Am I Nuts?

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I fell like I have been doing so well lately in dealing with my past

and all the things nada put me through. I suddenly get this series of

3 emails from her. I haven't contacted her myself in well over a year,

so I am NC.

Email one:

I heard this today and it just struck me that maybe that is what is

causing your headaches, sore throats and tiredness...please listen to

the whole podcast before you turn if off. Maybe an Eye, Ear, Nose

and Throat Specialist could help you.

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Email two:

She sent me a corrected link.

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Here is email three:

sorry for sending you that info. I know you can take care of

yourself. Just sounded like what was going on with you when you were

a kid. Maybe treating your Celiac's disease has changed that and you

feel better now.

I think that is great how you discovered that and changed your diet so

much..that must have been hard.

Have thought a lot about my behaviors and guess some of them directed

toward you may have been...codependent or negative or controlling in

the past. I am trying to change for the better as I know that people

can change.

Sometimes I wish our family was like Beth's- they fight and then make

up. They let each other know what they're thinking and feeling- get

stuff out in the open so they can fix it.

I had to make a lot of changes. I lost weight and now I don't have

diabetes - my blood sugar is good. It was hard to give up sugar and a

lot of other stuff as you know. I am doing well.

I have a new little gal...she is 6 yrs old and her name is Angel. I

wanted a yellow one, but this little punkin adopted me.

I call her Angel and also " Tinytoes " . She is a sweetie.

Hope all is well with you.

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Am I nuts here? This woman sounds SO normal I really feel like maybe I

am overreacting and maybe she doesn't really have BPD. Then of course,

I think back and remember her behaviors and know I am not nuts. My

husband has reinforced this as he has witnessed her behavior first

hand. Man, it really amazes me how one little email can just throw me

off base so easily. I just totally lost it reading this and broke down

and cried. She has in the past had periods where she was VERY high

functioning and then periods of low functioning where she just totally

looses it. I am sure this is just an attempt to pull me back into the

fold and it almost worked. However, I know how far I have come in the

last year without her in my life. I am a different person. I am

happier, healthier and living a much more full life.

I would love to hear your feedback on this. You guys are so great at

picking apart the BPD speak. I know it is there and can see some of it

but I am so close to it, it can be hard to see sometimes.

I really appreciate any and all feedback. Guess I just need some

clarity right now.

Maeghan