Re: Re: My latest BLOG entry

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Ah, Thank you for your kind words. I would not even know how to submit it, but nice to know you think it's good enough(sitting on beach) Hugs Akiba -- Re: My latest BLOG entry Akiba, This brought tears to my eyes. You should submit this writing to the MS Connection magazine. It really is fitting for everyone who suffers. People don't realize that you lose yourself when you are dx with this disease and you have a time of grieving at first and you also have a time of grieving with every exacerbation. It's hard to have to re-invent yourself over and over again and to feel like you must be happy with who you are. Thank you so much for this. I am saving this one to my computer to share with my family and friends as well as the Spoon Theory. Awesome!!! Hugs Peggy >> Beaches > > When I look back at all the things I used to be able to do, that now I can> no longer do, I feel a bit like a beach. A nice, clean, sandy beach> somewhere tropical, with blue skies and coconuts. And there's the Sea. That> s the MS. Every clear, sparkling wave takes a few of my grains, erodes me,> little by little, grain by grain. People don't SEE the MS, they just see> pretty waves, frolic in them, not realizing I am being taken, bit by bit,> fragment by fragment, grain by grain. Some days are stormy. Those days the> beach is empty and I am alone. There might be a few storm watchers (family,> friends), but I still feel alone and empty those days. Those days also are> the ones that erode me the fastest. Then there are the MS exacerbations..> Tropical Storms that erode me even faster. Stress can be a Tsunami to my> beach. I feel helpless against the onslaught of those waves, all I can do is> watch myself being taken, feel myself being lessened, look back at the> richness my life used to be. I used to dance on those waves, now sometimes I> hate them, hate what they're doing to me. I mourn myself, miss myself, and> desperately want myself back. But I know it is not to be, I will never dance> again.       > > ~*~ Akiba ~*~>