Tired of being.....

[Guest guest]

I am so tired of all of this. I hate doctors! Not all doctors, just

mine. lol.. They think " they " know my body better than I do. I am

getting tired of being passed off as a " mental case " . Right now, I am

on the synthyroid pill, only at 25mil. About a month ago, I was on

200mil. Okay, many questions are running through your head right now,

and some of you angels have answered my posts and possible remember

my pleas from before. Going back two years ago, I turned into

a " mental case " kind of out of the blue. Social phobia, anxiety,

depression.. The doc put me on zoloft without checking blood stats to

see if I had a thyroid condition. After months of seeing things that

were only in my head, and depression so bad that I wouldn't even get

out of the bed , My husband switched doctors for me, and the new doc

took a look at me and said " it's your thyroid " ...... blood tests were

done and yep, that's what it was. I was almost 300 pounds. After

being on the synthyroid for just a matter of a couple of weeks, I saw

a difference. Ok, so a year later, I had stomach surgery. I had lost

120 lbs.. Started with some weird symptoms of passing out and

seizures. Doc again had many many tests done and could not figure out

what was going on. Well, doing research on the puter, I finally

figured out that it has to be one of the many pills I was on. With

process of elimination of medication, I found that seizures were

being caused by the zoloft..Haven't been back on that pill for about

3 months now. No seizures.....Only on one pill, the thyroid pill, I

was passing out all the time. 6 to 10 times a day. Ok, it must be the

synthroid pill. again, I was on the 200mil at a weight of 140 lbs

now. Remember I had the stomach surgery, so now I was at the point to

think that maybe I was getting to much thyroid. Doctors would dimiss

anything I would tell them, still doing tests at my requests, still,

they would give me the feeling that I was making this stuff up. So, I

stopped the tyroid pill all together. Hey.. no passing out! It was

the pill after all.. WEll, this was not a good idea, for then other

things were starting to happen.. I started having " small stokes " . Ok,

this is where my left side of my body would go completly numb for

awhile, my face would even be droopy. Called the doc, more tests were

done on my head and heart. All came back normal...Ok, went to see a

thyroid expect, wanted me to stil stay off the thyrois pill for

another few weeks so he could do a chemical scan on thyroid. Well,

after a week more of not taking the synthyoid pill, I was starting to

see things and hear things again. I would be hitting myself in the

head and would ramble on,even suicide thoughts... hubby decided to

call doctor on his own and demand to be put on low dose of thyroid

meds. Against their judgement and telling him that that is not signs

of thyroid and being really nasty towards him, they put me back on

it. Well guess

what........... after just 10 days of being back on, the seeing thigs

and

thoughts went away, as well as the depression.. Cool right? I would

think. At 14 days taking the med, Anxiety was stating back up, but

only in the evening ( would take the pill on an empty stomach in the

am).. maybe not taking enough to carry me thoughout the day.. Easy

enought to think that anyways.. so I called the doctor only to get a

nasty receptionist telling

me it takes 6 weeks to see a diffeerence. Yes, I agree, but my body

seems to think that maybe it works a bit faster for me.. how about

some blood tests.. easy enough? right? nope, they refuse. So, again,

back on my own here.. I decided to up my own dose to 50 ( this was

just yesterday). Just to see what happens.. Well within two hours of

taking the extra dose, the passing out started again.. Who ever says

this med doesn't work right away hasn't met me, that is for sure.

Althought I was passing out, I had no signs of depression or anxiety.

okay, today I am just on the 25 mil again. Thinking of cutting pill

in half and trying the 25 plus cutting the pill (25 mil) in half and

see where that takes me. Although very scared to try this pigs pill

you guys have told me about because I am afraid of seeing things on

the wall again telling me to kill myself, I am just about ready

to " Go for it " ... Anyhoo, getting back to my ligitimate bitch here

about my doctors, they think I am nuts. I just wish they would just

take a min to hear me out and look into my situation. I feel totally

alone here in this city. My brother had told me our chiropractor, who

I just love to death and admire, said that our " specialist " here in

Erie, PA, are not really specialists.. that I should go to

Pittsburgh, a bigger city and a 2 hour drive away to find help. He

even offered some names of who he would recommend. WEll, what do you

guys think? Am I nuts?? Should I use my chropractors advice and find

a doc in PIttsburgh? or /should I stop taking the synthyroid pill for

awhile then start on the pig pill? I do not have the money to have

own blood test done, but I can't afford to be without any meds for

this thyroid. Doctors won't let me have the blood work done. Should I

just lean back for awhile and take the time into it and if I feel the

anxiety or depression just take a valum and call it a day till they

feel I have had it in my systom long enough for them to finally give

me the blood work I need done? AHHHHHHHHH.... I need some angels here

again... I know you all are not doctors, but neither am I and I seem

to be working on my own here.. Any advice even if it is " get a grip

Liz " advice would be gladly appeciated ..

[Guest guest]

I'll be happy to never cycle again, but I don't know if the *trade off*

is worth it. This thyroid thing is a mess. I slept almost all day

today. Paying for being out yesterday......

hugs, peg

" Life is like a beautiful melody, only the lyrics are messed up. " ~

Anonymous

> I believe that thyroid disease is the main cause of bipolar disorder. 

> The

> episodes that I had for six yrs never happened again, once the thyroid

> completely failed and went to hypo side.  I've felt pretty awful and

> problems with chronically undertreated hypo, but I've never cycled

> again

> since the thyroid crash.  It was one long bout of hyper, with

> smidgens of

> hypo thrown in, but the end of the cycling was almost 12 yrs ago. 

> There is

> hope.  Yea, Armour!!  Whoo Hoo!!

[Guest guest]

I'll be happy to never cycle again, but I don't know if the *trade off*

is worth it. This thyroid thing is a mess. I slept almost all day

today. Paying for being out yesterday......

hugs, peg

" Life is like a beautiful melody, only the lyrics are messed up. " ~

Anonymous

> I believe that thyroid disease is the main cause of bipolar disorder. 

> The

> episodes that I had for six yrs never happened again, once the thyroid

> completely failed and went to hypo side.  I've felt pretty awful and

> problems with chronically undertreated hypo, but I've never cycled

> again

> since the thyroid crash.  It was one long bout of hyper, with

> smidgens of

> hypo thrown in, but the end of the cycling was almost 12 yrs ago. 

> There is

> hope.  Yea, Armour!!  Whoo Hoo!!

[Guest guest]

I'll be happy to never cycle again, but I don't know if the *trade off*

is worth it. This thyroid thing is a mess. I slept almost all day

today. Paying for being out yesterday......

hugs, peg

" Life is like a beautiful melody, only the lyrics are messed up. " ~

Anonymous

> I believe that thyroid disease is the main cause of bipolar disorder. 

> The

> episodes that I had for six yrs never happened again, once the thyroid

> completely failed and went to hypo side.  I've felt pretty awful and

> problems with chronically undertreated hypo, but I've never cycled

> again

> since the thyroid crash.  It was one long bout of hyper, with

> smidgens of

> hypo thrown in, but the end of the cycling was almost 12 yrs ago. 

> There is

> hope.  Yea, Armour!!  Whoo Hoo!!