Guest guest Posted February 7, 2001 Report Share Posted February 7, 2001 , My heart is breaking to hear that you feel so depressed. It sounds like you know what's going on tho............. You are a very intelligent woman and believe me 50 people did not feel obligated ! These people care for you, as we all do. (((((())))))) Heres to the next 50 years, may each year be better and better ! Love, Dianne Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 7, 2001 Report Share Posted February 7, 2001 ok its time for me to bite the bullet and get clean again since my b/d i have been fighting depression and i dont know if my depression triggered carbs or vice versa anyway they work together to keep me down and until i quit eating them i wont get myself back up or motivated its kinda a catch 22... Be careful of carbs if you suffer from depression, especially pasta. Pasta is known to make depression worse for those who suffer from it. Hope you're starting to feel better, tho ..... my b/d made me depressed not for the reasons anyone would think i mean turning 50 you do realize part of your life is over but i have my kids and life goes on .. what made me depressed was all the attention .. i am not used to that i am used to spending my day alone and feeling sorry for myself.. i guess low self esteem makes it hard for me to accept gifts etc.. on saturday they threw a huge party for me with fifty guests... i have felt terribly guilty that somehow these people felt obligated to come to my party and buy me gifts.. Has it occurred to you that maybe they wanted to help you celebrate, and to show you that they value you? My 50th birthday in December went largely unnoticed. Most of the time that is ok with me, but my 50th I wanted to be different. Ah well, one of these years! i know this sounds stupid but it put me in a depression cus its not me .. me is curling up with a book or a movie all alone funny how i complained all my life that no one ever thought of me and then when they do i am not able to accept it don't beat yourself up over this, . It made you feel uncomfortable, and you have the RIGHT to have whatever feelings you have about it. Those who threw the party had good intentions, but you also have the right to your perceptions and feelings on the situation as well. {{{{{HUGS}}}}}} better..but regardless of my problems i know i have to cut the carbs and get back to the gym, take my supplements and drink my water.. I think and hope once you get the carbs down, and get out and about, you will feel better. I know when my depression is at its worst [i have BPD], if I can just get out and about, I feel better -- it's getting to that point. A couple of weeks ago i didn't venture out for almost 5 days -- I knew it wasn't a good idea......but eventually it DOES get better. i get so tired of every day being a struggle with myself to make myself do what i should like get out of bed .. i wish it was easy and i just jumped up fixed my eggs and did what i am supposed to do..instead of fighting with myself every day.. thanks for listening and dont think i am totally nuts as i tell my sister i can recognize the too many carb whine catherine Nope, you're not nuts. Just human. I'll jump on the bandwagon with you, I started back eating yesterday [i've been having some problems with not being hungry for days on end, so I don't eat, which I KNOW is a bad thing for someone like me]. Simmie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 7, 2001 Report Share Posted February 7, 2001 Thanks Dianne and Simmie i feel cheered up already i gagged down my vitamins and ate bacon and eggs and had some green tea. hopefully i can stay strong the rest of the day after work is my down fall but if i get myself to the gym it wont be so bad not so much time to sit around and think of eating i know i could go get medication but i also know that eating right and exercise will have the same effect on me so why not do what is right.. my daughter has what you have simmie and shes had some really bad spells at college.. i guess it runs in the family.. i just have the depression part tho..my mother was depressed her whole life which is why i am the way i am she never took care of us or even got out of bed and when you are a child you dont understand why your mother doesnt speak or fix you food etc..... i am glad that i have more of a handle on it so my kids dont have to go thru what i went thru.. hugs catherine Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 7, 2001 Report Share Posted February 7, 2001 That's right . I agree with Kari. And I do not go to parties if I do not want to . I often say no to events they have at work. at my age I do not care to do things I do not like. So most of your people at the party were there because they cared about you. I love getting gifts but oh there is such joy in giving too. Keep your pecker up as they say in England NNN Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 7, 2001 Report Share Posted February 7, 2001 Oh catherine, if you read my post this morning, I was feeling pretty down myself. It's about aging alone. And when you had so many birthday celebrations, I, having just turned fifty myself earlier this month, got to feeling sorry for myself because I didn't have such festivities. LOL. I do understand though How it must have felt freaky to have such attention if you usually spend your birthdays like I usually spend mine, alone. But it's over now, and it's time to move on. I know the fighting yourself piece too as I do this with absolutely everything in my life and it makes me so mad at myself. I never accomplish anything because of it. Well, I'm very good at telling others what to do, so GET THOSE CARBS OUT OF THE HOUSE< GET THYSELF TO THE GYM AND MAKE A GRATITUDE LISST. I started one of those in late January. I mean to write down five things that I am grateful for every day....you know Ban Brathwait of Simple Abundance? Anyway I have only done it twice, but I felt better both times I did. She says it will profoundly change your outlook and your feelings so why not try it? IT's such a simple thing. And then there is always therapy to find out why you can't stand the attention. I'm just rambling here, but stop eating those carbs OK? Then you will start to feel better and it will get easier from there. corky ok support group ok its time for me to bite the bullet and get clean again since my b/d i have been fighting depression and i dont know if my depression triggered carbs or vice versa anyway they work together to keep me down and until i quit eating them i wont get myself back up or motivated its kinda a catch 22... my b/d made me depressed not for the reasons anyone would think i mean turning 50 you do realize part of your life is over but i have my kids and life goes on .. what made me depressed was all the attention .. i am not used to that i am used to spending my day alone and feeling sorry for myself.. i guess low self esteem makes it hard for me to accept gifts etc.. on saturday they threw a huge party for me with fifty guests... i have felt terribly guilty that somehow these people felt obligated to come to my party and buy me gifts.. i know this sounds stupid but it put me in a depression cus its not me .. me is curling up with a book or a movie all alone funny how i complained all my life that no one ever thought of me and then when they do i am not able to accept it ..i am reading a book right now on co dependency ..maybe it will help me deal with whats going on in my head or maybe it will make things worse before they get better..but regardless of my problems i know i have to cut the carbs and get back to the gym, take my supplements and drink my water.. i get so tired of every day being a struggle with myself to make myself do what i should like get out of bed .. i wish it was easy and i just jumped up fixed my eggs and did what i am supposed to do..instead of fighting with myself every day.. thanks for listening and dont think i am totally nuts as i tell my sister i can recognize the too many carb whine catherinePlease visit our homepage at http://members.xoom.com/AChallengersYou will find information, recipes, before and after pictures.To contact the list owner please send mail to lindag@...Visit our 2000 Train Tour Site - http://www.brunnet.net/k & l/web_site_train_tour/actraintour.htm Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 8, 2001 Report Share Posted February 8, 2001 Yes a that is really a very goo dthing to do to have a gratitude journal and all of a sudden one starts to be more posiitive, Going through the day and thinking of positive things to record. Why I even am thankful when I see a wee squirrel and really thankful that I did not run over it. And aren't our pets so joyful. And technology. I remember when I was young and my mom was so far away from eher family in England. Now they phone each other often. Life is good, soometimes hard but we must dwell on the good Amen! Love NNN Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 8, 2001 Report Share Posted February 8, 2001 thanks corky i did do ok today eggs and bacon and green tea for breakfast tossed salad with newmans dressing and pork roast for lunch chicken with spinach for dinner and green tea and i got to the gym for 45 min.. didnt get much water in tho ( have to practice up on that.. i will try to make that list up every nite like you said one thing on it will be the atkins challengers catherine Re: ok support group Oh catherine, if you read my post this morning, I was feeling pretty down myself. It's about aging alone. And when you had so many birthday celebrations, I, having just turned fifty myself earlier this month, got to feeling sorry for myself because I didn't have such festivities Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 8, 2001 Report Share Posted February 8, 2001 thanks corky i did do ok today eggs and bacon and green tea for breakfast tossed salad with newmans dressing and pork roast for lunch chicken with spinach for dinner and green tea and i got to the gym for 45 min.. didnt get much water in tho ( have to practice up on that.. i will try to make that list up every nite like you said one thing on it will be the atkins challengers catherine Re: ok support group Oh catherine, if you read my post this morning, I was feeling pretty down myself. It's about aging alone. And when you had so many birthday celebrations, I, having just turned fifty myself earlier this month, got to feeling sorry for myself because I didn't have such festivities Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 8, 2001 Report Share Posted February 8, 2001 sooooooo.... try it again ! use less soy sauce. it is good... my 15 yr old liked it !!! Lyssa....... DO NOT GIVE UP. Dianne 163/146/140 " The weakest among us can become some kind of an athlete, but only the strongest can survive as spectators. " Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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