Re: Thank you for all of your warmness and welcome

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Judy you have nothing to feel guilty about....THIS IS NOT YOUR FAULT...Angel Huggs and Prayers Judy G wrote:

I m.......but doing a lot of battling with all of it right now. Not because of the cancer......other things that have went on on my life....I guess you could say, I am a believer......because I can battle with Him and feel ok with it.

And as for ending up in Holland.....geessss I would stop and smell the Tulips....what wonderful story.

I do take time to smell the roses.........it's just we were starting to get back on our feet.......now this......do you know, I just bought myself a whole bunch of new clothes......for the first time in , I dont know how many years.

Now this.....now I feel so guilty for buying them.I wish I had saved the money...We were going to retire in 3 or 4 years......now as many times before , because of sickness, I may have messed it up.My hubby is almost 63, and it hurts so much seeing him work so hard,, I was doing it for us.

Hey, I worked with one of the sweetest, most darling, she to is autistic....

I love her.........and I was making so much stride with her...I was able to pull her out of where ever she is.....she is 34. I miss them all.

Maybe he will come around one day...I feel so bad you don't have him tho.....TG I have mine.

Hugs

Judy

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Dear Judy,

that women die for breast cancer is becaming a myth, just know that. It's a hard fight, and YES, it is possible to lose it, but very rare. There is lot of support out there, and you have no idea of how many women with bc. Still alive, still around, with their hair back, as well as the good living.

I had the surgery for the lympho under my arm, and it happened 1 year and 1/2 ago. So far so good. Once in a while my arm hurts, expecially when I carry the grocery, but I am ok.

Chemo is a sh**. I did chemo on Friday, so I could have the week end to try to be back on my feet. Around the following Tuesday I felt less nauseated, and able to "live". I had four round of chemo, one every 3 weeks. I lost all my hair after the second chemo, but instead of crying I made a joke of that, and I bought myself funny hats. I was wearing (I still do) a pink ribbon all the time, so it happened more than one time that someone in the stores or at church came to me and said "I've been there, be strong you can do it". Actually, to lose the hair is a big deal, but there is nothing you can do about it, so let's trush depression and try to use the thing as a "oh.....no bad hair day for a while", hope it make sense. You do chemo for your own good, to gain chances of no recurrances in the future.

Actually radiation was "horrible" because it made me sooooooooo sleepy!

BUT everything is gone, water under the bridge, and praise the Lord I'm still around so far trying to cheer who is at the beginning of the journey.

You have a good husband, you said. Good for you. Take advantage of that for support. My husband was so piss about the cancer.......he blamed it on me. When I had the lumpectomy, still groggy for the sedation, I had to drive home by myself.

First chemo...oh, that was something. I was crying, of course, really scared. My husband came to the doctor with me.....with his portable computer. While I was crying, he ignored me. The oncologist was so mad that escorted him at the door with a "I believe you can go outside with your business, your wife needs same love now".

Oh well.....

Baby, keep going. It is a hard journey, but you are not alone, and you can do it, as the women in this group. This group is really like family to me.

Besides......hodwy gals, I miss ya all!! lots of love,

LucillaJudy G wrote:

I am not getting messages, so I am replying to all that replied..TY for all of your warm welcomes....The women in that chat room, weren't really rude......just ..I really don't know what they were.....I just felt stupid for complaining and that my feelings were somehow not valid.

As I said........my name is Judy, I'm 56 years old, one son and 4 1/2 grand kids..My brothers kids all me grandma so I have 4 others.......and one great grand child............Wow, I didn't realize just how old I am..And married 36 years..to a wonderful man. He is being so supportive and loving.....and he is scared too....last night he said.." I don't want to lose you" That hurt me more than anything.....seeing the fear in his eyes.

What I am most concerned about is the Chemo....I need to work and so MAD at this time of year, I don't know if I will be able...Im worried about the lymph node operation.....if it will ruin my arm...I do hair and make jewelry..

I am just so damn angry.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

that this creature has stopped my life right in its tracks..

My heart goes out to each and everyone of you..I hope I can pull from you some of your courage and strength.....

Love and HUGS

Judy G

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Judy you have nothing to feel guilty about....THIS IS NOT YOUR FAULT...Angel Huggs and Prayers Judy G wrote:

I m.......but doing a lot of battling with all of it right now. Not because of the cancer......other things that have went on on my life....I guess you could say, I am a believer......because I can battle with Him and feel ok with it.

And as for ending up in Holland.....geessss I would stop and smell the Tulips....what wonderful story.

I do take time to smell the roses.........it's just we were starting to get back on our feet.......now this......do you know, I just bought myself a whole bunch of new clothes......for the first time in , I dont know how many years.

Now this.....now I feel so guilty for buying them.I wish I had saved the money...We were going to retire in 3 or 4 years......now as many times before , because of sickness, I may have messed it up.My hubby is almost 63, and it hurts so much seeing him work so hard,, I was doing it for us.

Hey, I worked with one of the sweetest, most darling, she to is autistic....

I love her.........and I was making so much stride with her...I was able to pull her out of where ever she is.....she is 34. I miss them all.

Maybe he will come around one day...I feel so bad you don't have him tho.....TG I have mine.

Hugs

Judy

-- Re: Thank you for all of your warmness and welcome

Dear Judy,

that women die for breast cancer is becaming a myth, just know that. It's a hard fight, and YES, it is possible to lose it, but very rare. There is lot of support out there, and you have no idea of how many women with bc. Still alive, still around, with their hair back, as well as the good living.

I had the surgery for the lympho under my arm, and it happened 1 year and 1/2 ago. So far so good. Once in a while my arm hurts, expecially when I carry the grocery, but I am ok.

Chemo is a sh**. I did chemo on Friday, so I could have the week end to try to be back on my feet. Around the following Tuesday I felt less nauseated, and able to "live". I had four round of chemo, one every 3 weeks. I lost all my hair after the second chemo, but instead of crying I made a joke of that, and I bought myself funny hats. I was wearing (I still do) a pink ribbon all the time, so it happened more than one time that someone in the stores or at church came to me and said "I've been there, be strong you can do it". Actually, to lose the hair is a big deal, but there is nothing you can do about it, so let's trush depression and try to use the thing as a "oh.....no bad hair day for a while", hope it make sense. You do chemo for your own good, to gain chances of no recurrances in the future.

Actually radiation was "horrible" because it made me sooooooooo sleepy!

BUT everything is gone, water under the bridge, and praise the Lord I'm still around so far trying to cheer who is at the beginning of the journey.

You have a good husband, you said. Good for you. Take advantage of that for support. My husband was so piss about the cancer.......he blamed it on me. When I had the lumpectomy, still groggy for the sedation, I had to drive home by myself.

First chemo...oh, that was something. I was crying, of course, really scared. My husband came to the doctor with me.....with his portable computer. While I was crying, he ignored me. The oncologist was so mad that escorted him at the door with a "I believe you can go outside with your business, your wife needs same love now".

Oh well.....

Baby, keep going. It is a hard journey, but you are not alone, and you can do it, as the women in this group. This group is really like family to me.

Besides......hodwy gals, I miss ya all!! lots of love,

LucillaJudy G wrote:

I am not getting messages, so I am replying to all that replied..TY for all of your warm welcomes....The women in that chat room, weren't really rude......just ..I really don't know what they were.....I just felt stupid for complaining and that my feelings were somehow not valid.

As I said........my name is Judy, I'm 56 years old, one son and 4 1/2 grand kids..My brothers kids all me grandma so I have 4 others.......and one great grand child............Wow, I didn't realize just how old I am..And married 36 years..to a wonderful man. He is being so supportive and loving.....and he is scared too....last night he said.." I don't want to lose you" That hurt me more than anything.....seeing the fear in his eyes.

What I am most concerned about is the Chemo....I need to work and so MAD at this time of year, I don't know if I will be able...Im worried about the lymph node operation.....if it will ruin my arm...I do hair and make jewelry..

I am just so damn angry.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

that this creature has stopped my life right in its tracks..

My heart goes out to each and everyone of you..I hope I can pull from you some of your courage and strength.....

Love and HUGS

Judy G

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TY...... I know it isn't my fault.......but sure do feel guilty about putting us farther into debt....

:-((((((((((

Judy

-- Re: Thank you for all of your warmness and welcome

Dear Judy,

that women die for breast cancer is becaming a myth, just know that. It's a hard fight, and YES, it is possible to lose it, but very rare. There is lot of support out there, and you have no idea of how many women with bc. Still alive, still around, with their hair back, as well as the good living.

I had the surgery for the lympho under my arm, and it happened 1 year and 1/2 ago. So far so good. Once in a while my arm hurts, expecially when I carry the grocery, but I am ok.

Chemo is a sh**. I did chemo on Friday, so I could have the week end to try to be back on my feet. Around the following Tuesday I felt less nauseated, and able to "live". I had four round of chemo, one every 3 weeks. I lost all my hair after the second chemo, but instead of crying I made a joke of that, and I bought myself funny hats. I was wearing (I still do) a pink ribbon all the time, so it happened more than one time that someone in the stores or at church came to me and said "I've been there, be strong you can do it". Actually, to lose the hair is a big deal, but there is nothing you can do about it, so let's trush depression and try to use the thing as a "oh.....no bad hair day for a while", hope it make sense. You do chemo for your own good, to gain chances of no recurrances in the future.

Actually radiation was "horrible" because it made me sooooooooo sleepy!

BUT everything is gone, water under the bridge, and praise the Lord I'm still around so far trying to cheer who is at the beginning of the journey.

You have a good husband, you said. Good for you. Take advantage of that for support. My husband was so piss about the cancer.......he blamed it on me. When I had the lumpectomy, still groggy for the sedation, I had to drive home by myself.

First chemo...oh, that was something. I was crying, of course, really scared. My husband came to the doctor with me.....with his portable computer. While I was crying, he ignored me. The oncologist was so mad that escorted him at the door with a "I believe you can go outside with your business, your wife needs same love now".

Oh well.....

Baby, keep going. It is a hard journey, but you are not alone, and you can do it, as the women in this group. This group is really like family to me.

Besides......hodwy gals, I miss ya all!! lots of love,

LucillaJudy G wrote:

I am not getting messages, so I am replying to all that replied..TY for all of your warm welcomes....The women in that chat room, weren't really rude......just ..I really don't know what they were.....I just felt stupid for complaining and that my feelings were somehow not valid.

As I said........my name is Judy, I'm 56 years old, one son and 4 1/2 grand kids..My brothers kids all me grandma so I have 4 others.......and one great grand child............Wow, I didn't realize just how old I am..And married 36 years..to a wonderful man. He is being so supportive and loving.....and he is scared too....last night he said.." I don't want to lose you" That hurt me more than anything.....seeing the fear in his eyes.

What I am most concerned about is the Chemo....I need to work and so MAD at this time of year, I don't know if I will be able...Im worried about the lymph node operation.....if it will ruin my arm...I do hair and make jewelry..

I am just so damn angry.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

that this creature has stopped my life right in its tracks..

My heart goes out to each and everyone of you..I hope I can pull from you some of your courage and strength.....

Love and HUGS

Judy G

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__________________________________________________

[Guest guest]

TY...... I know it isn't my fault.......but sure do feel guilty about putting us farther into debt....

:-((((((((((

Judy

-- Re: Thank you for all of your warmness and welcome

Dear Judy,

that women die for breast cancer is becaming a myth, just know that. It's a hard fight, and YES, it is possible to lose it, but very rare. There is lot of support out there, and you have no idea of how many women with bc. Still alive, still around, with their hair back, as well as the good living.

I had the surgery for the lympho under my arm, and it happened 1 year and 1/2 ago. So far so good. Once in a while my arm hurts, expecially when I carry the grocery, but I am ok.

Chemo is a sh**. I did chemo on Friday, so I could have the week end to try to be back on my feet. Around the following Tuesday I felt less nauseated, and able to "live". I had four round of chemo, one every 3 weeks. I lost all my hair after the second chemo, but instead of crying I made a joke of that, and I bought myself funny hats. I was wearing (I still do) a pink ribbon all the time, so it happened more than one time that someone in the stores or at church came to me and said "I've been there, be strong you can do it". Actually, to lose the hair is a big deal, but there is nothing you can do about it, so let's trush depression and try to use the thing as a "oh.....no bad hair day for a while", hope it make sense. You do chemo for your own good, to gain chances of no recurrances in the future.

Actually radiation was "horrible" because it made me sooooooooo sleepy!

BUT everything is gone, water under the bridge, and praise the Lord I'm still around so far trying to cheer who is at the beginning of the journey.

You have a good husband, you said. Good for you. Take advantage of that for support. My husband was so piss about the cancer.......he blamed it on me. When I had the lumpectomy, still groggy for the sedation, I had to drive home by myself.

First chemo...oh, that was something. I was crying, of course, really scared. My husband came to the doctor with me.....with his portable computer. While I was crying, he ignored me. The oncologist was so mad that escorted him at the door with a "I believe you can go outside with your business, your wife needs same love now".

Oh well.....

Baby, keep going. It is a hard journey, but you are not alone, and you can do it, as the women in this group. This group is really like family to me.

Besides......hodwy gals, I miss ya all!! lots of love,

LucillaJudy G wrote:

I am not getting messages, so I am replying to all that replied..TY for all of your warm welcomes....The women in that chat room, weren't really rude......just ..I really don't know what they were.....I just felt stupid for complaining and that my feelings were somehow not valid.

As I said........my name is Judy, I'm 56 years old, one son and 4 1/2 grand kids..My brothers kids all me grandma so I have 4 others.......and one great grand child............Wow, I didn't realize just how old I am..And married 36 years..to a wonderful man. He is being so supportive and loving.....and he is scared too....last night he said.." I don't want to lose you" That hurt me more than anything.....seeing the fear in his eyes.

What I am most concerned about is the Chemo....I need to work and so MAD at this time of year, I don't know if I will be able...Im worried about the lymph node operation.....if it will ruin my arm...I do hair and make jewelry..

I am just so damn angry.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

that this creature has stopped my life right in its tracks..

My heart goes out to each and everyone of you..I hope I can pull from you some of your courage and strength.....

Love and HUGS

Judy G

Do you Yahoo!?Yahoo! Mail - You care about security. So do we.

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