Guest guest Posted October 25, 2004 Report Share Posted October 25, 2004 Calli I am so glad you are back. I understand completely the emotions associated with your brother. My nephew commited suicide couple years ago. He was so young and had everything to live for. We didnt know he suffered from depression. I am glad you are attacking life as a survivor. Welcome back Jeana Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 25, 2004 Report Share Posted October 25, 2004 Hi Calli and welcome back. I am so sorry to hear about your brother. Your family is in my prayers. Hugs nne Breast Cancer Patients Soul Mates for Life http://www.geocities.com/chucky5741/breastcancerpatients.html Check out my breast cancer ornaments at: http://www.geocities.com/chucky5741/bcornament.html also check out my other ornaments and lots of nice gifts at: http://www.cancerclub.com I'm back and posting! > > > Hi: I hope some of you remember me. I have been a member > for a while, but haven't posted for multiple reasons. I have been > cancer-free for 4 years. I have multiple other chronic health > issues, some from before the cancer and some from after, so I > haven't posted trying to tackle everything. I have so overdone it, > and am in pain everyday, but I take one day at a time and am > proud of being a survivor!!! My daughter's wedding was one of > the things that made me overdo it, but it was such a happy thing, > that it was worth it. My daughter and I had a ball organizing and > arranging everything and it was coming up fast! Her wedding > was October 17th, and two and a half weeks before the wedding, > another blow struck the family. Sept. 30th, my big brother > committed suicide. Nine days before the wedding we were all > in Rhode Island, to be there for his funeral. I was then on a > see-saw of emotions, happy w/ the wedding coming up, and > grief and anger at my brother's suicide. The weekend of the > wedding, however, only the wedding mattered. I promisd her > that nothing would change her big day, and knew that people > would look to me to set the tone that day and they did. I am > proud to say everything went off fantastic. A couple of fleeting > moments I thought of my brother missing it. But other than that, > it was all incredible. I was so proud to be the mother of the > bride!!! Now, I am kinda back on that see-saw. I still remember > clearly getting BC in May of 2000 and major surgery, chemo, > radiation, the whole nine yards. Not once did I ever consider > quitting!!! I don't understand; I had a life-threatening disease, > and will always balance diligence for my health and putting that > " cloud " in the back of my mind. I know my brother had his own > disease.....depression and addiction.. But I am trying to > understand why that " :spark " of surviving didn't kick in for him, as > it does for me. I know as BC survivors, you know what I mean. > Thankyou for " listening " , and I am proud to be back. > Calli > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 25, 2004 Report Share Posted October 25, 2004 Calli prayers for you that you will soon be off that seesaw....I have some knowledge of what you are going through....but I know all are different and feeling are different....so will be saying prayers for you....so glad to hear that you put it all in the back of your mind and let the wedding take precidence over everything else.....so when these bad thoughts creep in and I know they will just picture your lovely daughter in her bridal dress and all the happy times you had putting this together with her...Angel Huggs and Prayers calligrams <no_reply > wrote: Hi: I hope some of you remember me. I have been a member for a while, but haven't posted for multiple reasons. I have been cancer-free for 4 years. I have multiple other chronic health issues, some from before the cancer and some from after, so I haven't posted trying to tackle everything. I have so overdone it, and am in pain everyday, but I take one day at a time and am proud of being a survivor!!! My daughter's wedding was one of the things that made me overdo it, but it was such a happy thing, that it was worth it. My daughter and I had a ball organizing and arranging everything and it was coming up fast! Her wedding was October 17th, and two and a half weeks before the wedding, another blow struck the family. Sept. 30th, my big brother committed suicide. Nine days before the wedding we were all in Rhode Island, to be there for his funeral. I was then on a see-saw of emotions, happy w/ the wedding coming up, and grief and anger at my brother's suicide. The weekend of the wedding, however, only the wedding mattered. I promisd her that nothing would change her big day, and knew that people would look to me to set the tone that day and they did. I am proud to say everything went off fantastic. A couple of fleeting moments I thought of my brother missing it. But other than that, it was all incredible. I was so proud to be the mother of the bride!!! Now, I am kinda back on that see-saw. I still remember clearly getting BC in May of 2000 and major surgery, chemo, radiation, the whole nine yards. Not once did I ever consider quitting!!! I don't understand; I had a life-threatening disease, and will always balance diligence for my health and putting that "cloud" in the back of my mind. I know my brother had his own disease.....depression and addiction.. But I am trying to understand why that ":spark" of surviving didn't kick in for him, as it does for me. I know as BC survivors, you know what I mean. Thankyou for "listening", and I am proud to be back.Calli Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 25, 2004 Report Share Posted October 25, 2004 Calli - I read your post and I am in tears. My own oldest daughter was married in May of this year. I would like to throw my arms around you and hold onto you for days!!! Just know that I am praying thinking of you!! Love - Sue I'm back and posting! Hi: I hope some of you remember me. I have been a member for a while, but haven't posted for multiple reasons. I have been cancer-free for 4 years. I have multiple other chronic health issues, some from before the cancer and some from after, so I haven't posted trying to tackle everything. I have so overdone it, and am in pain everyday, but I take one day at a time and am proud of being a survivor!!! My daughter's wedding was one of the things that made me overdo it, but it was such a happy thing, that it was worth it. My daughter and I had a ball organizing and arranging everything and it was coming up fast! Her wedding was October 17th, and two and a half weeks before the wedding, another blow struck the family. Sept. 30th, my big brother committed suicide. Nine days before the wedding we were all in Rhode Island, to be there for his funeral. I was then on a see-saw of emotions, happy w/ the wedding coming up, and grief and anger at my brother's suicide. The weekend of the wedding, however, only the wedding mattered. I promisd her that nothing would change her big day, and knew that people would look to me to set the tone that day and they did. I am proud to say everything went off fantastic. A couple of fleeting moments I thought of my brother missing it. But other than that, it was all incredible. I was so proud to be the mother of the bride!!! Now, I am kinda back on that see-saw. I still remember clearly getting BC in May of 2000 and major surgery, chemo, radiation, the whole nine yards. Not once did I ever consider quitting!!! I don't understand; I had a life-threatening disease, and will always balance diligence for my health and putting that "cloud" in the back of my mind. I know my brother had his own disease.....depression and addiction.. But I am trying to understand why that ":spark" of surviving didn't kick in for him, as it does for me. I know as BC survivors, you know what I mean. Thankyou for "listening", and I am proud to be back.Calli Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 25, 2004 Report Share Posted October 25, 2004 Welcome back Calli...I for one have missed you. Congratulations on the wonderful wedding and I guess from your post that means you like the new son-in-law. I am so sorry about your brother. I too do not understand how people " work " at solving their problems and some can not pull out of depression. I'm glad that this group of survivors are doing it...some easily and some with a bit of problems. Doris > > Hi: I hope some of you remember me. I have been a member > for a while, but haven't posted for multiple reasons. I have been > cancer-free for 4 years. I have multiple other chronic health > issues, some from before the cancer and some from after, so I > haven't posted trying to tackle everything. I have so overdone it, > and am in pain everyday, but I take one day at a time and am > proud of being a survivor!!! My daughter's wedding was one of > the things that made me overdo it, but it was such a happy thing, > that it was worth it. My daughter and I had a ball organizing and > arranging everything and it was coming up fast! Her wedding > was October 17th, and two and a half weeks before the wedding, > another blow struck the family. Sept. 30th, my big brother > committed suicide. Nine days before the wedding we were all > in Rhode Island, to be there for his funeral. I was then on a > see-saw of emotions, happy w/ the wedding coming up, and > grief and anger at my brother's suicide. The weekend of the > wedding, however, only the wedding mattered. I promisd her > that nothing would change her big day, and knew that people > would look to me to set the tone that day and they did. I am > proud to say everything went off fantastic. A couple of fleeting > moments I thought of my brother missing it. But other than that, > it was all incredible. I was so proud to be the mother of the > bride!!! Now, I am kinda back on that see-saw. I still remember > clearly getting BC in May of 2000 and major surgery, chemo, > radiation, the whole nine yards. Not once did I ever consider > quitting!!! I don't understand; I had a life-threatening disease, > and will always balance diligence for my health and putting that > " cloud " in the back of my mind. I know my brother had his own > disease.....depression and addiction.. But I am trying to > understand why that " :spark " of surviving didn't kick in for him, as > it does for me. I know as BC survivors, you know what I mean. > Thankyou for " listening " , and I am proud to be back. > Calli Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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