Re: Been reading through my journal...

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Fiona--

You are a brave warrior to go through this path of healing and read through old

journals.

What an amazing thing--to see how far you've come! Even as I know that had to

be painful.

Thank God we all found (and can support) one another.

Blessings,

Karla

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> I don't know why I chose to read through it yesterday.

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> I've never read straight through it since I started it in early 2007.

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> It was very, very painful and hard to read through it. Painful b/c it felt

like I was reliving many horrible experiences again. Almost all involving my

mother.

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> Also painful to see so, so many of the same, repetitious behavior between her

and me. There's a great line in a Gray song called " Draw the Line " that

goes, " Same old bodies moving to the same old beat. " That's how it's been

between us; the same, old, unhealthy, stagnant song and dance.

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> But this last year has been different. As painful as it was to read through

all that, I was so encouraged and heartened to think of this support group. It

has been a godsend to share with you all and to learn from you all.

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> I feel I've grown more since finding this group. I'm more aware of my

interactions with my mother. I'm not willing to do the same dance anymore.

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> All of that to say THANK YOU!!! To all of you. Thanks.

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