Guest guest Posted July 17, 2008 Report Share Posted July 17, 2008 Strange thing happened on my way to the autism conference last week or so ago. I was stuck in a traffic jam. And this guy in a truck behind me kept moving his truck over to the left and peering into my window (I thought that I could swear it was happening). Turns out, it's my old boyfriend. We fell in love when we were twelve years old. He wanted us to pull over. But, we couldn't find our way out of the maze of traffic. So, I emailed him and apologized that we couldn't really talk. But, that got me to thinking about how different my life might have been. And I want that now. Just dont' have alot of faith that I'll ever achieve it. Or, find the right guy. He's married with many children. But, where's there a place for me? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 17, 2008 Report Share Posted July 17, 2008 --- Cam, I am slowly learning we can't go back...I tried so many times. We can go forward-and plan for something different then what we had and we change the present moment. I don't know how long you have been divorced, and this may change tomorrow- but one thing is certain- your place will always be with you. After dealing with a BP mother and husband for so long- you may just need time to just get to better know and love yourself- before you branch out to anyone else. Give yourself a chance to heal. Keep taking care of yourself, Malinda In WTOAdultChildren1 , " friendsofcam " wrote: > > Strange thing happened on my way to the autism conference last week or > so ago. I was stuck in a traffic jam. And this guy in a truck behind > me kept moving his truck over to the left and peering into my window (I > thought that I could swear it was happening). Turns out, it's my old > boyfriend. We fell in love when we were twelve years old. He wanted > us to pull over. But, we couldn't find our way out of the maze of > traffic. So, I emailed him and apologized that we couldn't really > talk. But, that got me to thinking about how different my life might > have been. And I want that now. Just dont' have alot of faith that > I'll ever achieve it. Or, find the right guy. He's married with many > children. But, where's there a place for me? > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 18, 2008 Report Share Posted July 18, 2008 sounds like a good omen for the future! > --- Cam, > > I am slowly learning we can't go back...I tried so many times. We > can go forward-and plan for something different then what we had and we > change the present moment. > > I don't know how long you have been divorced, and this may change > tomorrow- but one thing is certain- your place will always be with you. > After dealing with a BP mother and husband for so long- you may just > need time to just get to better know and love yourself- before you > branch out to anyone else. Give yourself a chance to heal. > > Keep taking care of yourself, > > Malinda > > > In WTOAdultChildren1 <WTOAdultChildren1%40yahoogroups.com>, > " friendsofcam " > wrote: > > > > Strange thing happened on my way to the autism conference last week > or > > so ago. I was stuck in a traffic jam. And this guy in a truck > behind > > me kept moving his truck over to the left and peering into my window > (I > > thought that I could swear it was happening). Turns out, it's my old > > boyfriend. We fell in love when we were twelve years old. He wanted > > us to pull over. But, we couldn't find our way out of the maze of > > traffic. So, I emailed him and apologized that we couldn't really > > talk. But, that got me to thinking about how different my life might > > have been. And I want that now. Just dont' have alot of faith that > > I'll ever achieve it. Or, find the right guy. He's married with > many > > children. But, where's there a place for me? > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 20, 2008 Report Share Posted July 20, 2008 Malinda, I was just re-reading your post and I think you are right on. So often, I keep feeling like I just want to be left alone...maybe that's because I do need that time to heal. Thank you all for your support. > > > > Strange thing happened on my way to the autism conference last week > or > > so ago. I was stuck in a traffic jam. And this guy in a truck > behind > > me kept moving his truck over to the left and peering into my window > (I > > thought that I could swear it was happening). Turns out, it's my old > > boyfriend. We fell in love when we were twelve years old. He wanted > > us to pull over. But, we couldn't find our way out of the maze of > > traffic. So, I emailed him and apologized that we couldn't really > > talk. But, that got me to thinking about how different my life might > > have been. And I want that now. Just dont' have alot of faith that > > I'll ever achieve it. Or, find the right guy. He's married with > many > > children. But, where's there a place for me? > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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