zoloft withdrawal

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HI all~ my name is Angel and I have posted once or twice, but pretty

much everything has been going well. About 2 weeks ago things

started going not so well and have quickly escalated to the point of

almost complete shut down.

I've been on zoloft for approximately 2years now. My highest dose

was 50mg. I've been weaning (per the instructions here) for well

over a year. All was going well until I got to the 1ml (of a

10ml/25mg titration) I think I came down from the 1ml too fast

(cutting .1ml every month or so) I got down to .3ml and didn't

stablize as usual. Instead I got hyper sensitive. The smallest

sound would cause my body to release adrenaline....simple things

like a toilet flushing. I have 4 children between the ages of 2 and

15 who homeschool so you can imagine how quiet my house is. 3 days

ago I was curled up in a fetal position ripping my hair out because

they were playing. It was normal noise, but I couldn't handle it.

I just kept yelling at them to stop making noise. They didn't

understand, of course....it was scary. So that afternoon I gave

myself .7ml of my titration to bring me back up to 1ml. I've taken

the 1ml dose the past 2 days and the super sensitivity is gone, but

I have no affect. Christmas brought me no joy. I feel like no one

cares or understands (though a small piece of me knows they care and

are trying to understand).

I feel severly depressed. I also feel like I don't have many

options. It is not an option to leave, I have to take care of my

children. Do I check myself into a psych ward for a few days? They

will only put me on more meds. I'm walking around here like a

zombie. My husband is off today, but tomorrow he will be back at

work. I can be here as long as no one asks me to do anything. Not

a very realistic expectation.

I have been off my multi vitamin and have been having sugar and

coffee. All huge no-nos for me in regular life. I know I screwed

up on those choices. I stopped the coffee 3 days ago, but had to

have a little bit each day to stave off the headache. I've ordered

more vitamins and some goatein as well as cod liver oil. Can I

really get better at this point with nutrition? I feel like this

stuff has permanently altered who I am. I eat fairly well.

Meaning, mostly organic. I used to eat more fruits and vegetables

until my dh changed jobs and now we don't have much money for food.

I think we need to sit down and try to figure out a way to spend

more money on food. We have had to compromise and buy stuff that is

cheap (pasta, wraps, non organic cheese, etc..)

At this point I'm wondering if I should go up more on the zoloft.

It is so frustrating to me to have to wean so slowly. My husband

keeps suggesting I just go a little faster or go cold turkey so I

can just get it over with. 6 months on the stuff then 2 years to

wean? That is just crazy! I've also been having sexual side

effects for a few weeks now that cause me to be extremely irritable

most of the day.

Anyone know any good lawyers that will sue the makers of zoloft? I

can't believe so many people are suffering because of this.

Sorry this is so scattered I tried to get all the pertinent

information in. Any and all guidance that may help me get past this

point will be very much appreciated.

With care,

Angel