Guest guest Posted February 20, 2005 Report Share Posted February 20, 2005 Hi everyone, I'm here because I had mammogram and sonogram done three days ago of an area that Moffitt Cancer Center has been following for two years. The area that they have been watching has grown from 5mm to 9.7mm over the past six months. The core biopsy done from this site showed papilloma with florid hyperplasia two years ago. I think there were atypical cells. As a result of the results from three days ago, an MRI and excision have been recommended. I have to wait until March 3to have the MRI done because my health insurance is not active until March 1. I had breast cancer in 1990 intraductal carcinoma in situ with one area of possible invasion. I had a mastectomy at that time of my right breast with simultaneous reconstruction. So, I have been cancer free for 14 years and now this situation presents itself and I'm terrified. I know being terrified doesn't help anything, but I still am. I think I am reliving the 1990 event. I was spared then by God I feel and the prayers and love and skill of others.I wonder if I will be graced this time. I don't know how to calm myself except to talk and express how scared I feel. Also, I'm trying to get more information but basically I feel very helpless right now. I am fifty three and single. I do have supportive family members. I hate that I am the source of worry for them with yet a new personal concern now, too. The last few years of my life have been pretty rough across the board.I have just started to rebuild from out of " ashes " . I lost everything pretty much . I am now at a new job in my sixth week and it just feels like oh, no! Not another form of stress right now! Anyway, I know that I am only one of many who are facing the unknown right now. I appreciate whoever may be reading this and any responses from you. I am also seeking a spiritual path or connection with God quite fervently now. I know there is something more than us, larger,a higher power. I feel so small and helpless very much the way I felt back in 1990. I guess I will stop here. Thank you for reading this. Beverly nickname Eve Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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