Friday afternoon

[Guest guest]

Afternoon all---

Another hot, dry day here in the NE. We desperately need rain

and I'm concerned about the well and high fire danger.....good thing

I haven't planted anything yet and maybe I won't

Cari, bless you for your thoughts and prayers. I put myself back

on the Celexa antidepressant last week, as I still had 3 refills. I

think it'll help me some- put me on a bit more even keel, though it

does add to my fatigue. Quite a lot, I'd say. But this won't be long

term, most likely. My hubby seems much more chipper lately- probably.

due in part to the fact that I got our studio apt rented. He needs to

make some big changes, but I suppose we all do from time to time. If

his work situation could become better, what a difference that would

make.

I saw our therapist this week- mainly to see how best to help my

husband. We did go over some of the same old, same old, concerning

me.Apparently she feels certain that I would be much happier if I

were out in the world working- at least part time- and making my own

money. I understand where she is coming from, but.... and I think she

sees my " buts " as excuses. I suppose I can understand that, too. She

told my husband that she has a daughter-in-law with a terminal

illness. Primary sclerosis, I believe. This gal is young, with a

family, and she may have a year to live. Our therapist said even with

that, she goes to work 3 days a week, or 3 hrs. a day-whichever-

because she thinks it's good for her and she needs it. The point

being, so what's MY excuse? Then I think of our out there,

slaving away, for the same reasons I should be. I just wanted to put

my thoughts out there, and I'm confused as to even what they are!

More guilt, I suppose? Seems everyone else knows what is best for me,

except me:)

Meantime, I still am having hang/finger swelling- enough so that

I cannot get my 2 rings off. It's not the hormonal thing, as my feet

and legs are OK. Am having more upper to mid spine pain and " rib "

pain on one side- though the " rib " pain feels deeper-possibly a

strained muscle from something I did last week. Also, when sleeping,

I'm waking up with bad, aching elbow pain in both elbows- all this

is " new " crap- plus the neck/shoulder/hip weakness which is

subjective.

Mike- hope you've had a good vacation! Anne-Marie, what's new

with you? Fern, isn't motherhood such a testing ground for our

mettle? My best wishes for you as you struggle through this. I wish I

had some great words of wisdom! But I don't. Annette, how are you

feeling from day to day?

Also, I want to welcome Martha! As Vicki said, hope she's getting

these messages. A great Friday night to all----