, well..vanish. Yes, I NEED a miracle, and NOW. I know it is not up to me to tell God when to dole out miracles, but I need it NOW. Somehow, from somewhere, I need the $ to get a place there, and get me down there. When that is all accomplished, I will appear on their doorstep and take my child back. It HAS to happen. I HAVE to get him back. And yes, I do have a call in to a lawyer, and yes, I do have legal aid approved. Meanwhile it is SNOWING Hugs Akiba -- FarmTo: MSersLife@yahoogrou ps.comDate: Sunday, October 26, 2008, 9:08 PM Well, the farm sold. And I have 2 weeks to vacate. I have nowhere to go. I need a miracle. I also need Robbin. Sometimes the grief is so overwhelming. Today is particularly bad, I am shaking and crying and cannot seem to stop. Sometimes it will lighten for a bit, then I go right back down into severe depression. It just isn't FAIR that SHE is playing house with My husband and MY SON, while I sit here, alone and without the energy to start a fire for warmth. Please pray for a miracle for me. Akiba  

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It sounds to me like, not only are you and Rob not on the same page, but you're not even in the same book. I don't understand how he can be so cruel. Does he honestly think you can make it on your own, or does he not care? Honestly Akiba, do you really want someone who not only is not in love with you, but doesn't give a crud about your own welfare? A relationship like this will never work. And I agree with you...you're going to need a miracle. On the flip side, stranger things have happened. And I totally believe in miracles. Just know that sometimes we don't get what we want because that's not what we really need.

Finances...yes. You definately need help with the finances. You know, sometimes just when you think things aren't going to work out, and you have run out of time, that's when God pulls through. He knows exactly what you need and when you need it. Our time is not His time.

We are running on a time line ourselves right now. And like you, I'm a little bit nervous about getting it done. Our landlady informed us this morning that she received a letter in the mail and they are going to foreclose on the house. Not only is my family going to have to move, but it looks like she's going to be moving again too. She's got a place with her family, but we don't. And I don't see us coming up with enough money to get a place any time soon. We're going to need at least a two bedroom dwelling. Just with the deposits and utility hook-ups alone, it's going to cost us around $1,500-$1,800. And we've got less than a month to do it. The money isn't the only issue with us. Both mine and Tom's credit is poor and of course, my son isn't old enough to have credit. So, like you, we are also praying for a miracle.

We must keep the faith and try to stay positive. Know that we will be taken care of. And most of all believe.

Still lifting you high....

Love,

Val

MS and BPD Awareness

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Woomail.com/Val

Subject: FarmTo: MSersLife@yahoogrou ps.comDate: Sunday, October 26, 2008, 9:08 PM

Well, the farm sold. And I have 2 weeks to vacate. I have nowhere to go. I need a miracle. I also need Robbin. Sometimes the grief is so overwhelming. Today is particularly bad, I am shaking and crying and cannot seem to stop. Sometimes it will lighten for a bit, then I go right back down into severe depression. It just isn't FAIR that SHE is playing house with My husband and MY SON, while I sit here, alone and without the energy to start a fire for warmth. Please pray for a miracle for me.

Akiba

 

[Guest guest]

  I’m sorry you had to

give up your home there.  I’m keeping you in prayer that everything works out

for the best for you and your son.

T

in WY

" You get a wonderful view from the point of no return... "

http://practical-blackwork.blogspot.com

http://www.flickr.com/photos/liadains_fancies

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From: MSersLife [mailto:MSersLife ] On Behalf Of Akiba

Sent: Sunday, October 26, 2008 2:08 PM

To: MSersLife

Subject: Farm

Well, the farm sold. And I

have 2 weeks to vacate. I have nowhere to go. I need a miracle. I also need

Robbin. Sometimes the grief is so overwhelming. Today is particularly bad,

I am shaking and crying and cannot seem to stop. Sometimes it will lighten

for a bit, then I go right back down into severe depression. It just isn't

FAIR that SHE is playing house with My husband and MY SON, while I sit

here, alone and without the energy to start a fire for warmth. Please pray

for a miracle for me.

Akiba

 

[Guest guest]

I have no idea what, if anything, is going through his head. I think *he* thinks if he ignores me I will go away. Not happening! I, also, cannot understand why he is SO cruel to me. But, his actions give me ammo to use toward getting Robbin back, for good. Even if(when) he tries to get back with me, it won't work. He's gone too far this time. He has done things that even I cannot forgive. And trust? No way. Never. Not happening. I Will move down there, God willing. And when I am there I will be able to see a real neurologist. And I am going to sue for divorce, based on abandonment and mental/emotional and physical abuse/cruelty. And I am going to sue for full custody! Robbin called tonight and said "I wish Mommy and Daddy were together again!" which breaks my heart. Because whatever happens, Mommy and Daddy will never ever be the same. And unless I get a lobotomy I really really doubt Mommy and Daddy will ever be together again. Pity, that, but he has pushed my last button. Hugs Akiba -- FarmTo: MSersLife@yahoogrou ps.comDate: Sunday, October 26, 2008, 9:08 PM Well, the farm sold. And I have 2 weeks to vacate. I have nowhere to go. I need a miracle. I also need Robbin. Sometimes the grief is so overwhelming. Today is particularly bad, I am shaking and crying and cannot seem to stop. Sometimes it will lighten for a bit, then I go right back down into severe depression. It just isn't FAIR that SHE is playing house with My husband and MY SON, while I sit here, alone and without the energy to start a fire for warmth. Please pray for a miracle for me. Akiba  

[Guest guest]

MS and BPD Awareness

valsafemail@...

Woomail.com/Val

Subject: FarmTo: MSersLife@yahoogrou ps.comDate: Sunday, October 26, 2008, 9:08 PM

Well, the farm sold. And I have 2 weeks to vacate. I have nowhere to go. I need a miracle. I also need Robbin. Sometimes the grief is so overwhelming. Today is particularly bad, I am shaking and crying and cannot seem to stop. Sometimes it will lighten for a bit, then I go right back down into severe depression. It just isn't FAIR that SHE is playing house with My husband and MY SON, while I sit here, alone and without the energy to start a fire for warmth. Please pray for a miracle for me.

Akiba

 

[Guest guest]

I agree with Val. I cannot believe this guy! I hope your hanging in

there Akiba. I can only imagine how hard and stressful this all is on

you. Well, maybe just maybe they will come to some senses and come and

help you or at least give some funds towards your moving. It is going to

be sooooo tough making that trip alone.Im still praying for you.

Val. Im so sorry you have to move soon. This stinks! I hope and pray you

guys find somewere to move and quick. Finally your all together and then

this comes along. Just stinks! I know something will come along. How is

Vicente doing?

lots of luv n hugzzz

cassy

Farm

To: MSersLife@yahoogrou ps.com

Date: Sunday, October 26, 2008, 9:08 PM

Well, the farm sold. And I have 2 weeks to vacate. I have nowhere to go.

I need a miracle. I also need Robbin. Sometimes the grief is so

overwhelming. Today is particularly bad, I am shaking and crying and

cannot seem to stop. Sometimes it will lighten for a bit, then I go

right back down into severe depression. It just isn't FAIR that SHE is

playing house with My husband and MY SON, while I sit here, alone and

without the energy to start a fire for warmth. Please pray for a miracle

for me.

Akiba

 

& nbsp;

& nbsp;

[Guest guest]

Today is Robbin's 11th Birthday and I am 1100 miles away from him with no home and no way to get down there. So I am just sitting and crying all day. I hurt So badly I cannot even put it into words. Akiba -- FarmTo: MSersLife@yahoogrou ps.comDate: Sunday, October 26, 2008, 9:08 PMWell, the farm sold. And I have 2 weeks to vacate. I have nowhere to go. I need a miracle. I also need Robbin. Sometimes the grief is so overwhelming. Today is particularly bad, I am shaking and crying and cannot seem to stop. Sometimes it will lighten for a bit, then I go right back down into severe depression. It just isn't FAIR that SHE is playing house with My husband and MY SON, while I sit here, alone and without the energy to start a fire for warmth. Please pray for a miracle for me.Akiba  & nbsp; & nbsp;

[Guest guest]

Thank you. I feel like even God is ignoring my cries for help. A Mother's heart breaks. Akiba -- FarmTo: MSersLife@yahoogrou ps.comDate: Sunday, October 26, 2008, 9:08 PMWell, the farm sold. And I have 2 weeks to vacate. I have nowhere to go. I need a miracle. I also need Robbin. Sometimes the grief is so overwhelming. Today is particularly bad, I am shaking and crying and cannot seem to stop. Sometimes it will lighten for a bit, then I go right back down into severe depression. It just isn't FAIR that SHE is playing house with My husband and MY SON, while I sit here, alone and without the energy to start a fire for warmth. Please pray for a miracle for me.Akiba  & nbsp; & nbsp;

[Guest guest]

 God grant him many

happy years!

    And God bring you

comfort, and reunite you soon.

T

in WY

" You get a wonderful view from the point of no return... "

http://practical-blackwork.blogspot.com

http://www.flickr.com/photos/liadains_fancies

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From: MSersLife [mailto:MSersLife ] On Behalf Of Akiba

Sent: Wednesday, October 29, 2008 12:51 PM

To: MSersLife

Subject: Re: Farm

Today is Robbin's 11th

Birthday and I am 1100 miles away from him with no home and no way to get

down there. So I am just sitting and crying all day. I hurt So badly I

cannot even put it into words.

Akiba

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From: payngabby@...

Date: 10/29/2008 1:13:04 PM

To: MSersLife

Subject: Re:

Farm

I agree with Val. I cannot

believe this guy! I hope your hanging in

there Akiba. I can only imagine how hard and stressful this all is on

you. Well, maybe just maybe they will come to some senses and come and

help you or at least give some funds towards your moving. It is going to

be sooooo tough making that trip alone.Im still praying for you.

Val. Im so sorry you have to move soon. This stinks! I hope and pray you

guys find somewere to move and quick. Finally your all together and then

this comes along. Just stinks! I know something will come along. How is

Vicente doing?

lots of luv n hugzzz

cassy

Farm

To: MSersLife@yahoogrou ps.com

Date: Sunday,

October 26, 2008, 9:08

PM

Well, the farm sold. And I have 2 weeks to vacate. I have nowhere to go.

I need a miracle. I also need Robbin. Sometimes the grief is so

overwhelming. Today is particularly bad, I am shaking and crying and

cannot seem to stop. Sometimes it will lighten for a bit, then I go

right back down into severe depression. It just isn't FAIR that SHE is

playing house with My husband and MY SON, while I sit here, alone and

without the energy to start a fire for warmth. Please pray for a miracle

for me.

Akiba

 

& nbsp;

& nbsp;

[Guest guest]

No, I have looked everywhere, and tried everything. All I know is I HAVE to get to him, I don't know how. I just pray for a miracle. I pray so hard, every day. And nothing. I know he needs me as much as I need him. Need/miss/love. Akiba -- FarmTo: MSersLife@yahoogrou ps.comDate: Sunday, October 26, 2008, 9:08 PMWell, the farm sold. And I have 2 weeks to vacate. I have nowhere to go. I need a miracle. I also need Robbin. Sometimes the grief is so overwhelming. Today is particularly bad, I am shaking and crying and cannot seem to stop. Sometimes it will lighten for a bit, then I go right back down into severe depression. It just isn't FAIR that SHE is playing house with My husband and MY SON, while I sit here, alone and without the energy to start a fire for warmth. Please pray for a miracle for me.Akiba  & nbsp; & nbsp;

[Guest guest]

It's worth a shot. And I am trying to take care of myself. Problem is I have NO appetite. I might eat a little every other day. Like yesterday, I had 3 eggs. I hadn't eaten in since Sunday. Today I might or might not eat. I have been drinking tomato juice, though, every day. I'm surprised I haven't lost 100 lbs! BTW, this diet is Not recommended. Avoid it at all costs. Akiba -- RE: Farm I surely wish I knew an answer – maybe someone else here knows something helpful. I’ll keep praying for you – I know it must be so hard not to be discouraged, but you have to take care of yourself so you’re ready when the miracle comes to you… Um. A thought did just come to me. , don’t know if it’s something you’d want to do or not…maybe contact a “human interest story” reporter at your local (or THEIR local) newspaper and tell your story? People can be very kind when something like this stirs them up…. I know it’s kind of “airing dirty laundry”, but I think it would be worth it to me – after all, THEY are the ones with the shameful behavior, not you…. T in WY"You get a wonderful view from the point of no return..."http://practical-blackwork.blogspot.comhttp://www.flickr.com/photos/liadains_fancies -----Original Message-----From: MSersLife [mailto:MSersLife ] On Behalf Of AkibaSent: Wednesday, October 29, 2008 2:01 PMTo: MSersLife Subject: RE: Farm No, I have looked everywhere, and tried everything. All I know is I HAVE to get to him, I don't know how. I just pray for a miracle. I pray so hard, every day. And nothing. I know he needs me as much as I need him. Need/miss/love. Akiba

[Guest guest]

  God hears us all,

just sometimes we don’t understand the answer…

    Surely the right

way will come.  Is there some volunteer group where you want to go who can help

you?  Some kind of aid society?

T

in WY

" You get a wonderful view from the point of no return... "

http://practical-blackwork.blogspot.com

http://www.flickr.com/photos/liadains_fancies

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From: MSersLife [mailto:MSersLife ] On Behalf Of Akiba

Sent: Wednesday, October 29, 2008 1:21 PM

To: MSersLife

Subject: RE: Farm

Thank you. I feel like even

God is ignoring my cries for help. A Mother's heart breaks.

Akiba

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From: A Thallas Jr

Date: 10/29/2008 3:00:52 PM

To: MSersLife

Subject: RE:

Farm

God grant

him many happy years!

And God bring you comfort, and reunite you soon.

T

in WY

" You get a wonderful view from the point of no return... "

http://practical-blackwork.blogspot.com

http://www.flickr.com/photos/liadains_fancies

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From: MSersLife

[mailto:MSersLife ] On

Behalf Of Akiba

Sent: Wednesday, October 29, 2008 12:51 PM

To: MSersLife

Subject: Re: Farm

Today is Robbin's

11th Birthday and I am 1100 miles away from him with no home and no way

to get down there. So I am just sitting and crying all day. I hurt So

badly I cannot even put it into words.

Akiba

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From: payngabbyaol

Date: 10/29/2008 1:13:04 PM

To: MSersLife

Subject: Re: Farm

I agree with Val. I cannot believe this guy! I hope

your hanging in

there Akiba. I can only imagine how hard and stressful this all is on

you. Well, maybe just maybe they will come to some senses and come

and

help you or at least give some funds towards your moving. It is going

to

be sooooo tough making that trip alone.Im still praying for you.

Val. Im so sorry you have to move soon. This stinks! I hope and pray

you

guys find somewere to move and quick. Finally your all together and

then

this comes along. Just stinks! I know something will come along. How is

Vicente doing?

lots of luv n hugzzz

cassy

Farm

To: MSersLife@yahoogrou ps.com

Date: Sunday,

October 26, 2008, 9:08

PM

Well, the farm sold. And I have 2 weeks to vacate. I have nowhere to

go.

I need a miracle. I also need Robbin. Sometimes the grief is so

overwhelming. Today is particularly bad, I am shaking and crying and

cannot seem to stop. Sometimes it will lighten for a bit, then I go

right back down into severe depression. It just isn't FAIR that SHE is

playing house with My husband and MY SON, while I sit here, alone and

without the energy to start a fire for warmth. Please pray for a

miracle

for me.

Akiba

 

& nbsp;

& nbsp;

[Guest guest]

I am so sorry, Akiba~

I know how badly you're hurting. Know that my thoughts are with you and I am praying for you. You have reached a dark place in your life, and it isn't easy. But, it is always darkest before the dawn, and I believe you will see light again soon.

Put your right arm around yourself as far as you are able. Now do the same with your left arm. Now, give a gentle squeeze. ...That's me, giving you a hug. I am with you.

Love and blessings...

Val

MS and BPD Awareness

valsafemail@...

Woomail.com/Val

From: Akiba & lt;akyba@... & gt;Subject: FarmTo: MSersLife@yahoogrou ps.comDate: Sunday, October 26, 2008, 9:08 PMWell, the farm sold. And I have 2 weeks to vacate. I have nowhere to go. I need a miracle. I also need Robbin. Sometimes the grief is so overwhelming. Today is particularly bad, I am shaking and crying and cannot seem to stop. Sometimes it will lighten for a bit, then I go right back down into severe depression. It just isn't FAIR that SHE is playing house with My husband and MY SON, while I sit here, alone and without the energy to start a fire for warmth. Please pray for a miracle for me.Akiba  & nbsp; & nbsp;

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Yes, I know you Do know the pain I am feeling. A pain NO Mother should ever feel. Thanks for the hug. Akiba -- FarmTo: MSersLife@yahoogrou ps.comDate: Sunday, October 26, 2008, 9:08 PMWell, the farm sold. And I have 2 weeks to vacate. I have nowhere to go. I need a miracle. I also need Robbin. Sometimes the grief is so overwhelming. Today is particularly bad, I am shaking and crying and cannot seem to stop. Sometimes it will lighten for a bit, then I go right back down into severe depression. It just isn't FAIR that SHE is playing house with My husband and MY SON, while I sit here, alone and without the energy to start a fire for warmth. Please pray for a miracle for me.Akiba  & nbsp; & nbsp;

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I just want to get there. Lawyers will come, when I am there. I was approved for Judicare here, so I assume I will be there as well. I have a call in to the local D.A. to see if any of what they've done is actionable. Eating is another issue. Just not happening right now. Akiba -- RE: Farm I surely wish I knew an answer – maybe someone else here knows something helpful. I’ll keep praying for you – I know it must be so hard not to be discouraged, but you have to take care of yourself so you’re ready when the miracle comes to you… Um. A thought did just come to me. , don’t know if it’s something you’d want to do or not…maybe contact a “human interest story” reporter at your local (or THEIR local) newspaper and tell your story? People can be very kind when something like this stirs them up…. I know it’s kind of “airing dirty laundry”, but I think it would be worth it to me – after all, THEY are the ones with the shameful behavior, not you…. T in WY"You get a wonderful view from the point of no return..."http://practical-blackwork.blogspot.comhttp://www.flickr.com/photos/liadains_fancies -----Original Message-----From: MSersLife [mailto:MSersLife ] On Behalf Of AkibaSent: Wednesday, October 29, 2008 2:01 PMTo: MSersLife Subject: RE: Farm No, I have looked everywhere, and tried everything. All I know is I HAVE to get to him, I don't know how. I just pray for a miracle. I pray so hard, every day. And nothing. I know he needs me as much as I need him. Need/miss/love. Akiba